ALIVE: Chapter 187, Homecoming

Roaming the earth for 40 days, Jesus felt nostalgic about His life as a human being. Living within time and matter, while seemingly constrained, created an atmosphere of wholeness. Time and matter framed Him here, even as the word encloses meaning. He enjoyed His humanity and praised His Father for the brilliance of the creation of humankind.

He vowed to Himself to forever remember all that He had learned by becoming human. Yes, God created man in His image and likeness, but by condescending to become man, He fulfilled the design. “God became man, so that man could become God” (Athanasios) again, after man lost some of his capabilities, even immortality through disobedience and distrust. Adam and Eve’s reasoning, a characteristic unique to humanity, collapsed through the influence of evil.

God miraculously tested His design. In no other way could He have gained the experience of limited life which is so often inebriated by the continuous ingesting of the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil, the battles, the losses, the wins, the struggles. Conflicts in reasoning (or will) abounding among men.

Jesus was more grateful than ever for Wisdom. Golden Wisdom, luminous Wisdom, sparkling stars in the darkness with hope and peace. Conqueror of chaos!

He looked forward to sending the Holy Spirit to all of humankind. Pentecost couldn’t come too soon. What a perfect day for the Holy Spirit, to give to God’s people Wisdom, while they are commemorating the wholesome gift of the law. What else could surpass the magnificence of the law, but Wisdom? What a marvelous parting gift to bestow on His brothers and sisters. He looked forward to that, but until then He had to savor His limited days as a resurrected human being within earth-time.

Jesus’ human life had to come to an end. There was so much more to do in overseeing the next phase on earth from His throne. Besides, He looked forward to returning to His Father. The reunion! Not that they ever left each other, impossible, but to be reunited as it had been before His incarnation; what a homecoming event it will be with all the thrones, archangels, seraphim and cherubim celebrating together!

While Jesus was ruminating, the archangel who whisked Him off Sinai to go back to the tomb interrupted Him again to say, “It’s time.”

Jesus looked over at the archangel and smiled at the pun. Time to go, and simply time itself. Then He nodded and closed His eyes to be transported to where His disciples were gathered at Mary and Martha’s house in Bethany. It had been hard enough for the angels to get them all together from Galilee. Peter’s wife in Capernaum had hoped her husband would stay home now that she assumed that Jesus didn’t need him anymore.

“Greetings.” said Jesus when He appeared in their midst at Mary and Martha’s where they  congregated to determine what to do next.

Mary was the first to notice Him. “Greetings Master, welcome!”

Everyone stood up, Jesus looked around for Martha and when they caught each other’s eyes, He thanked her silently for her hospitality over the years. She picked up the message, smiled shyly and returned His gratitude with a quick nod.

The others looked over and saw Jesus. By then they were not surprised at His sudden appearance. In fact, they anticipated it as the reason they all visited Mary and Martha together, so close to Jerusalem, so far from Tiberius where they saw Him last. Peter said, “Come sit down Master. We were wondering when we might see You again. How did You know we were here?” Peter asked in jest.

Jesus smiled and nodded, “Thank you, I will.”

Andrew stood up to give Jesus His place on the divan, and sat on the floor.

The disciples all gathered around for teaching and instructions, just as in the good old days. The men savored this moment knowing that it could be their last.

James was the first to speak, “Lord, is this the time when you will restore the kingdom to Israel?”

He replied, “Remember what I told you before? All references concerning Me must be fulfilled which are written in the law of Moses, and the prophets, and the psalms.”

Jesus looked around for their reaction to hearing that it would be a long time before the kingdom would be restored, and added, “You will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you, and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”

Then He opened their minds, so that they might understand the scriptures better. Jesus continued, “Remember, it is written, that the Messiah should suffer, and rise again from the dead on the third day. And that repentance and remission of sins should be preached to all the nations, beginning from Jerusalem. You are witnesses of these things. My Father promised that all this will happen. Stay here in the City until you are clothed with power from on high. Let’s go.”  Jesus stood up and headed to the door.

No one asked where they were going. The disciples simply followed Jesus out. Mary and Martha followed too. They walked in silence to the Mount of Olives. How they appreciated this last trek together.

When they arrived at the top of the mountain, Jesus stopped and lifted up His hands, and blessed them. After He blessed them, they lifted up their bowed heads and as they were looking for Jesus, waiting for His next words, they saw Him being lifted up by a cloud that took him out of their sight! They were all stunned.

While they were gazing up toward heaven, suddenly two men in white robes stood by them.

Matthew said, “Where did He go?”

Thomas said, “If I hadn’t just seen this with my own eyes, I wouldn’t have believed it.”

The two men in white robes said casually, “Men of Galilee, why do you stand looking up toward heaven? This Jesus, who has been taken up from you into heaven, will come in the same way as you saw Him go into heaven.”

They didn’t expect this. Every one of them knelt down to pray, to seek Him in their mind’s eye, to process what just happened.

After a while they stood up one by one, filled with joy.

"Where should we go now?” said Nathanial.

Peter answered fearlessly, “Lets go to Jerusalem! Let’s go to the Temple and praise God.”

Meanwhile, Jesus, with an entourage of invisible angels felt His body floating up into the sky. As He passed through the cumulus clouds, His physical mass slowly dissolved, like honey will dissolve in hot water and becomes one with the water. The moisture of the cloud dissolved the flesh and blood rendering Jesus to be the Holy Spirit.

Up up and up He went passed the clouds and through the atmosphere until Jesus and all the angels reached the throne room of God the Father. How can spirit have distinction separating one spirit, one angel, one bodiless person from another you ask? Well you wouldn’t have to ask this if your eyes didn’t deceive you so much. Soon you will learn the answer to that question, and so will I, and then I will write it down.

Meanwhile, arrive they did! The orchestra and chanting welcoming the Lord, the Messiah, the Christ home brought joy unspeakable to pervade the Kingdom of God. The Father embraced the Son and if spirits could cry with joy, this Father and Son certainly did, for there was no greater happiness ever, never before as there was at the moment that the Son returned from His mission, victorious. His bravery, His wisdom, His tolerance, His boldness, His compassion, His intellect, His wit, were all carried out appropriately and beautifully. No more proud a father has ever and will ever grace the universe.

The angels couldn’t wait to hear the Lord tell them stories about His human life. Stories not written in the gospels from the human perspective.

There was dancing and games, the most delicious angel food cake that the angel-chef had ever made for this grand occasion.

Jesus looked around to see the souls of so many Saints and prophets. When He spotted King David waiting patiently for His attention Jesus approached Him with a big hug, from one shepherd-king to another. They always had a special relationship, but this moment topped it off. Of course, Moses and Abraham, Isaac and Jacob were also waiting in the wings to catch the attention of the Lord and Savior of humankind. That cosmos without the hint of a demon shined with such a warm beaming quality of light that there were not even shadows anywhere.

The merriment continued like a long symphony, until everyone could sense the culmination was coming and then it did and every angel and Saint dispersed to their places. There was more work to be done from their remote control centers for the earth was more of a war zone than ever, and time still existed, and death still occurred. The good news was only a little seed in Judea and the Galilee that had to multiply and be scattered around the face of the earth to transform this chaotic planet filled with wheat and tares. But all that is for another day.

ALIVE: Chapter 186 (86-over and out. Roger that.) The Last 40 Days

To what can we compare the days after the resurrection when Jesus appeared and disappeared on earth? Nothing and everything. After the resurrection, the Holy Spirit aspect of Jesus was most apparent. The ability to float in and out of the narrow spectrum of light, visible to the physical world, and to change His appearance revealed the fluidity between matter and spirit.

And yet, He was still 100% human, and at the same time 100% divine, however, never since His birth was Jesus’s divinity more apparent in the Scriptures than during these 40 days. Every year for more than two thousand years, many of His dedicated followers contemplate the magnificence of Jesus’s mystical post resurrection life on earth.

Those Saints who struggle most to unite with Christ in His humility and suffering, have similarly found themselves moving back and forth in this fluid state of both matter and Spirit. It is here, during this forty days, as Jesus demonstrated, and the rare others have experienced that the curtain is drawn back that exposes the totality of reality, the realm that physicists and engineers dapple in, i.e., the invisible, mathematical nature of creation.

We have spent a while tracing the life of Jesus, the Son of Man, the Son of God, the Messiah, the Christ from birth through death. In these pages we have been given an opportunity to appreciate Him in a new way, reading into His humanity with its joys, frustrations, work, His relationships with the crowds, His followers, students and His enemies. We experienced through our imagination those awesome miracles, such as multiplying food, walking on water, healing the blind, lame, leprous and sick, and raising the dead. Jesus showed us what Adam forfeited by yielding to Eve’s distrust that lead to flat out disobeying God, Adam’s father. He also told us that we will be able to do these things and more. Saints have often demonstrated the truth of that statement while others have been ruined by trying and failing and thus falling away because of it.

After Jesus returned after defying death and releasing the captives in Hades, He further illuminated the path to the narrow gate that we must force our way through, as Jesus said, to enter the Kingdom of God and live forever on the new earth under the new heaven.

Jesus told us that the Kingdom of God is first conceived and grows within the heart of children of God during our physical lifetime; we need wait no longer to experience the life of the truly living, who are aware of being united with God and boldly recognize our wrestle with evil. [That is within us and comes at us, struggling to be able to discern the difference, though that doesn’t really matter. Evil is evil.] Heaven too is here and now. Woe to those blind who can’t see it, and are as captive| on earth as the dead were in Hades.

Saint Basil the Great The Hexaemeron: “If the sun, subject to corruption, is so beautiful, so grand, so rapid in its movement, so invariable in its course; if its grandeur is in such perfect harmony with and due proportion to the universe: if by the beauty of its nature, it [the sun] shines like a brilliant eye in the middle of creation; if finally one cannot tire of contemplating it, what will be the Sun (son) of Righteousness? If the blind man suffers from not seeing the material world, what a deprivation is it for the sinner not to enjoy the True Light.”

After the resurrection Jesus returned to His family and friends to prove that He was as alive as ever, and to demonstrate that life follows death. In life as in His  resurrected life, Jesus demonstrated what our physical body will be like when we live happily ever after. How nice that we can still eat!

The first five times of His appearance were on Pascha day as described in Chapter 185:

  1. Mary Magdalene: Early morning. (Jn. 20:11-18)

  2. Women at the Tomb: Early morning. (Matt. 28:8-10)

  3. Peter: Early to mid-day. (Lk. 24:34; 1 Cor. 15:5)

  4. The men walking to  Emmaus late in the afternoon. (Lk. 24:13-32)

  5. The eleven w/out Thomas in the evening (Lk. 24:36-49; Jn. 20:19-23)

After the surprise….

  1. Disciples with Thomas (a week later) John 20:24-2

Bartholomew went to the door this time and cracked it open to see if it was friend or foe. Seeing Thomas he exclaimed, “Where have you been? Did you hear what happened? Jesus is alive! We saw Him!”

“I had business, but I heard some say that Jesus came back from the dead. I don’t believe it.”

Bartholomew opened the door wider to let Thomas in, and shook his head thinking, ‘Poor sap.’ Then as Thomas entered past him Bartholomew said, “Well He was here.”

Behind them was the sound of human trumpetted-voices bellowing in harmony, “We saw Him. He IS alive!”

Thomas turned to look at Bartholomew and said, “Sorry pals, but unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands and put my finger in the mark of the nails and my hand in his side, I won’t believe you.”

Another week went by while the inner circle of disciples and the women were packing and  planning their next steps. They knew that they should leave Jerusalem, but argued whether it should be clandestinely to avoid the Pharisees and chief priests, and even Pontus Pilate, or not. Sabbath came again and they decided to trickle away in twos and threes so as not to be noticed. But to leave in daylight. The doors were shut. Without any knock or opening of the doors, Jesus suddenly appeared.

Bartholomew who noticed Him first was not surprised. He just smiled broadly.

Jesus returned the smile with one of His unique glowing smiles and said, “Peace!”

To get Thomas’ attention, Jesus cleared his throat. Thomas turned his head with widening eyes. He was speechless.

Jesus walked over to where Thomas was sitting, looked down and said, “Give me your finger.”

Thomas looked up and in shame reached out his hand slowly. Jesus opened His robe to reveal the scar left by the pierce. He took Thomas’ hand and brought it to His side. While guiding Thomas’ hand to the scar, He said, “Don’t be faithless. But believe!”

Thomas’ eyes welled up with tears about to spill out and said to Jesus, “My Lord and my God!”

Jesus replied, “Because you have seen and touched, you believe? Blessed are those who have not seen, and yet have believed.” Thomas winced and looked at the ground.

Then Jesus said to Thomas, “Come here. Put your finger here and see My hands. Do not doubt but believe.”

Thomas didn’t have to do that anymore. He was ashamed enough at his hubris and his doubt. He looked down again and just as suddenly Jesus disappeared.

“Where did He go?” said Thomas.

Bartholomew replied, “Wherever He wanted to! He is free now. More powerful and more free than ever. They can’t kill Him again. Want some lunch?”

(7.) Jesus appears to the 11 while they sit at table. Mark 16:14

By now, the disciples had gotten used to Jesus’s new way of appearing and disappearing. It seemed to be a way to gently prepare His men and the women to become accustomed to the living Jesus that was unseen. To some, like John and Mary Magdalene there was no difference at all in their love and relationship whether He was standing in front of them or speaking to them in their hearts or consciences.

But there were the others, as Jesus knew very well, who were only fixed on what they saw, like Thomas was before.

(8.) Jesus Appears to the Eleven While They Sit at Table.  Mark 16:14-18

All the disciples managed to get to Capurnaum, to the Galilee region.

One Sabbath evening they were gathered at Peter’s house. His wife and mother-in-law were glad to have Simon Peter home again.  Although they too had been grief stricken at the news of the crucifixion, they wondered in hope whether Simon would stay close to home now.

“Supper is ready, come gentlemen.” called the wife. The hungry men gathered and after prayer eagerly passed the platters and filled their plates.

Sure enough, while they were eating Jesus appeared (as Simon Peter’s wife hoped He would.)

He was not happy this time, away from the women disciples, and His mother He upbraided His men. “How many times did I tell you that I was going to suffer, die and be raised?! Why were you surprised?” And looking at Thomas and others, He added, “Why did you not believe Me?! Are you so hardened in your hearts that even after I have overcome death, you are still surprised to see Me alive!? Open up! Soften up!”

Them Jesus toned it down, knowing that He needed to build or rebuild their confidence… the same men that fell asleep while He was praying in the garden, the same men who scattered when He was arrested.

He continued more calmly but firmly so as to leave no doubt that they were being given orders, not suggestions. “Go into all the world, and preach the Good News to the whole creation, that I have overcome death, that the curse on Adam and Eve has been lifted for those who believe. He that believes and is baptized will be saved; but he that does not believe..” looking around at His disciples\ “will be condemned. And these signs will accompany them that believe: in Me they will cast out demons; they Will  speak with new languages; They will be able to take up serpents, and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall in no way hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.”

Jesus scanned the group to discern whether they heard and accepted the Great Commission.”

All heads nodded in agreement.

“Fine, let’s eat.”

The men dined with Jesus while Peter’s wife and mother in law served them. After the meal ended and they had spent some time in conversation, Jesus said, “I am going soon. Meet Me on that mountain in two days.”

When they all lowered their heads to continue eating, Jesus gradually disappeared.

(9.) Jesus appears to 11 on a mountain in Galilee.  Matthew 28:16-20

The men noticed that Jesus was gone again and discussed their next steps. It was very new world that they needed to acclimate to. Following Jesus was going to mean a lot more than being body guards and crowd control. Actually imitating Him as they had practiced when they were sent out to heal would be the real test of a disciple. An average earth-bound person, oblivious to the source and meaning of life and death would fail.  The three years they spent with Jesus was not very much time. Their future was to be the time to grow into what was expected of them.

Hiking up the mountain, each man was enveloped in his own thoughts. One by one, he reached the meeting place. When all eleven were there, they all looked around for Him and saw nothing but trees and sunny views. Most bowed their heads and some fell to their knees to pray; but some still doubted.

Jesus silently walked up to them.

“Hello Master, where did you come from? You frightened me.” said Peter.

Hearing that, the rest looked over and gathered around their resurrected Master to hear Him clearly.

“I brought you here to tell you what you need to be doing now. Do not fear the Pharisees or priests anymore. All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. Go out into the world to make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them into the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. Teach them to observe whatsoever I commanded you. Be assured that I am with you always, even to the end of the world. Is that clear?Any questions?”

Each disciple agreed whether aloud or in his heart. ‘Mission accepted.’

As in the good old days, the men built a campfire and sat around it and talked, getting further instructions from Jesus, warnings and advice. But most importantly, He let them know that He would always be with them to guide them. They camped out that night and in the morning He was gone again. The men planned where each should go.

(10.) Jesus appears to the disciples by the Sea of Tiberius.  John 21:1-14

Catching fish helped the disciples to understand what Jesus had meant at the very beginning when He said that they would become fishers of men. On a very practical level selling the fish brought in the funds they would need for their travels. The men relished these last days together before heading their separate ways to cover the world with the message of peace through trusting God, His Holy Spirit living and guiding them within, and ultimate eternal life. How could such a message be rejected? And yet, gaging from what they knew of humanity, the ego wars, they would be in for tremendous resistance and even their own crucifixions. They were ready. They had seen enough miracles to bolster their faith.

From the mountaintop that morning the band of disciples, the first chosen seeds of a new world, went down to the sea of Tiberius. Joining Simon Peter in his business were Thomas, Nathanial of Cana, James and John, the sons of Zebedee, Andrew, and Bartholomew. They prepared the boats and the nets all day, stopping when Simon Peter’s wife brought lunch, followed by their afternoon nap. Finally, it was time to board the boat and start fishing. The experienced fishermen boarded the boat while others waited on the shore. The evening and night creeped on slowly without catching a single fish. Such a circumstance was embarrassing to Simon Peter who always boasted of his fishing skills and how he was able to feed his family and the surrounding villages.

When dawn came, they had to give up and go to shore, exhausted and humiliated. As the boat pulled up, they all saw a single man on the beach looking at them. They pulled the boat up on the shore and disembarked. The stranger approached them and asked, “Guys, do you have anything to eat?”

Most of the men replied with a trail of echoing “NO”.

“Go back out. Cast out your net on the right side of the boat, you’ll find fish there.”

They looked quizzically at the stranger who seemed to speak with some authority. John said, “What have we got to lose?”

The men boarded the boat again while the strange man watched. They sailed back out a little ways and let the net out. Almost instantly the boat started to topple with the weight.

This time it was all hands on deck to get the boat to shore. It was around then that man after man realized that the stranger was Jesus.

John exclaimed to Peter, “It is the Lord!” When Peter heard that he immediately wrapped himself, since he was naked, and then jumped into the sea.

The other disciples who were still on the shore saw the burdened boat flailing and walked and the swam to it to rescue them by towing it in.

Once the boat was ashore all the men pulled together to drag the net full of fish onto the shore; it was much heavier on land than it had been in the water. Exhausted, one by one they all noticed a live fire-pit. The men went over to collapse closer to the fire to dry off and rest. As they reached the fire they noticed there was already fish on grills cooking and the stranger waiting for them with a basket filled with loaves of bread.

He said, “”Bring Me more fish to cook.”

Simon Peter went back to the net and selected several wiggling fish which he placed in a pail and took it to the fire-pit. The men untied the net and for fun, counted the number of fish they caught. 153!

John exclaimed, “It’s amazing that the net didn’t even tear with all these fish!”

Jesus called out, “Breakfast is ready!”

Even though they did not recognize Jesus by His appearance, they all knew who that Stranger really was. Like a servant, Jesus started passing out chunks of bread and pieces of cooked fish. John thought about it and figured that it was the third time he had seen Jesus after He had risen from the dead.

(11.) Paul’s account, 1 Corinthians; 15:3-8

“3 For I delivered unto you first of all that which also I received: that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures; 4 and that he was buried; and that he hath been raised on the third day according to the scriptures; 5 and that he appeared to Cephas; then to the twelve; 6 then he appeared to above five hundred brethren at once, of whom the greater part remain until now, but some are fallen asleep; 7 then he appeared to James; then to all the apostles; 8 and last of all, as to the child untimely born, he appeared to me also.”

Paul, who may be called the first-born of billions of post-resurrection disciples also saw the resurrected Jesus in the flesh. The shock of the appearance transformed Paul’s mind like a packet of instant repentance, like a mustard seed growing into a tree big enough to shade an entire hemisphere, and then the other.

Jesus, during these holy days walked the earth in a physical body, His appearance having changed several times to disguise Himself when appropriate. He had not yet risen to his Father. He visited the places He had been to and the people He loved, down to each person that He had healed or fed, or taught such as St. Thomas, the Myrrbearing Women, the Paralytic, the Samaritan Woman, and the Blind Man; visits we all take as we read these events over and over again, and as we appropriate their stories into our own lives.

It is believed that likewise each baptized follower, after death, although no longer attached to his or her physical body will do likewise before ascending on the 40th day. Has someone you love recently breathed his or her last? Has the heart stopped beating for the first time since conception. The heart that never stops day and night, day and night from gestation through every phase of growth and deterioration, like an invisible revolution around the sun.

Those are holy days for Jesus and for each of God’s children, filled with love and nostalgia for a world of the knowledge and experiences of good and evil, and we know it! We just must never eat it again! Trust God instead. He shows us the way through life to Life.

ALIVE: Chapter 185,  The Eighth Day

Being the last person to leave Hades, Jesus was free to pick a mountaintop upon which to enjoy His much needed Sabbath rest. Some angels thought that they hadn’t seen God, the Son, so needful of rest since the first Sabbath after they topped off Creation with all the animals and Adam and Eve.

Thoughts of spending the day and night on Mt. Sinai perked Jesus up. Sinai! Perfect. He always wanted to go there while still human. The Law is life. The Law. How devoted Jesus was to the Law, every single commandment of His Father. How perfectly He obeyed, and yet, it was for their misunderstanding of the Law (what is work?) that He was criticized. Ironic. Yes, Sinai was the perfect healing place. While on the Holy Mountain Sinai, just as on that day three years earlier in Jericho after He was grilled by Satan, Jesus needed the angels and He needed the Sabbath rest.

Dozens of angels and archangels met Him there to minister to Him. They chanted, they chatted, they performed tricks to return laughter to His heart.

As much as He wanted to, Jesus hadn’t ascended to His Father yet. He died as a human and He was still a human. He had one more person to bring back to life from the dead and that was Himself. Jesus grinned as He remembered the jeers, “If you are the Son of God, come down from that cross. Save yourself!” Nah, too easy, too soon. After leaving Hades and annihilating it, He needed to prove that He had conquered death. That He was alive. Flesh and blood alive. Eating and breathing alive.

He had one more feat to perform. He had to free the living from the slavery of sin, one person at a time. That would take a miracle.

More than the pain and humiliation of the crucifixion, and even more grueling than taking upon Himself the sins of humankind as the Lamb of God, Jesus needed to recover from the shock of being in Hades. After all, He didn’t know what to expect, which was why He had to become human and be crucified in the first place. It was so gloomy and horrible. If it wasn’t for seeing John the Baptist, David, and some of the prophets there, the pit of Hades would have been unbearable. The hodgepodge of good and the evil, the friends of God and His enemies captured together in one dark dungeon tormenting each other was even worse than the tumultuousness of good and evil wrestling against each other on earth and within each human soul.

Those souls in Hades who recognized Jesus, greeted Him warmly, although it was impossible for them to be genuinely happy, since they had grown accustomed to the malaise of Hades. Jesus shuddered to think back on what He saw there. The effect of the curse of death on both the holy and the hellish darkened the magnificence of Creation. It was time for sorting.

Gazing at the Sabbath sun setting on the distant horizon from the top of Sinai, Jesus was reminded that He needed to prepare for His  resurrection to prove that death had no hold on Him. “Jesus, we need to be going.” said Archangel Michael.

“What a view!” replied Jesus admiring the blazing red sky. “I’m going to miss being human.  This planet looks so beautiful from here. I only traveled between Galilee and Judea, there is so much more to see. I loved walking.”

“Remember, you went to Egypt.” reminded Michael. “Besides, you have the nebula to admire. These humans don’t have that.”

“Yeah, but I was too young to remember much of Egypt, except our neighbor. I loved her. Thanks for reminding me. I will need to make sure she finds out who I am. She will be so surprised.”

After the sun fell behind the Judaea horizon of that holiest of holy Sabbaths during the fourth watch of night, the Archangels Michael and Gabriel accompanied Jesus from Sinai back to the tomb. After the angels, bright and beautiful, illuminated the dark cave, Jesus reentered His beaten and bruised body. He lifted the cloth from His face, opened His eyes, sat up and looked around. He looked down and saw the dried blood where the soldier pierced Him. Then He closed His eyes again and asked His Father to restore His body.

He felt His beaten body heal while leaving scars for evidence. He  returned to the perfection of Adam at creation, before the curse of death ever haunted humankind. His mission, until He ascends to His Father will be to reveal the essence and capabilities of the original and future human being. He looked forward to relaying His parting lessons outside the synagogue. It was time to introduce all nations to the one true God.

Instead of an ethnicity, the chosen people of God would soon be related by their baptism, by obedience, humility, and faith, and in their bodies too through the Eucharist, holy medicine, the antidote of sin. They would be true children of God. Such a transformation of humankind was certainly worth dying for.

As Jerusalem slept, having fully regained His strength, Jesus first  wiped away the myrrh and aloes which had retained their fragrance through the night. Lower angels swept the cave clean.

Jesus jumped off the sepulcher and stretched His arms and legs. He folded the face napkin. Looked up at the angels with a smile who smiled back. He easily walked through the stone that had been placed at the mouth of the sepulcher to prevent anyone from stealing His body. He chuckled at how easy that was, and how pathetic His enemies were.

Outside, He took a deep breath of the fresh morning air. He felt great! He remembered that on the eighth day all baby boys were circumcised to receive the mark of the covenant between God and His chosen people. Well, here it was the first day, but also the eighth day. The sign of the new covenant would be engraved on their hearts, the place of spiritual procreation. Boys and girls alike would receive the invisible mark of the new covenant.

Light accompanied Him as He walked around soaking in the joy of being human on earth. He was sorry that these final days would be numbered, 40 to be exact, just as with Moses on Mt. Sinai when he retrieved the Ten Commandments, or the 40 days of the flood, or the forty days He fasted after His baptism. He looked forward to the surprise on the faces of the ladies who would soon be coming.

More than the imminent surprise, knowing the magnitude of what had transpired after the crucifixion, on Passover Sabbath and today, the eighth day, the seeds He planted for a new world is what brought Jesus the most satisfaction. He foreknew the tortures His martyrs would endure, and He knew that He would be with them to help them get through the mutilation of their bodies, but their souls would grow stronger and stronger as they endured until the end, which would be their arrival in Paradise. As He tricked Satan by allowing Himself to be crucified so He could go to Hades, so would His followers trick evil of all kinds by enduring it to received their own crowns of glory. A moment of pain for an eternity of joy, like childbirth. What brought gladness to His heart was the realization that the holiest of humankind could go to Paradise instead of Hades to wait for the new world, and that they could be there together.

Back in Jerusalem, Mary Magdalene and Mary the mother of James who was sleeping next to her woke up while it was still dark. They had felt such anguish during the crucifixion, that the Passover Seder seemed unreal as they went through the motions. Ordinarily after crying so much, they would sleep, but not that night, none of these ladies lady slept well. Magdalene said whispered to her friend so as not to wake up the men, “Do you want to go to the tomb with me now to anoint Him with the spices and oils [we prepared yesterday]?”

“I’m ready.” Mary replied eagerly.

Salome from Galilee heard the ladies and said, “I’m coming too. I’m awake.”

“Me too.” added Joanna groggily.

“Of course.” whispered the other ladies in unison. “Let’s all go.”

Without another word, the ladies dressed and folded their blankets. Joanna picked up the satchel of spices. Magdalene quietly opened the door and they all tiptoed out into the darkness of predawn leaving the snoring men and His mother in a deep refreshing sleep.

Heading up the narrow streets to the sepulcher the ladies walked slowly, somberly, and carefully to avoid tripping on the cobblestones. Joanna was careful not to spill the precious spices. Day slowly broke through the darkness.The closer they got to the tomb, the harder their hearts beat from fear and grief. They still couldn’t believe that their Lord was dead. It all happened so fast. Each lady succumbed to weeping while hiking up the last stretch of well worn trail to Golgotha.

Salome said, “I’m sure there will be a boulder in the mouth of the tomb. How will we move it?”

Joanna replied casually,  “Let’s wait until that is a real problem, before we try to solve it.”

“Here come the ladies.” said the angel to Jesus, “You had better hide!”

Jesus scurried behind a tree to watch for the ladies to arrive.

When they finally reached the tomb where He had been laid, suddenly the earth quaked under them. The ladies lost their balance and fell to the ground.

Mary Magdalene, propping herself up, spotted an angel of the Lord descend from heaven, approach and with a touch roll away the stone, and sat on it. She blinked several times to make sure it wasn’t just an apparition. The angel’s appearance was as lightning, and his robe was as white as snow.

The other ladies stared as they saw the stone roll away presumably from the quake of the earth, but they didn’t see the angel.

All four ladies were dumbfounded and paralyzed with fear as they picked themselves up.

With the stone fully out of the way, one by one each lady composed herself and brushed herself off. They peaked inside the opening of the tomb which which was drenched in light as bright as a summer midday and saw that Jesus was not there.

Joanna said, “Mary, are you sure this is the right tomb?”

“Yes, of course Joanna. I’m positive. Besides, what other tomb of a dead man would be so bright and have the sheets folded so neatly. Don’t you see the angel?”

Joanna shrugged her shoulders and tiptoed inside the tomb followed by the others.

Entering into the tomb, they all saw a young man sitting on the right side, arrayed in a white robe; and they were amazed. 

Suddenly, the frightened ladies heard a voice saying, “Fear not; for I know that you seek Jesus who has been crucified. He is not here. He has risen, even as He said He would. Come, see the place where the Lord lay.”

They tiptoed around for a closer look at the folded death clothes on the empty sepulcher.

After pausing while the ladies looked around, the angel added, “Why do you seek the living among the dead? He is not here, but is risen: remember how He spoke to you when He was in Galilee? He told you that the Son of Man must be delivered up into the hands of sinful men, and be crucified, and on the third day rise again. Today is that day, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday! This is a new day! It is the eighth day. No longer will it be known as the day to return to work.”

“Where is He?” said Salome.

The man replied, “He is risen; He is not here. Go, tell his disciples and Peter that He will meet them in Galilee. You all will see Him there.”

Mary Magdalene was the first to say, “Thank you!  Come ladies, there is nothing more to see here.”

Joanna dropped the satchel of spices and oil there in the tomb, and followed, smiling at the bright man in white as she passed him.

On the way out they passed the other brilliant angel again and feeling more comfortable after the shock, they smiled, nodded, and walked briskly away trembling with astonishment.

The second brilliant angel repeated, “Go and tell His disciples that He is risen as He said, “Go to Galilee!”

“Oh my!” said Mary the mother of James. “This is astonishing.”

Echoes of good byes and ‘thank yous’ trailed the rushing ladies down the mountain. Soon bewilderment swept into their minds. He wasn’t there, but where was He?

Mary Magdalene who was lagging behind the others in deep contemplation because she still wasn’t sure what to believe, and looking down to make sure of her footing, noticed a man standing nearby; she planned to walk by Him. Then she heard Him say, “Woman, why are you weeping? Who are you looking for this early in the morning?”

Mary Magdalene, supposing the man to be the gardener replied, “Sir, if you have taken Jesus away from here, please, I beg of you, tell me where you laid Him, and we will take Him away.”

Jesus said, “Mary.”

Recognizing His voice she said to Him in Hebrew, “Rabboni!” She rushed over to Him and fell at His feet. She touched them and worshipped Him, saying “My Lord, my Lord! You ARE alive! Glory to God! Glory ! Hallelujah.”

Jesus said, “Don’t be afraid, but don’t touch Me! I have not yet ascended to the Father: but go to my brothers, and tell them that I will ascend to My Father and your Father, and My God and your God. Tell them to meet Me in Galilee.”

Jesus then disappeared. Mary looked around for Him and when sure He was gone, she went to catch up with the other ladies heading back to tell them that she saw and spoke to Him!

She squinted her eye to see how far ahead her friends were down the path.

After hearing that Mary Magdalene had actually seen Jesus, the ladies merrily descended Golgotha and entered the city without saying a word to each other because they were all still afraid of the priests, and at the same time overjoyed. They passed men and women preparing for the day, removing their clothes from the line and children playing as if this was a normal day. Instead thought Joanna, this day is like a brand new day! I want to call it the Lord’s day!”

The ladies walked as fast as they could without running.

Magdalene was the first to reach the door and thrust it open. The men were all awake by then, still looking sullen. “Brothers! Our Lord is risen! I have seen Him!”

Matthew said, “Are you crazy?!”

The other Mary added, “We went to the tomb and we saw angels. They told us that Jesus was risen and to meet Him in Galilee. Let’s go!”

“Now I know you are crazy.” added Matthew.

Matthew said, “I don’t believe you.”

Mary Magdalene blurted, “I saw Him with my own eyes! He spoke to me. He told me that He will see you in Galilee.”

A few others echoed, “I don’t believe you either.”

Meanwhile, Peter stood up and rushed out of the house.

Mother Mary was beaming. She didn’t need to see for herself.

John said, “I’m coming too!” and started running, soon passing Peter.

When John arrived at the tomb first, he stooped and peaked inside. He saw the linen cloths sitting on the sepulcher. Peter arrived, put his hand on John’s shoulder and pushed him back and said, “I’m going in.” Peter entered the tomb first. It smelled so good in there!

Peter noticed the napkin that covered Jesus’ face rolled up in a place by itself. John then entered the tomb. He looked around but saw nothing else, no angels. All Peter could do was go back confused wondering what happened. They were both so shocked that they didn’t remember that Jesus told them that He would rise on the third day.

John said, “What should we do? Should we go to Galilee?”

Peter replied, “Let’s go back first and tell everyone. His mother will be so surprised.”

John said softly, “No she won’t.”

Meanwhile, two soldiers who had been hired to guard the tomb had fallen into a deep sleep. When the sun woke them up, they were afraid to see Peter and John in the empty tomb looking around.  They stealthily left and went into the city and the synagogue and confessed to the chief priests what had happened.

“We are so sorry! Please don’t punish us!” said the bravest more honest one. The other soldier nodded emphatically.”

The shrewd priests conferred among themselves said. “If we punish them the people will think that we are lying and that the culprit performed a miracle after all. We will never hear the end of it.”

“Yes, we will lose the people who agreed with us to crucify Him. Let’s go to the elders and ask them what we should do.”

“We’ll be right back. Don’t go away. You’ve caused enough harm!” said a priest to the lousy guards.

The elders, being older and wiser than the chief priests conferred with each other and came up with a plan.

The chief priests returned immediately with shekels from the elders.

“We won’t punish you. Just take these shekels and spread the word that His disciples took the culprit in the middle of the night, when you were asleep, which is probably what happened.”

The other priest added, “If or when Pilate hears this, we will persuade him that it happened that way, and you won’t be blamed. Now go.”

The guards took the money, and did as they were told. This is the story that was spread abroad among the Jews, who believe it to this day.

The only problem, that they couldn’t hide, was that it wasn’t true, and Jesus would prove it every day for centuries to one person at a time.

Later that same day, the first day of the week, when some were  returning from work, two followers were walking to a village named Emmaus, which was threescore furlongs from Jerusalem. They were talking to each other about the crucifixion as they walked. While they were walking and talking Jesus approached to walk with them. Thinking He was a normal stranger they greeted Him politely.

Jesus said, “What are you fellows talking about?”

Looking sad, one of them, named Cleopas, answered, “Are you the only one in Jerusalem who doesn’t know what happened and what is happening these days?”

Jesus replied, “What things?”

The other man replied, “The things concerning Jesus the Nazarene, who was a prophet mighty in deed and word before God and all the people and how the chief priests and our rulers delivered Him up to be condemned to death, and crucified Him.”

Cleopas broke in adding, “We hoped that it was He who would redeem Israel. And besides, today is the third day since He was hung on the cross.”

The third man added, “We heard that certain women of our company went to the tomb early this morning and said that they didn’t find His Body! They said, that they had seen a vision of angels, who told them that He was alive.”

The other man, Simon, chimed in, “Other people went and they came back saying they didn’t see His body there either.”

Jesus listened to these men while grinning in His heart. When they finished, He said, “O foolish men, and slow of heart to believe in all that the prophets have spoken! Didn’t you know that the Messiah had to suffer these things, to enter into His glory?”

Cleopas gazed at the stranger quizzically.

While they continued to walk, Jesus, being the great teacher that He was, expounded on the prophets, starting with Moses and Daniel, Isaiah and the others interpreting scriptures concerning the Messiah until they came near their destination.

Jesus stopped and said He needed to go another way.

Cleopas grabbed His forearm and said, “No please don’t go. Stay with us, it’s almost evening and the day is over.”

Jesus replied, “Okay.” The men all went into a boarding house together and sat down for a meal and rest. Jesus took the bread from the basket and blessed it and then broke the loaf in pieces and handed a chunk to each of His traveling companions.

No sooner did He do that then all of a sudden it hit them at once! ‘No one knows the scripture as well as this man, except Jesus. The report that He is alive is probably true! This man must be Jesus! And Jesus is therefore the Messiah that He had been describing through the prophets!!!’ That same thought ran through the men’s minds like thunder, loud, frightening, and real.

No sooner did they have this revelation than Jesus vanished.

Stunned and silent, the men sat there, glaring wide eyed at each other. Heads spinning while looking around for Him. It was too much to absorb, but it was reality and they had to process what had just happened. They were walking and talking with, not just Jesus, the rabbi, alive who had been crucified, but with the Messiah of God! Weaker constitutions would have fainted. But they were Jewish men.

After a while, processing the shock of that, when they were ready to speak, Simon said, “I knew it!!!  Wasn’t our hearts burning while He was talking to us about the scripture while we were walking?”

“Yes, yes, yes.”

“Let’s go back to Jerusalem right now. I don’t care that it’s getting dark. We have to tell His disciples! They will be at His mother’s house still holding shiva, but not!! I think we will find them there.”

Indeed they did.

“Let’s go.” said Cleopas. The men stood up right then and went back on the road that connected Emmaus with Jerusalem and retraced their steps.

Hours later, in the dark beginning of the second day, they reached the familiar home and knocked on the door. They heard Thomas ask who it was, since they were afraid that the chief priests would be coming after them too.

“We are friends: Cleopas, Simon, and Saul, we bring good news.”

James open the door ajar, looked at the men and then opened wider to let them in. Without a greeting, Cleopas blurted out, “The Lord is risen indeed! He appeared to Simon!” Simon nodded his head enthusiastically.

James said, “Come in gentlemen, come in! Tell us what you saw.” The men took turns recounting the events on the road to Emmaus and at supper, especially during the breaking of the bread.

While they were talking to the disciples and Mother Mary, Jesus appeared!

Eleven pair of bulging eye focused on the living breathing Jesus, Son of Mary, Son of Man, Son of God, the Messiah who just appeared in their midst. They were flabbergasted.

As if this was a normal visit, Jesus calmly scanned the group, then He spoke, “Peace be to you.” In other words, don’t be afraid.

But they were. They were terrified. They all figured it must be a ghost, an apparition.

Jesus tried to convince His disciples that while He had overcome death, He was still as human as ever. “Why are you so troubled? Calm down. See my hands and my feet, that it is I myself: touch Me, and see. A ghost doesn’t have flesh and bones. I do! See!” Jesus held out His hands. Then He grabbed Peter’s hand and shook it. The He stomped His feet loudly. “Did you hear that?”

Everyone was so glad to see Him. But they were still trying to figure out how He returned from the dead, except that a few of them had seen Lazarus revived after 4 days! That was different, Lazarus had been sick. Jesus was scourged and nailed to a cross.

Jesus broke the awkward silence by saying, “Mom, I’m hungry.”

Mary smiled, she was the least surprised. Her Son had prepared her for this moment. “Yes my love, coming up.” She went into the kitchen and brought out smoked fish, figs, and bread.

“Thank you.” Then He looked around, smiled and said, “Now watch this.” And He ate to prove He was alive and human, relishing the food and the opportunity to demonstrate His annihilation of death.

After swallowing, Jesus looked at them and said again, Peace be unto you: as the Father has sent Me, even so send I you.”

Then He took a deep breathe and blew His breath on them, and said, “Receive the Holy Spirit. Whosoever sins you forgive, they are forgiven of them; whosoever sins you retain, they are retained.”

The first day ended, the day when Jesus went back to work after His Sabbath rest. There was much to accomplish during His last 40 days on earth, but not as much as during the following millennia when He in His Father and with their Holy Spirit would transform the world—when the first day (Light BE!) and the eighth day (circumcision-covenant, resurrection-covenant) unite  and are called The Lord’s Day, a second Sabbath day of rest. Never again to be the day to return to work.

John 1:10-13

He was in the world, and the world was made through Him, and the world did not know Him. He came to His own, and His own did not receive Him. But to those who receive Him, to those who believe in His name, He gave the right (the essence, the power) to become children of God —children born not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but they are born of God.    

And live happily ever after. True. And live happily ever after. True.

ALIVE: Chapter 184, it’s Sabbath

Genesis 2:1-3. Thus the heavens and the earth were finished, and all their multitude. And on the seventh day God finished the work that He had done, and He rested on the seventh day from all the work that He had done. So God blessed the seventh day and hallowed it, because on it God rested from all the work that he had done in creation.

Exodus 19:20-21. When the Lord descended upon Mount Sinai, to the top of the mountain, the Lord summoned Moses to the top of the mountain and Moses went up. Then the Lord said to Moses, “Go down and warn the people not to break through to look; otherwise many of them will perish.”

Exodus 20:1-3 Then God spoke all these words: “I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery, you shall have no other gods before Me.”

Exodus 20:8-11. “Remember the sabbath day, and keep it holy. Six days you shall labor and do all your work. But the seventh day is a sabbath to the Lord your God; you shall not do any work - you, your son or your daughter, your male or female slave, your livestock, or the alien resident in your towns. For in six days the Lord made heaven and earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but rested on the seventh day; therefore the Lord blessed the seventh day and consecrated it.”

Jesus’s work was finished on the sixth day when Hades was emptied, as was God’s work finished on the sixth day when Adam and Eve were made. God the Father rested, and God the Son rested. God rested. He rested after He delivered the prisoners of Hades, a feat equal to releasing His chosen people from Egypt. Egypt, where they went to find freedom from famine and ended up in slavery for over 400 years. Fleeing to Egypt turned out to be a terrible disappointment. As when God created mankind. Like corruption. Like illness. Like failure. Like war. However, in the long run, God is far sighted. He uses evil like a dark color on an artist’s palette, to teach, to test, to mold, using it for the formation of His ultimate great design. There is a place and time for Paradise, a perfect holy beautiful pure world and this earth is not it. It’s the first phase.

All the followers of Jesus rested. All the haters of Jesus rested. The Pharisees rested as did the chief priests. Levi rested and Judah rested. It was a sacred day. An invisible chasm between the old covenant and the new, deeper than the Grand Canyon was temporarily filled with rest on this unique day among the billions of years since the first day. In God’s mind this Sabbath was a replica of the very first unique holy hallowed Sabbath, when He sat back pleased with His Creation, calling it good and especially mankind calling it very good. That first Sabbath like this one began at sunset, as did the last two days of creation  (after the sun was created on the 4th day). It wasn’t sleep. It was rest. Wakeful, alert, conscious rest. Holy rest.

Jesus rested somewhere.

On the first day of Creation, God said, “Light be.” And a bright light appeared out of what had been only darkness and void. His only begotten Son is called Light of Light, true God of True God, begotten, not made. And on this particular 6th day, the day that marked the completion of creation, the Son of God was hung to die on the Cross and darkness covered the earth. The entire earth, an eclipse of the sun sat in darkness. This overlay reveals something very important to see.

The old covenants had been fulfilled. The first with Noah that he would be fruitful and multiply to repopulate the earth. An addendum of this covenant being that there would never again be a flood that would destroy the whole earth. The sign of the rainbow is a sign of that covenant between the earth and God and Noah.

The second covenant was with Abraham and his offspring, that they would inherent the land, and become a numerous nation. The sign of this covenant is circumcision of the males. This covenant was confirmed with Abraham’s sons, Isaac and Jacob and is repeated to this day. Isaac who was nearly sacrificed by his father, ended up living for 180 years, and Jacob’s 12 sons kicked off the making of that promised nation.

The newest covenant of God invited all nations and peoples of the earth into the fold of God’s chosen people, each living person is called to be as faithful as Noah and Abraham. Humans, the crown of His creation, are free to drawn near to Him to be considered for entry in the Book of Life. Israel went to sleep after the Passover Seder that followed the most intense day, the Crucifixion of the Son of God.

The Lord God was pleased. It was truly finished. Seeds for populating a new earth and a new heaven were planted in rich fertile soil.

The moon washed over them like a halo in the dark starry sky. This would be the very last night of the dying old world from the moment of the curse, through millennia of destructive conflicts, wars, pain, tortures without a path out. Death was met at the end of every road. But from the sixth day, eve of Passover, there was no Hades to fall into, there was only judgment.

Israel, Jacob’s tribes of sons who birthed the nation, woke up with the sunrise to continue to enjoy their Sabbath of Passover rest. This day of rest was packed full of contemplation of the crucifixion for some, of the first Passover for others, of frenetic worldly thoughts for others. The fast of matzoh wouldn’t allow the people of God to forget the rushed flight out of there. The first born in their homes fasted from everything on the first day. The people poured into their synagogues all over Jerusalem and all over Israel from Galilee to Judea to pray. For the next 7 days the chosen people of God are steeped into a timeless space. An inner vacation from the world around them. Even Pontus Pilate and his soldiers respected the holy days.

The chosen people of God prayed, and tried their best to please, but weakness usually overwhelmed their own wills. In foreign lands it was worse, they knew not of God, the Creator. Humans created gods out of clay, or wood, or metal. They worshipped them. The Greeks and Romans, and more advanced civilizations  created them out of their imaginations, Zeus, Hercules, Aphrodite, Athena. No matter what they did, how they thought, no matter how rich or poor they became, death was the end. A pile of carcasses buried or burned after fewer than an hundred years of being human with all its emotions and intelligence.

It had been a hallowed night, followed by familiar sunshine and more rest. The Sabbath, a day set aside to worship God who created this magnificent world, for those few who recognized Him and knew about it.

On this bright day of Passover rest, although thousands had flocked to see and hear the teacher, healer, and miraculous Son of Man, very few on planet earth knew that Jesus even existed, and they wouldn’t know for centuries. The rising sun shines on a slice of the rotating earth at a time. A night, the beginning of a day, evolved into centuries. Like an oak tree seed buried deep within rich soil grows into a mighty oak that sees generations of men come and go, and never dies, enduring fierce weather, but it is stronger than the weather, and granted to withstand everything as a testimony to design and providence.

No one could know the power hidden in the rest on that one and only Passover Sabbath day when crucified Jesus rested somewhere.

By the end of the Sabbath, at sunset which began the first day of the week, the Jews were ready to sleep again, enveloped in peace and rest, that night was without feast and without famine. Their souls were full.

ALIVE: Chapter 183, Passover

While Joseph and Nicodemus were burying the sacred body of Jesus, the Son of God, Light of Light, True God of True God, the crowd dispersed to commemorate the highest holy day of the year, Passover. God’s timing is perfect, linking the new covenant with the old within a twenty-four hour period. The miraculous Passover of death for Israel is forever bonded to the death of God’s own Son, Whom death did not pass over.

Pharaoh’s son died, releasing the slaves from their forced labor and political control. God’s Son died and released mankind from the power of sin and death. He parted the Red Sea, even as He opened the gates of Hades. Freedom.

When the Lord saw the lamb’s blood on the lintels and the doorposts He did not allow the destroyer to enter that house. Instead, death passed over that house. Never forget. Never ever forget. Never ever ever forget. Thousands of years will go by, in every single one of them remind yourselves of what God did for you. Don’t let one year go by. Commemorate it with your families. Teach your children; when they grow older, they will teach their children.The release of God’s chosen was triggered by the death of Pharaoh’s son. Moonlight.

The new Passover. Pascha, the death of the only born Son of God miraculously released all of humankind, not just Israel, from the bondage of death in Hades where everyone went because of Adam and Eve’s sin of distrust, distancing themselves from God. On the sixth day, Adam and Eve were created and on the sixth day humankind crucified it’s Creator. That heinous, that utterly odious sin, that wicked sin of distrust repeated in every person reaped the same effect - death, and bondage in Hades. Man separates himself from God in distrust over and over and over again. Jesus trusted His Father even unto death, taking the faith and trust of Abraham with his son, Isaac to the last step. Abraham was spared killing his precious son because he proved his overriding trust of God. God did not spare Himself of witnessing the killing of His son.

Distrust is the one sin that appears in thousands of forms. Distrust of God is the common denominator of all sins. By carrying that one sin, Jesus “carried all of our sins” as the sacrificial lamb of God. When Jesus was brought so very low that He cried out, ‘My God, My God why have You foresaken Me?’ It was the moment that He had received the one sin; it was finished, and He was able to die.

Once we died with Him, in Him, (in baptism) we can also overcome death as He did. Release from the bondage of sin IS release from the bondage of death. FREEDOM. Release from Hades. Sunlight.

Does sin still occur? Does death still occur? Did the slaves on the other side of the Red Sea suddenly obey and worship God in humility and gratitude? Then was it all for naught? What is unseen, what is not known and appreciated is infinitely more real, more powerful and more meaningful than the outer layer reveals. The heart of man is not worn on the sleeve but is nestled deep within and directs the mind and gives life to the entire body. God is all knowing, patient and wise. He knows the end from the beginning. These two deaths, of the first born Son of Pharaoh and of the Son of God changed the course of history. It was impossible for those present, either at the first Passover who were passed over by death, or those who witnessed the crucifixion, to know the magnitude of what happened on the day that each event occurred.

Passover + Pascha = Freedom restored.

Before nighttime rose with the falling sun, into the darkness of a new day, the day of preparation having passed, and the Passover day dawning everyone at Golgotha went to their homes full of sadness and gratitude. Sadness over witnessing the crucifixion of their loved ones gone wrong, and of the rabbi Jesus, and gratitude over the sudden freedom of their slave ancestors in Egypt.

The cost for the miracle of freedom after 430 years of slavery was perpetual commemoration. Teach your children, every year of your life; ask yourselves the four questions .

  1. Why is it that on all other nights of the year we eat either leavened bread or matzah, but on this night we eat only matzah?

  2. Why is it that on all other nights we eat all kinds of vegetables, but on this night we eat bitter herbs?

  3. Why is it that on all other nights we do not dip our food even once, but on this night we dip them twice?

  4. Why is it that on all other nights we dine either sitting upright or reclining, but on this night we all recline?

Then praise the Lord God and say, “Blessed are You, Adonai our God, Ruler of the world, Creator of the fruit of the vine.

Blessed are You, Our God, Sovereign of the universe, who has chosen us from among the peoples, exalting us by hallowing us with mitzvot. In Your love, Adonai our God, You have given us feasts of gladness, and seasons of joy; this Festival of Pesach, season of our freedom, a sacred occasion, a remembrance of the Exodus from Egypt. For You have chosen us from all peoples and consecrated us to Your service, and given us the Festivals, a time of gladness and joy. Blessed are You, Adonai, who sanctifies Israel and the Festivals.”

Echoes of that prayer could be heard throughout Jerusalem on this auspicious evening of the crucifixion of Jesus. Mother Mary and John walked back to her home from Golgotha. A pilgrimage in silent prayer.

They arrived to find Peter, Andrew, James, and the others ready for the Seder. The floor had been prepared with the low table as in the upper room. They had to lean very close to each other to fit everyone in.

John looked around and wondered, “Could it have just been last night when we were sharing the last supper, and tonight we are mourning His crucifixion?” He was in a daze.

The rushed exodus, only enough time to make matzoh, was followed by the rushed crucifixion that tried and killed the flagrant rabbi before the Shabbat of Passover. Running away, and running toward.

Arguing with himself John thought, “But how could we not commemorate the Passover? The Lord God required it; how could we skip it, even this year? Aren’t we still children of Abraham?”

With hearts filled with grief and fear, the disciples and ladies reclined to be asked the questions, recount the story, drink the wine, and eat the bitter herbs which tasted more bitter than ever, and eat the sacrificial lamb.

It was too much of a coincidence that the innocent Passover lambs that carried the sins of the people, the lambs whose very blood repelled death, were slain on the same day of preparation as was the innocent Lamb of God. It was a message. There was not a dry eye in the room. Was it for this day, and this coincidence that the Lord God told us to never forget that night?

Matthew said aloud to the other disciples, “Remember how He washed our feet, and passed the cup of wine, saying it was His blood, and that the bread was His body? That was so strange? Until I remember that it is the blood of the lamb carrying our sins that repelled death tonight. Jesus offered us His own blood. Does It too repel death? Here we are about to eat the lamb’s body as a reminder of the wages of sin, and for nourishment. In offering us His blood and His body was He telling us that He was carrying our sins? Being innocent, being the Son of God as He claimed, He must be the Lamb of God! Why else would He ask us to drink His blood and eat His body? What happened on Passover night is the prelude of the crucifixion that happened today!”

Thomas said, “Yes! I thought that it was strange to offer us His Blood and Body, but I didn’t question Him. Oh my, now it makes sense!”

Bartholomew said, “This comparison is too intense. How can we receive it?  Brothers, Jesus is dead. As dead as the lamb. Where is our freedom? We have sacrificed many lambs in our lifetime, as a symbol. But we never drink the lamb’s blood. It is forbidden.”

Finally, Phillip spoke up saying, “It was the lamb’s blood that repelled death. Maybe, just maybe by receiving Jesus’s blood as He offered it to us….maybe He was painting the lintels and doorways of our hearts, that we may never die. It’a not a symbol. Just as on Passover night the blood was not a symbol, but it was real and powerful.”

Andrew diverted the conversation by going back to their recollection of the supper of the evening before, “Remember when He dipped the bread in the sop to indicate who was to betray Him, yes it was Judas! That scoundrel! On this Passover night that room must be stone cold empty. But didn’t Jesus tell us to prepare the Passover for us there? Why are we here tonight instead of in that room?”

Peter answered Matthew, “He told me to reserve the room to prepare for the Passover, and all we did was to prepare for the Passover? The Passover is tonight. Maybe He thought we would be celebrating together tonight in that room, after the day of Preparation.”

James lowered his wrinkled brow and said softly, “But maybe it was the Passover, maybe it was the first day of a new kind of Passover Seder that He wants us to commemorate.”

Thomas reclining next to James heard him and said, “What do you mean by a new Passover James?”

James replied louder, “There was no lamb at the supper last night and yet Jesus was the sacrificial lamb. That’s why He gave us His body and Blood. Wasn’t today the day the lambs were slaughtered for this meal? Wasn’t He too killed on the day of preparation when the lambs are slaughtered ? Maybe instead of  families at this Seder, we are a new kind of family. Didn’t Jesus once say to us, if you love brother or sister, mother or father more than Me, you aren’t worthy of Me? We are a new family. Maybe death did pass over Jesus? Maybe, because we drank His blood, it will pass over us too?”

“What are you saying James?!” said Mary Magdalene. “I saw His dead body! I saw Joseph and Nicodemus lay Him in the tomb!” Then she sobbed.

James retorted heatedly, “Didn’t He tell us that after three days the temple would be rebuilt? Didn’t we see ghosts wandering around Jerusalem?! Maybe those ghosts had been freed from Hades just like we were freed in Egypt. If He raised Lazarus after being in the tomb for four days, couldn’t He open the gates of Hades? Is there anything God can’t do?”

As if in a daze too, Salome said, “This morning we were preparing this home for this Passover Seder, there is no leaven here anymore. I left my parents years ago to follow Jesus. You are my family.”

Mary Magdalene quoted a line from the psalm that her mother taught her, ‘They parted my garments among them, and cast lots for my vesture.’ “I saw them do that! What happened today was prophesied. God knew it. Jesus knew it.”

The family responded with small gasps of surprise and groans of confusion.

John looked over at his new mother Mary to see what she was thinking and how much she knew ahead of time. Mary simply looked serene and somber.

Matthew shouted, “Come, this is our Seder! Let’s get on with it.” He glanced over at Mary who nodded in agreement.

James wondered how he could deliver the Seder talk about the death passing over their homes, when today death had come to Mary’s only Son? But at least Jesus gave her John, as a son to protect and care for her. She would not be alone, He made sure of that. Joseph’s sons were married with families of their own, except for James. But James wanted to go his own way. John was young enough and loving enough to be a perfect new son for Mary. He needed her too.

Salome said, “The Seder! Jesus would want us to. He must be resting in the bosom of Abraham right now. James, please continue.”

James led the prayer. Followed by Andrew who recited the story, ““Passover, the day that the Lord God told us to never forget what He had done for us. And so these centuries later, our people, the Chosen  people of God, from the toddler to the frail old man ceremoniously remember the way God miraculously freed us from slavery. Every year, we try harder to imagine how it must have been for the Angel of Death to pass over our doorways, painted with the blood of the sacrificial lamb. Death passed us by and took the first born of our neighbors. That destroyer even killed Pharaoh‘s son!”

Simon added, “Of course they had to leave; of course Pharaoh would finally want to expel them. He was overcome with grief. None of the marvels, the bloody river, the frogs, the flies, the gnats, the hail, the darkness, nothing convinced Pharaoh to let them go, even for a few days, nothing but the death of his first born son was strong enough to weaken Pharaoh’s hold.  He had everything to lose when we left.”

When Andrew finished asking the questions, Matthew spoke up, “Remember the darkness? It was frightening. It was so dark.”

John said, “I wonder if that was Father God expressing His own grief. It was as if the world was going to come to an end right then and there.”

After the Seder everyone stood up, there was to be no cleaning. They went back to the divans, chairs and beds to sleep. They all looked forward to the extended Sabbath day of unleavened bread, thoughts of Egypt and the 40 years of travel and why it took so long to reach the promise land. It was the Sabbath. The day God rested from Creation Week, and commanded His people to rest too. And so they did with full hearts and busy minds.

A few of the ladies were planning to visit the tomb at sunrise to bring Him more myrrh and flowers.

All the followers of Jesus in Jerusalem that night, and there were thousands of them, were grieving, straddling two worlds. They knew it and they didn’t.

Why the last supper was not a Seder

  1. The trial could not have occurred during Passover.

  2. There was no mention of lamb at that meal.

  3. The bread was called άρτος in Greek, which refers only to leavened bread, not άζυμη which refers to unleavened bread. (The Roman Catholic Church, which was one Church originally used leaven bread for the Eucharist, but changed to unleavened bread in Spain when there were so many people to offer the Eucharist to, that it was more efficient to pass out the wafers rather than the leavened bread (body) in the wine (blood). The practice continues to this day.)

  4. The Seder is commemorated with the family; there were no families there, save for two sets of brothers.

  5. There was no recitation of the four questions. Instead there was washing of feet and conversation .

  6. There was no retelling of the Passover Story.

ALIVE: Chapter 182, Buried Light

Seeing that the crucifixion accomplished its unholy mission to murder the three men on the preparation day for the Sabbath, the crowd gradually dispersed to go prepare. There was no more to see. The drama was done. The audience returned to their own lives of struggles and pleasures. Not one person realized that innocent Jesus who had healed them, fed them, and taught them had just also mysteriously received his and her sins on the cross. The Event was beyond comprehension on the day it occurred.

This was the plan from the beginning. Freedom. Let Eve disobey. Let Adam agree and distrust God too. Let Satan win. The curse. Abel died. Eve died. Adam died. Watch all humans die surrounded by grief. Death by distrust and disobedience reoccurs. Separation from God is sin. God is life. The separation of sin yields death. Both sin and death are anathema to God. The simple cure. Turn around. Instead of separating more and more, drawn near. Humility. Awareness. Trust. Through one man death came to humankind who was made in the image and likeness of supernatural God. Through one Man, the image and likeness was fully demonstrated. His final lesson, His last healing. His power over nature, His power over death was made evident and offered to all who follow closely in His footsteps. Full circle.

The phased plan. Phase 2. Remember the flood when God was so disgusted with humankind that He destroyed everyone to start over? After He saw the carnage God regretted that decision. So this time, seeing how dark with evil the world was again, He sent a great light - Himself as Jesus. Light of light, true God of true God. Unlike the flood the outcome of the power of the crucifixion would not necessarily devolve into the same human condition. However, just as with the curse on Adam and Eve, the power of the crucifixion would be universal and lasting. The curse of death was upended by the crucifixion. God = Life. Distrust + disobedience = Death. Perfect Trust + Obedience = Humility. Humility transforms sin and death into life.

God said to Himself, “Don’t kill them en masse, lead them out of their debauchery. Offer My Son, a powerful, supernatural man as Adam and Eve were. Have Him teach them, heal them, and ultimately die. But when He goes to Hades, He will trick Satan, the serpent who won. My Son in whom I dwell, and Who dwells in Me with the overwhelming power of Love and Life will lift the curse. My Son will go through the twirling flames of crucifixion to reach the Tree of Life. My Son, Jesus, will be uniquely able to unlock the gate and release every soul, from Abel to John the Baptist. I will judge their souls, and all souls that come after them fairly, knowing their hearts and minds, one by one. I will sort all of humanity that way. Each dead person will be pre-sentenced to one of two holding places, Paradise or Hell.

I will allow dying humanity to climb to refuge in the Ark (the Church). The Church will be a mother to feed them the life giving, restorative, body and blood of My Son, Jesus. When they fall, She will offer them the ability to stand up again. Her wisdom, My Wisdom will guide them through the perils of physical life in the world.

In this way I will save those who want to climb into the Ark. I will give them plenty of time to become aware - to wake up amidst the blinding chaotic world. When this phase is complete, when the time comes when those powerful dying have wreaked enough havoc on the earth I will permit them to destroy the earth, because I will create a new earth under a new heaven for My immortal children and I to live together in My holy kingdom. They will bring their knowledge and talents and personalities there and we will live happily every after as their fairy tales imagined.”

Jesus and aspects of the new covenant with God were revealed to prophets over the centuries, Daniel, Isaiah, David, Zechariah and others. Jesus pointed out the many times He was prophesied in Scripture to affirm His credibility as if the healings and teachings and even raising some from the dead weren’t enough. The prophesies were as His deep roots.

Yet, on this black day no-one knew the magnitude of what had happened.

Through the crucifixion God offered a powerful aid to repentance, which is a change of mind, for the married men looking with lust at the pretty women in the crowd, or caving to it in adultery, pornographers, pedophiles, rapists, cheaters, the gluttons, the gossipers, the greedy, the faithless, fearful worry warts, the paranoid, hostile haters, liars, even murderers and thieves, the arrogant and greedy. God took their punishment, death, upon Himself and offered Adam and Eve and all their children the road to reconciliation. No one is forced to take that road. Freedom.

All one must do though, is to be baptized. The sooner, the better. God, wasn’t ready to dismiss the purpose of flood, just its broad brush. Sin does deserve death. Death by water in baptism mimics the devastating flood. Baptism is rising from the deadly depths to the surface and mystically being able to climb into the ark (i.e., the Church) to be healed and reborn, it is dying with Jesus on the cross, and rising with Him too. Humility. Restoration of the supernatural (spiritual) image and likeness of God. Phase 3.

Only in baptism and crucifixion are death followed by resurrection, new birth. All other death is final separation from God. A human soul is not able to rise from the dead UNLESS it had risen in the flood in baptism and died with Christ, thus resurrected (reborn) and then nurtured by the Mother, Church. Phase 4. Noah’s flood resulted in the end of life on earth, but it was also a beginning.

The first birth is purely physical and limited, the second is spiritual and unlimited. Real. It is a simple prerequisite. What the baptized person does after being reborn, whether (s)he is a baby or an adult, with or without the age of reason, is the same: freedom to conform to the image of Jesus or not. The ability to transcend death (caused either by sin, or physical expiration) or to be consumed by death, is ultimately and always determined by the person’s own will. Freedom. St John wrote: “But to those who received Him (in baptism) He gave the right TO BECOME children of God.” It is not automatic. Becoming involves the person’s own human will and effort. Everyday decisions. Back to the day of the crucifixion.

The darkness dissipated so gradually that few people even noticed. The crowd went home to prepare for their Passover Supper and Sabbath rest. The Roman soldiers went back to delicious food and the aromas of Roman trees and flowers. Artichokes and honey.

Jesus, having cleared out Hades, as quickly as possible was reunited by His Father and Holy Spirit to rest as One. God hadn't felt so relaxed since the Sabbath following the intense Creation week.

Two Jewish men having heard the news of the rushed trial and sentence on Friday morning when they met accidentally in Jerusalem and who knew of the injustice and flaming jealousy of the shrewd hierarchy, but were unable to stop it, discussed what they could do in response.

They were Joseph of Arimathea, a wealthy man and a member of the council, and his friend, the Pharisee Nicodemus who had been sympathetic to Jesus and met with Him clandestinely several times. They came up with a plan to take the body, and bury it properly.

Fortunately, Joseph recently had a tomb hewn out of a boulder for himself, but he could make another one. He wasn’t planning to die too soon. Nicodemus would go out and get a hundred pounds of myrrh and aloes, and the linen to wrap the body in. While Jesus was being crucified, Nicodemus took his myrrh and aloes to Joseph’s tomb, then he went to Golgotha, found Joseph in the crowd and watched until it was over.

Unafraid of the chief priests Joseph boldly approached Pilate to ask him for the body of Jesus.

Pilate said, “What! Has He died already? Centurion, go find out for me!”

The centurion didn’t have to go anywhere, he knew that Jesus was dead. He saw the sword pierce Him.

“He is dead sire, I assure you of that.”

“Alright then, take Him with my blessing.” said Pilate and then ordered his carriage to take him back to his palace for a much needed nap.

When Joseph and Nicodemus returned to the site of the crosses, the gorilla men were already lifting the first heavy man’s cross out of the ground. They watched as the men carelessly drop the cross, which didn’t matter because the man was dead and didn’t feel a thing.

Before they came to Jesus’s cross Joseph approached the gorilla men and said, “Please, be more careful with this One. I will take Him, I have Pilates’s permission. The centurion next to him nodded to confirmed that. Joseph’s carriage was waiting to receive the Body.

"Okay, whatever you say.” So the gorilla men carefully lifted and brought the cross with the Body of Jesus to the ground, untied His hands and feet and yanked the nails out.

“Thank you. We will take it from here. Nicodemus laid his linen cloth on the ground and two centurions lifted the Body off the cross and carefully laid Him onto the cloth, wrapping Him in it. They then lifted Him onto the carriage.

Women followed the carriage on foot, far enough behind so as not to be seen. They were besides themselves with grief as they walked and cried, walked and cried.

When the carriage arrived, the drivers with the help of Joseph and Nicodemus, carefully lifted Jesus off the carriage and onto a marble stone inside the tomb where together they prepared the Body. The tomb wasn’t big enough for anyone else. When the body was finished being prepared, Nicodemus carefully laid a large linen napkin on His bruised face. The men prayed.

The ladies, Mary Magdalene and Mary the mother of Joses and a few women who had been following Jesus from Galilee and wherever He went stood a far off tries to watch from the distance; they were grateful to know where He was laid.

When the men were finished and there was nothing more they could do, Joseph solemnly said, “Come Nico, I will give you a lift home.”

“Thank you.” He climbed on the carriage beside his friend and they drove back into Jerusalem.

With the men out of sight, the ladies approached and chanted. The angels and God looked on in sympathy at the grief of these women who watched their beloved suffer and die. He knew how bereft they felt.

Dusk forced them to leave.

“Come,” said Mary Magdalene,”Let’s go to His mother’s home and sit shiva with her.”

The ladies hated to leave but they knew they had to.

Meanwhile, some chief priests and Pharisees had a sleepless night. In the morning, the Sabbath of the Passover, they found each other milling around the City.

“You know, I had the strangest thought. What if that Jesus is stolen by His followers, and they all claim He rose from the dead! That would make Him more powerful than ever!” complained an old disheveled chief priest.

His friend replied, “Let’s go to Pilate and ask him to guard and seal the tomb.

“Good idea.”

To Pilate’s palace they marched in lockstep.

“Now what do they want?!” shouted perturbed Pilate to his servant. “Isn't this their day of rest? Isn’t this their high holy day?”

“What should I tell them sire?”

“Send them in.”

After they marched into the room, the bravest, youngest chief priest, boldly and unapologetically requested, “Sir, we remember that that deceiver said while he was still alive, “After three days I will rise again.” Command that the sepulcher be sealed tight until the third day, lest his disciples come and steal him away, and say to the people, He is risen from the dead: and the last error will be worse than the first.”

The priests and Pharisees looked at Pilate eager for his permission.

Pilate replied, “You have a guard! Go make it as tightly sealed as you possibly can.”

On the high holy Sabbath Passover day of rest, the priests went directly to the tomb and looked around for a bolder big enough and round enough to seal the entrance, while others went to find guards. These men found Sabbath rest in their hearts when they could be sure that no one would be duped by the deceiver.

God was resting peacefully, comfortably, happily. After all, it was was the Sabbath of Passover.

ALIVE: Chapter 181, Crucifixion - Necessary Injustice

Jesus watched Simon depart and silently blessed him and his sons to thank him for carrying His cross. He was on His own, subject to the will of the arrogant priests and elders. Besides, after the sleepless night of accusations and beatings, He was exhausted.

A Roman soldier approached Him with a goblet of wine mixed with gall, “Here man, drink this. It will help relieve the pain.”

Jesus look into the eyes of the sincere young Roman who was holding the goblet to His lips for him.  He started to sip, then jerked His head away, “No! I can’t drink this!” Was that because it smelled so bad, or was it because He knew that He needed to remain alert to complete His mission? He needed to feel the pain. He was thirsty and was tempted to drink whatever was offered. But He stopped Himself.

“Okay, don’t take it. You’ll be sorry!” said the soldier to Jesus. “Whatever you say.”

Two criminals were also being prepared for crucifixion. They both gulped the wine and gall obediently and gratefully.

Each of the three who were being crucified had his own team of executioners. This is what they did for a living. The men didn’t think anything of it any more. No more nightmares, no more disgust. They had gotten over all that.

Another young soldier approached Jesus and untied His hands. He was no longer a threat to them. “Now, take off your clothes.” Jesus obediently took off his coat and robe and handed them to an eager young man who was waiting to receive them.

When he  reached his friends with the clothes, as valuable as gold to them, he analyzed his stash and thought about how he could divide the one robe into parts. Seams! Good. He carefully ripped it apart and had 4 pieces of cloth to distribute! He kept one and gave the other three to his buddies. Then there was the coat. Mmm? It didn’t have a seam since it had been woven top to bottom. He looked at the guys who hadn’t gotten anything. Reuben said “Don’t tear it! “Let’s just caste lots for it, okay?”

“Good idea.”

Little did Reuben know that God predicted his solution through David when he wrote (Psalm 22:18) “They parted my garments among them. And upon my vesture they cast lots.”

The winner was thrilled. “What a beautiful and warm coat! I never want to take it off. I can even sleep in it and use it as a blanket!” That man enjoyed a peaceful and healthy long life until he met Jesus in paradise and had the thrilling opportunity to thank Him.

While the distribution of His clothes was happening, Jesus was being ordered to cooperate with His earthly demise, which of course He did without complaint. (Given the is was His idea.)

“Now lay down on this wooden cross.” demanded a hairy veteran executioner. Jesus obediently dropped to His knees and tried to position Himself on the narrow vertical beam when they heard, “Wait! Stop! Pilate sent me to tell you to nail this sign to the top of this Man’s cross.” shouted a boy running toward them.

His executioner looked over at what the kid had. It was a piece of wood with the inscription in Hebrew, Greek, and Latin that read, “This is Jesus of Nazareth, the King of the Jews.” The executioner chuckled at the joke and said, “Okay, I’ll do it.” Jesus stood up again and watched them nail the sign. He tried to look nonchalant, but smiled from ear to ear in His heart.

At the sound of the hammer banging on the wood, the chief priests looked up from their huddle to notice the sign being nailed. One curious priest walked over to read it. He then looked at the delivery boy in anger and said to him, “Where did this come from?” The delivery boy pointed and replied, “Pilate, over there, he gave it to me himself. Look, there he is.”

The chief priests looked over and sure enough, in the crowd was Pontus Pilate in his regalia. He had managed to have the sign carved quickly and was driven up to Golgotha with it in hand. The priests all rushed over to him before it was too late. Reaching him first a chief priest said, “Change that sign! Instead it should say, He said I am….the King of the Jews.”

Pilate looked at the man in disgust, because he was still angry about being bullied. It was his last word. Pilate bellowed with all the sound of authority he could muster, “What I have written I have written. Now leave me!”

The priests turned immediately and without another word went back to watch Jesus being nailed to the cross while saying to himself,  “What does this sign matter in the long run, at least He will die and we won’t have to think about Him any more. Besides in a few hours, this sign will be trashed.”

After nailing the sign, it was time to nail the men. All three were to be positioned and crucified simultaneously. It was the third hour. (9 am) The sun was fully up and the hustle and bustle of Jerusalem below them was in full swing.

“Okay, now lay down on the wood again!” Jesus fell to the earth beside His cross and struggled to balance Himself on the vertical beam. There were men on either side helping Him. They lifted His body so that the arms rested on the horizontal wings. They tied each hand to the wood so it wouldn’t move when they nailed it. His head firmly balanced at the top. His feet also were tied to the bottom bar. Left over right.

Firmly tied to the cross, it was time for the nails. His executioner looked down at Jesus whose eyes were closed and barked, “We told you to drink that stuff! Here we go!”  The executioners of the three looked over at each other. The nailing had to be simultaneous to contain the screams in a fixed period of time. A man assigned to timing, looked at the three nailers and shouted, “One. Two. Three. NOW!”

At that, each nailer lifted his hammer high and with a long nail firmly positioned on a certain location of the right hand, known to be able to support the body took the first heavy pound. They were professionals. All eyes were on them.

Suddenly the crowd heard ear shattering cries. The victims emitted a cacophony of pain-filled shrieks. The three nailers quickly went to the other side to nail the other hand, ignoring the screaming, and then to the feet. For a quarter of an hour, loud cries and moans bruised the air.

Women and children immediately covered their ears and soon men did too. The pain to the eardrums from the sound of these men was as excruciating to the hearers who imagined the pain. Mary Magdalene, Salome and the other Mary collapsed to their knees in unison. They covered their ears and closed their eyes tight in a failed attempt to escape the reality of the moment. The emotional pain was excruciating.

Jesus’ mother and John were wailing. Rachel and others who had been healed and fed, who happened to be in Jerusalem for the Passover and heard about the crucifixion were wailing too.

Among the people who a few hours earlier had been shouting, “Crucify Him, Crucify Him” there was a mixed reaction. The ones whose opinions are generated by others, suddenly woke up as if from a dream, and wondered why they were so adamant that this violence should befall a simple rabbi. No one is perfect. These are the ones who felt shame, and regret. Among them were several priests.

But there were also those stubborn egotistical ones, in whose life wrong was never admitted. They were still proud of their decision and looked forward to their Passover Feast with this irritant behind them. They could freely chant and worship God in the temple with a clear  conscience, thinking what a joyous Passover this will be and how much they looked forward to a hearty lamb supper.

In the midst of lingering loud cries, both from the crowd and three being crucified, it was time for the lifting of the crosses. This phase was accomplished one at a time. They needed the manpower. The lifting team of gorilla-men approached the first robber who was a bulky man struggling to endure the extreme pain in his hands and feet that ran throughout his brain and the sensation of the ride from the ground up to a vertical position.  For the gorilla-men, lifting the top required a forceful thrust. Two at the head and two at each arm. Heave ho. The men not only had to bring the weight of the wood and bulky man vertical, they had to move it to its hole in the ground and lift it into position deep enough for it to stay stable and still. With the use of ropes and teamwork the heavy robber was installed.

The gorilla men, once they were certain that the first cross was fixed and stable moved over to God’s cross. The Father, His Spirit, were in Jesus. As One, they lay on the cross, feeling, knowing, being, waiting. The angels, the thrones and archangels fluttered around the cross laying on the ground. Now it was their turn. Jesus was still feeling the pain, but He stopped emoting about it as did the other two.

The crowd also subsided in expressing their grief and horror. In fact, the scene was so overwhelming that except for environmental sounds all was relatively quiet.

When the gorilla men went to do their job for Jesus, they found the cross to be lighter. None of the men mentioned this phenomenon. Each man assumed it was because the first man was so heavy and that this one was relatively slight. But they were wrong.

Jesus/God felt the smooth rising of the cross and a breeze that attended it, from the fluttering of the angels moving the air because they were so many. This cross went easily into the posthole. Hanging by His tied and nailed hands, and because He was so exhausted from being awake for two days, and the hearings with Ciaphas, Annas, Pilate, and Herod, the people demanding His crucifixion, the beatings, the piercing crown of thorns, the jeering, the hike up the mountain, the physical shock to His body from the nailing, all that wound up as the means to cause Jesus to collapse from exhaustion on the cross. Whether divine or circumstantial, Jesus rested. They couldn’t torture Him any more than they already had. Soon, He could do what He came to this moment for.

The third man was being lifted and positioned. Jesus/God, instinctively knowing this man’s crime and circumstances and the history of his life felt compassion for him and alleviated his pain a notch.

And now it was the time to wait for death. The men were able to speak as they hung on their crosses. First, Jesus looked down and over at His mother whose face was red and flush from crying. When she looked up at Him she saw that He was looking at her too, so she walked closer in case He had something to say. John, who was at her side followed as did her friends. Indeed He did have something to say. It was short and simple as it had to be.

Jesus looked down at His mother and said with as much volume as He could, given the pressure on His thorax and lungs, and to be heard over the murmuring of the crowd.“Woman, behold your son.” and nodded slightly toward young John. John perked up and nodded in agreement.

Noticing that, Jesus said to John, “Behold, your mother!” John replied, “Of course my Lord.” And he turned to Mary and hugged her which she returned with tears covering her face again because her precious Son cared so much that He would be thinking about her own welfare at this painful time. But like the woman whose only son had died, Jesus’ compassion for the plight of childless single women was so strong that he had brought that young man back to her from the dead. He made sure that His mother had someone to care for her. By holy orchestration, that woman and her son were in the crowd that morning. They too came to Jerusalem for the Passover. They had squirreled their way as close to Jesus as they could. When they saw John hugging Mary, the son hugged his crying mother. He Who restored his life was being murdered, pre-meditated, intentional, cruel, in plain sight. What crime were they being taught to avoid?

Jesus closed His eyes. No one knew if He was praying, or absorbing pain, but it was clear that He was still alive. His mother, John, and the other Maryies stood back. His mother began to chant in a low but beautiful voice as she had at the grave of her father Joachim with her mother by her side, and later, alone, at her parent’s graveside, and for Joseph. Her friends joined her, and soon there was an undertone of melodic worship that rifled through the large crowd revealing how many worshippers were peppered among those who demanded this crucifixion, along with the friends and relatives of the robbers, some of which were praying in chant for their loved ones gone astray.

The mix of pure good and pure evil, of compassion and hostility, of knowledge and ignorance was never more obvious than on Golgotha that day. It was about high noon and the three crucified men were hot and parched. The people in the crowd were getting antsy having waited so long for the men to die. To keep their own blood flowing and their legs from cramping the people milled around the scene. From time to time, a hostile, arrogant person, walked up to Jesus, looked up, paused, and wagged his or her head and said loud enough for Jesus and all the people around, including His own mother, to hear their heartless jeers, “So You are going to destroy the temple are You? And rebuild it in three days? Okay, let’s see you save Yourself!” The person looked over at the crowd for heads nodding in agreement, and without noticing any added louder, “If You are the Son of God, come down from the cross. Come on, we want to see Your miracle!”

God replied, but of course could not be heard through the solid barrier of arrogance, “My timing is perfect. My purpose beyond your awareness. You will see my miracle. Be patient. You who are dying in doubt.”

Meanwhile, an elder piped up to add to the jeers saying, “He saved others; it looks like He can’t save himself.” A cacophony of mocking and chuckles ensued. A mean woman shouted, “He is the King of Israel; let’s see Him come down from the cross! Then we will believe Him!” Feeling cocky and confident she scanned the crowd, looking for confirmation, which she received when she heard another woman to her left and behind others say, “He trusted in God; let God deliver Him now. I’m sure He could if God wanted to! Obviously, He doesn’t want to save this charlatan.”

Jesus hung there listening to the insults. It’s so easy to kick someone who is down. A soldier lifted a stick with a cloth soaked in vinegar to quench His thirst. Jesus who just yesterday distributed a goblet of wine to His disciples telling them that it was His blood of life was offered vinegar, the dead grape. He smelled it and shook His head and clenched His lips.

Reproach has broken my heart,

And I am full of heaviness

I look for someone to take pity,

But there was none

And for comforters

but I found none

They gave me gall for my food

And for my thirst they gave me vinegar to drink. Psalm 69

The other man being hung, the husky one on His right, also listening to the jeers and mocking decided to join in. He had become numb to the pain, “Miracle man! Save yourself, and while You’re at it, and save us too if You are who some say You are. Let’s jump off this tree and run away!”

The other man to His left answered for Him, “Shut up!!! Look at you, hanging there, waiting to die. You’re already dead! Don’t you even yet fear God?”

The only response the thief could make was with was a grimace in his face, and then he spit on the ground.

Not being able to see that vulgar gesture, speaking face forward, the other crucified man said, “You and I deserve to be hanging here, we knew we were doing wrong, but this Man, doesn’t deserve this!” Then he turned his head to see as much of Jesus as he could and said, “Lord, remember me when You come into Your kingdom.”

Jesus replied, “Today you will be with Me in Paradise.”

The man closed his eyes and tried to imagine Paradise. He felt lighter, as if the nails in his hands and pierced feet were lifting him up. He wished he could fall asleep and wake up in Paradise.

The drone of people chatting continued. Tears and cries had subsided because so much time had passed and shock morphed into boredom.

Until suddenly, at the sixth hour (3 pm) the sky grew dark, as the sun had receded in embarrassment, refusing to be witness, and in sympathy that the Light of lights, its predecessor, should be extinguished.

Jesus relished the darkness, for the fear of it brought relative peace and quiet to the trembling  crowd. Three hours in daytime darkness passed slowly. Those who had been up all night at Caiaphas’s house fell asleep on the ground, when suddenly they were awakened by the sound of Jesus. Those closest to Him, His mother, Mary Magdalene, and Mary the mother of James and Joses, and Salome all heard Him cry out, “Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?” that is, “My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?”

God, the Father Who had instantly left Him, winced in the Spirit. He grieved more than ever. With the emotions of anger, frustration, disappointment, and then tolerance and love that God had experienced with humanity from Adam through the prophets and kings to Jesus, hadn’t felt such passion until this moment.

The Creator God had waited patiently for the right time to lift the curse on humanity. Here, the moment had finally come as fast as a bolt of lightening and as powerful. Yet, to be separated from His Son if only for an instant was more emotional than He expected it to be. The feeling reminded Him of when he regretted the flood and vowed never to do that again.

As in a daze, Jesus heard a man with a strong deep voice that carried throughout the crowd on the mountain,  “Let’s see whether Elijah will come to save Him.”

After this, knowing that all things were finished, that the description of the event in Psalm 22, might be fulfilled, said, “I thirst.”

A clay bowl full of vinegar was nearby. A guard, hearing that He was thirsty ran to get some for Him. He bent over and took the sponge inside the bowl that was soaked in the vinegar, and wrapping it in stems of hyssop attached it to a wooden stick and returned. He lifted the stick of vinegar to His mouth. This time Jesus received the vinegar and groaned out loud and then managed to say, “It is finished.” The living wine was dead. His head fell and He yielded His spirit.

Miles away, in Jerusalem, archangels ripped in two the veil of the temple from the top to the bottom. The people inside the temple watched in fear and shock. They had no idea what was happening. Suddenly, the earth under their feet began to quake. The quake rumbled throughout Judea and on Golgotha. Huge rocks split from the pressure, littering the ground with pieces of what had taken centuries to form.

Feeling the earth shaking under their feet, and the daytime darkness lingering, the people in the crowd on Golgotha that day: centurions, elders, priests, friends and neighbors, the curious and the grieving all of them united in fear. Those, who hours before demand that Jesus be crucified beat their breasts in contrition. A middle aged older Roman centurion with leathery skin cried out loud, “Truly this was the Son of God.”

This was the moment. The moment in time that the impossible occurred. With the flash of separation from the Father, i.e., sin, Jesus experienced the sinful condition of humanity.

God, the source of Life, cannot die. He had to first become human. Only in a human form, because humans are made in the image and likeness of God and are thus as free as God is free, even free to deny God, to separate from God, to distrust God, to sin. To die.

Intense physical pain had evolved into spiritual pain for Jesus. For the moment of feeling forsaken, a fractal of sin exploded into all the sins of humanity past, present, and future. He is the Lamb of God. He is Pharaoh’s son that released God’s people from slavery, only this time the Son released God’s people from the slavery of sin. He is the Red Sea parting. He is the cloud guiding. He is the Passover that God’s people should never forget.

With the weight of the world upon Him, Jesus descended into Hades.

The first to greet Him there is John the Baptist who smiles and says with a big grin, “I told them You were coming my Lord. Many of them didn’t believe me!”

Behind John are His grandmother Anna, and His grandfather Joachim with beaming faces. The place is dense with souls. Adam and Eve are sheepishly hiding behind Moses and David. They had been suffering the most for thousands of years, since everyone knew it was their fault that they had to die at all. Jesus sees them hiding and reaches out his hand.

“Come.” He says with a smile, drawing them out. “Your curse is lifted. Come, I will let you out. Trust Me.”

Then a key appears in His hand and He walks over to the enormous iron  gate. He puts the key in the lock and turns it. All who saw this marveled! It looked so easy. He pushes the gate open and calls out to the souls, “Come, you may leave now. Go back to earth for a bit, look around, a lot has changed and nothing has changed. And then you will go to the judgement seat for your first judgment. Those of you who deserve it will enjoy the foretaste of heaven called Paradise. I’m afraid that others will be punished for their behavior, but you were free to be evil or good, to trust Me or not. You made your choice. Each of you will be judged one by one. It will take thousands of years. After that, I will return to the earth to gather those still there. There, will be the second trial. Between the first trial and your second trial…well, you will find out. Okay let’s go.”

With the souls all floating out, Jesus went over to the gate and pulled out the key. The souls of the saints poured out in wonder and merriment. Some went to visit their bodies who had been laid in various tombs around Jerusalem. They cautiously emerged from the tombs and went into the city where they had lived centuries before. Jerusalem looked so different, so built up and busy. Some sensitive living people saw them, and ran back into their homes in fear.

His mother Mary was the first to sense that her Son left His body. There was no more crying. She knew. She bowed her head. Her friends and John bowed their heads as well. They closed their eyes looking for a vision of where He was.

The chief priests, many who had also been following Jesus since the arrest the day before, were exhausted too. Having accomplished their mission, all the adrenaline that had kept them going through so many intense hours was spent. Besides, they were reminded that the sun would set soon and Sabbath, and Passover, would be upon them. The huddled hierarchy selected a man to dare approach Pilate again.

Pilate watched the priest approach him. “Yes, what do you want? Do you have another rabbi you would like me to crucify?” said Pilate when the priest came within range.

“No sire, we thank you. However, it looks like the men are dead, but we can’t be sure and the sun is about to set. Would you please do us this kindness and break their legs to finish them off so we may take them away? We must obey our law to bury them before sunset.” The priest tried very hard to look meek to engender a condescending but positive response.

“So be it! Soldier, go break their legs and call my chariot!” barked Pilate, just as glad to get the day over with.

The soldiers went off straightaway and approached the heavyset thief. He carried a bat and hit the man’s legs as hard as he would a 90 mile an hour baseball, the man opened his eyes at the pain, and then gave up his spirit. It was the last straw.  Then the soldier passed Jesus who looked quite dead, and batted the legs of the other man. No response. Dead.

When they came back to Jesus, and were sure that he was dead already, one of the soldiers pulled his sword out and pierced his side for no good reason at all; he just got the urge to do that. It was strange, but when he did` water poured out of the man as well as His blood. Very strange. Several people witnessed the phenomenon. What was the water? Could it have been the water of baptism? Was it the water that all children of God are baptized with into His death?

However, little did they know that the real phenomenon was that centuries before, the prophet Zechariah said,”And I will pour upon the house of David, and upon the inhabitants of Jerusalem, the spirit of grace and of supplication; and they shall look unto me whom they have pierced; and they shall mourn, as one mourns for his only son, and shall be in bitterness for him, as one that is in bitterness for his first-born. Zechariah 12:10

Footnote: Like the sacrificial lamb, Jesus took our sins, our abhorrent (to God) sinfulness upon Himself as He died on the cross. Like the lamb, who was innocent, Jesus was a perfect sinless, innocent being. Like the lamb, He was killed to save sinful others.

Unlike the lamb who was slaughtered first, the pain of death being quick, and the fire being painless, Jesus suffered long and slow, pain, thirst, humiliation.

Unlike the lamb, Jesus, at the time that He took our sins upon Himself was hated and jeered, whereas the lamb was revered, the sinners penitent as they watched the sacrifice of its life in horror to observe the wages of sin, and afterward they felt gratitude and relief. Whereas the observers of the crucifixion were largely ignorant of the magnitude of this sacrifice. Not humbled by it. Many were still angry and hateful. Satisfied over their own victory that they had secured His death.

Like the lamb, whose death was salvific, whose body was consumed for nourishment and strength, the body of Jesus consumed while He lived and continues to live and be consumed continues to nourish the soul and strengthen the whole person, body, mind, and soul. The antidote for the poison of abandonment of God and the commandments is God’s own flesh and blood in the Eucharist.

Lamb of God? Yes and no. Much more than that. Add the suffering, add the disrespect, add the humiliation.

Add the resurrection.  Add the new covenant between God and humankind.

It is finished. Sabbath Rest.

ALIVE: Chapter 180, Simon

Once the decision was finally confirmed by Pilate, no matter how he tried to avoid making it,  the satisfied priests and elders didn’t delay to send their innocent victim to His death, lest Pilate get another attack of conscience. Lest the sunset would prevent them from carrying out the murder and they would just as quickly lose their (false) victory.   

After all the beatings, something His body never before experienced, Jesus was exhausted. Even as a child, Joseph never had a reason to spank this Son. Bruised and bleeding Jesus could hardly walk. Feeling the hatred of His enemies in His body, He was more determined than ever to get this over with. Jesus had never before felt so powerless.

The true criminals, His accusers, His assailants, merciless as they were, tried to force Him to carry the heavy cross up the hill. How absurd, what further evidence did anyone need of how divorced these evil men were from reality. “Untie His hands so He can carry this thing!” barked a sergeant. When the soldier dragged the heavy cross to Him, having one ready, he loaded it onto His back. Jesus tried to walk, but immediately His knees collapsed and He fell to the dusty ground with the Cross weighing heavily across His body. The soldier quickly lifted it off, and set it on the ground, realizing that he didn’t want to supersede the crucifixion.

Seeing that and his need to beat the setting sun, the chief priest shouted to one of the passersby, “Hey you! Stop! Carry this Man’s cross for Him! Now! Here! Come here now. Yes you!”

That man was Simon, the father of Alexander and Rufus, who happened to be walking on the busy city street. Father and sons stopped. They had just come from Cyrene to Jerusalem for Passover and didn’t expect to get mixed up with this public spectacle. Simon looked over at the poor beaten Man who he didn’t know. Simon wondered what He did to deserve such treatment? His boys just looked on in wonder. Out of compassion, Simon went over to Jesus struggling to get back up, and said, “Here Son, let me help you up.” After helping to pull Jesus back up on his feet, and sure that He could stand, Simon went over to the cross to lift it. All eyes were on Simon who knew he had no choice but to follow the command of the chief priest.

The cross was heavy, very heavy. But Simon was a strong man. He lifted the heavy cross and with the help of others, balanced it on his own back.

“Okay, good. Now start walking! This way up that hill.” directed the satisfied soldier.

Simon and the cross slowly made their way up the hill with great difficulty as strong as he was. His boys followed in tow, with heavily guarded Jesus trailing behind. While carrying that heavy cross, Simon wondered how they thought this beaten man could ever carry it. He wondered again what He did to deserve such harsh punishment. Simon had to stop to catch his breath. His heart was pounding and he needed to slow it down. The entourage stopped with him. When he stopped it suddenly hit him! What he was doing.This young man was about to be crucified on this heavy cross. “What I am enduring by carrying this cross, is as nothing compared to what He will endure when I have arrived!” Simon started to weep inside. He was overwhelmed by the thought. He had to continue walking because the people expected him to. But he didn’t want to arrive. He didn’t want this young bloody and bruised man to suffer any more than he had, no matter what awful thing He may have done to deserve it.

Every step was taken in anguish.

Walking behind Simon, Jesus picked up his thoughts.

“Peace, My brother.” thought Jesus in His holy heart. “Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil. Peace My brother, we are walking together into a new world, where this event, that you share with Me, will be honored more than the sun in the sky; mankind will be renewed. A moment of darkness for an eternity of light. Thank you for lending Me your strength.”

Simon didn’t hear those words as he trudged on with his heavy load, but he gradually felt calmer and miraculously the weight lightened. Was it because he got used to it? He didn’t know. But he simply felt better which didn’t make sense. Nothing changed. He trudged on.

Jesus and the guards walked behind Simon and the Cross. A great multitude of the people, friendly, hostile, and merely curious joined as the parade of passion passed houses and rocks up the mountainside to a place fittingly known as Place of the Skull or Golgotha where crucifixions were performed. Men, women, and children, were already there waiting. Some crying for crucified loved ones, others waiting for the arrival of Jesus, the rabbi and miracle worker.

A woman named Rachel was there waiting for His arrival. News about the crucifixion of Jesus had spread fast in the crowded city. Rachel had been in another massive crowd the day that the five thousand gathered to hear Jesus speak and were fed from a few loaves and fishes. The hostile ones who had shouted crucify Him were diluted by the curious, and the compassionate, and hundreds who admired and were in awe of this miracle worker who dared to call Himself the Son of Man, and the Son of God. “How could it be that such a fate would befall this compassionate teacher? Perhaps He was an imposter after all. Perhaps just a magician. Understandable. We make false judgements. “Poor sop.” thought Rachel, “But no, I can’t believe that. I ate the fish, I ate the bread. It filled my grumbling stomach. There was no way they could have brought such a large quantity of food with them.” thought Rachel as she walked behind Jesus, weak from the beatings. Rachel looked at Him and tears fell from her blue eyes.

Mary, His mother was there! When He arrived at the Golgotha, Jesus spotted her staring at Him and crying. Young John was at her side. His face was red and swollen with grief. Jesus scanned the crowd and saw no other disciples. That’s not to say they weren’t there somewhere, He just didn’t see them.

The man in charge ordered Simon to drop the cross where he commanded. Obediently, Simon laid the cross down beside a hole prepared to hold it up. He looked over at Jesus whose eyes were raised to His Father. The Father in His Holy Spirit looked back at Jesus and sent a calming, healing shot to help Him endure the injustice. The worst was yet to come to His body.

The worse was yet to come to His soul; Father and Son would part but for a moment, so Jesus could go to Hades. For this He came into the world. Jesus nodded to His Father, like the valiant hero He was, to go through the sword flaming and turning that guards the way to the tree of life east of the Garden of Eden. On that tree hangs the key to the locked iron gates  of Hades. Jesus was to take the key, go to Hades, open the gate and release the captives. That is everyone who because of Adam and Eve‘s lack of trust and disobedience separated mankind from God, and as a consequence died and eventually went to Hades. God was ready to restore humankind to the kind of relationship He had with Adam in the garden, if the person wanted it too. Freedom was key. To be made in the image and likeness of God meant to enjoy the property of freedom that God has. No coercion but love, which naturally yields trust which naturally yields obedience, and allows for the opposite.

The moment of separation from the Father, short as it would be, would be the most difficult moment in Jesus’s life. It was death. Real death. The God of Life would have to separate from Himself in order to die, and go to the place of the dead, to release the captives there. How could the physical pain and humiliation and injustice be worse than that moment of separation? Sin. Jesus bowed His bloody head in humility. The sense of mission helped Him endure the physical pain and the psychological pain. No one else could do this. Reuniting humanity with its Creator, God, reversing millennia of the curse of death, nothing was more important to the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. No pain, no humiliation, no amount of injustice mattered more than accomplishing this mission. Without the possibility of reunion, was it any wonder that Jacob’s sons disappointed their God so often? Jesus was about to renew the image and likeness of God in mankind.

Then, Simon looked over at the mourners crying, not knowing who they were. Alexander and Rufus were standing close to their father, afraid and confused. Simon looked down at them, youth, hope, love. The contrast between the love Simon felt for his sons and the sorrow over the end of this young man’s life, whatever He did to deserve this end, bewildered Simon. He decided not to allow his sons to watch. “Come boys, let’s continue our journey to Passover. My job is done. Simon and his sons walked back down the hill away from cries and jeers. Away from the nailing, away from the lifting. The murmur of the crowd was loud and unnerving. He wanted to run, but knew that his sons wouldn’t be able to keep up so he endured his repulsion, his confusion, his own grief knowing that in time, those feelings would be supplanted by ordinary needs. Would he remember to process all that he had experienced today? When they reached the bottom of the hill and could no longer hear the crowd above, Simon said to his sons. “Boys let’s go to the temple to pray for that Man.”

ALIVE: 179 Unnatural Law

Peter watched in horror as the Sanhedrin lead Jesus away from the compound, bloody and bruised, hands tied, surrounded by guards,. The people who had been sitting in the cold all night formed an entourage to go where they were taking Him.

It was dawn of the sixth day, Friday, the day of preparation for the Sabbath. On this day, there was a lot of work to be done to be rid of Jesus, before the day when no work could be done.

Runners had gone ahead to notify Pilate, the Roman governor of the region, to expect the Jewish prisoner whom the chief priests had condemned, but were not permitted by their law to kill. Turning Jesus over to Rome was a stroke of genius. The oppression of Rome turned into a gift.

Having received the message of the impending arrival of the famous prisoner, the chief of staff  relayed it to Pilate. Pilate decided to greet them outside because he had been told that the crowd was large. Besides, Pilate knew that the Jews would not enter the headquarters to avoid ritual defilement which would disqualify them from partaking of the Passover meal. He knew his subjects well enough.

“Okay, let’s go.” said Pilate while mentally preparing himself. He had heard much about this man Jesus and looked forward to meeting Him. Pilate positioned himself on the wide marble porch, 10 steps above the ground, waiting.  It was early in the morning, about the first hour, 6 am.

Pilate hadn’t waited long before he saw in the distance the priests followed by their well guarded prisoner who was followed by the crowd. He watched them bring the Prisoner to him. The man that Pilate saw, tied and beaten was not the person he expected to see. He had heard about a bold young rabbi, a miracle worker, but he saw a disheveled man. Pilate quickly processed the contrast in his mind, and was determined to treat Him as the Person he heard about and not the Person he saw. Soon, the Prisoner was standing beneath Pilate.

Pilate looked down at Jesus and then over at the priests and said, “What accusation do you bring against this Man?”

The boldest priest handed Pilate the list of accusations, then stepped back and replied for all of them, “If this Man were not a criminal, we would not have handed Him over to you.”

Pilate glanced at the list and said, “Take Him yourselves and judge Him according to your law.”

The same brash priest said, “We are not permitted to put anyone to death.”

Pilate said to his guard, “Bring the prisoner inside.” then he turned and entered his headquarters with Jesus, his guards and the priests climbing the steps to follow.

In this more private setting Pilate began the interrogation by saying loud enough for the priests and elders to hear, “Are you king of the Jews?” He waited patiently for a reply.

Jesus looked at Pilate.

Pilate was alarmed to see His face beaming. There was something about the Man that was unusual. Strong, but humble. His eyes penetrated him as if reading into Pilate’s heart.

Jesus simply replied, “It is as you say.”

Pilate waited to hear more, but only heard the chief priests and elder grumble.

Giving up waiting for Jesus to say any  more, Pilate added, “Don’t you know how many accusations they have against you?”

Jesus said nothing.

Pilate looked down at the list of accusations again and didn’t see anything that would indicate the man was a threat to society and should be done away with. He didn’t care at all that the Man offended their God by blaspheming. What was that to Rome? Or that He threatened to raise the temple. On the other hand, it was important to Rome that they maintain decent relations with their local subjects, the priests and elders being in the hierarchy. He was stuck. Pilate did not appreciate the situation presented to him.

Pilate said to Jesus, “I am not a Jew, am I? Your own nation and the chief priests have handed you over to me. What have you done? So are you a king?”

Jesus answered, “Do you ask this on your own, or did others tell you about Me? My kingdom does not belong to this world. If My kingdom belonged to this world, My followers would be fighting to keep Me from being handed over to the Jews. But as it is, My kingdom is not from here.You say that I am a king. For this I was born, and for this I came into the world, to testify to the truth. Everyone who belongs to the truth listens to My voice.”

Pilate asked rhetorically, “What is truth?”

A chief priest uncomfortable with the way the conversation was going chimed in with a reading of the written accusations.

Look at Jesus for a response and not getting one, Pilate finally said, “Do you answer nothing?See how many things they testify against you?”

Still no reply.

Pilate marveled. He never met a convict who didn’t defend himself, even to lie about it.

A clever elder filled in the silence waiting for Jesus to defend Himself, to come to the rescue of his associates. He said to Pilate,”We found this fellow perverting the nation and forbidding to pay taxes to Caesar saying that he Himself is a king.”

Pilate asked again, “Are you king of the Jews?”

Finally Jesus spoke up to reply, “It is as you say.”

Pilate said to the chief priests and the crowd, “I find no fault in this Man.”

Hearing that, the priests became irate. In fierce unison they exclaimed, “He stirs up the people, teaching throughout all Judea, from Galilee to this place.”

Pilate heard that and found an out, thinking that if He was from Galilee, then He belonged to Herod who just happened to be in Jerusalem for the Passover. Pilate ordered the guards, “Take this Man to Herod. Find him!”

One of the soldiers who had escorted Herod into the city knew where to find him. He led the way, and was the one to knock on his door and apprise him of the situation. Herod looked behind the soldier at Jesus, disheveled and hands tied. He couldn’t even move the hair away from his eye lashes.

Peter, shielded by others, followed Jesus to Herod, but he couldn’t stand it any more and peeled away. It was too horrible. They were setting Him up and He didn’t even defend Himself! Peter walked to Mary’s home dumbfounded. They let Him in, but Peter couldn’t even bring himself to tell them what had happened. Their Master was treated worse than a sacrificial lamb. The malice, the rancor. The lamb is treated with remorse. Where did those people come from? Were they hired? Peter was fully aware of the enmity of the religious, but here, God’s Son was the target of pure hatred. It must have been satanic. They made it political; the priests used Rome like they used God, to serve their egos. Why was he surprised? Peter asked Mary if he could to lie down. He was paralyzed with grief and confusion. He had been up all night and needed the refuge of sleep.

When Herod saw Jesus, he was glad because he had been wanting to meet Him for a long time.  He hoped to see a miracle.

The chief priest and scribes, one after another and sometimes talking over each other vehemently accused Him of all sorts of crimes against the temple and Rome.

Herod, with his men of war, questioned Him, but he didn’t answer. And the chief priests and the scribes stood, continuing to vehemently accuse Him.  Herod with his soldiers ended the interrogation by arraying him in gorgeous apparel, then mocking Him and sending Him back to Pilate. Herod too found no penalty that fit any of the offenses he had heard from the angry clergy.

Meanwhile, Pilate was sitting quietly in his chambers, relieved but contemplating the intense situation of the morning. He knew that Jesus was sent to him out of envy, that wasn’t a crime against Rome, certainly not deserving the ultimate punishment that the priests and people demanded.  He was being pushed from below and despised the predicament these locals put him in. Suddenly Pilate’s thoughts were interrupted by a runner who barged into the room to let him know that the prisoner was returning and had to be dealt with by Pilate because Herod found no fault in him either; besides, they were in Pilate’s territory, it was his problem.

Pilate was disappointed and distressed, but he didn’t blame Herod since they agreed on this one thing. The enmity they had been nurturing for each other was dissolved by sharing this problem.

Bewildered, Pilate stood up and went back outside to see the familiar angry crowd which had just arrived. He shouted to the priests, rulers, and people announcing with all the sound of authority that the frazzled governor could muster “I tell you that I find no fault in this Man. Neither did Herod. He has done nothing deserving death, I will therefore chastise Him and release Him.” Suddenly, Pilate thought of an out and said, “Wait! You have a custom that I release someone for you at the Passover. Do you want me to release for you the King of the Jews?”

That didn’t work. What made him think it would with this crowd? The chief priests and elders circulated through the large crowd to persuade the people to ask for Barabbas who was a notorious man who had recently been captured and chained with other murderous rebels.

Three men, who had been waiting all night in the cold for this moment nodded to the priests, happy to have a role and shouted in unison as loud as they could the dictated reply, “Not this man but Barabbas!”

Pilate’s wife who had been watching the scene behind a curtain emerged and approached her husband. He noticed her and gave her permission to speak to him. She approached and said quietly close to his ear, “Have nothing to do with that just man, because I suffered many things in a dream this morning because of Him.” Pilate nodded in agreement, but conceded that he was stuck. He couldn’t enrage the priests and elders, and now the crowd as well.

Pilate shouted in desperation, “What should I do with Jesus called the Messiah and now you call Him king of the Jews?

The crowd shouted, “Let Him be crucified!” Pilate looked over at his wife in desperation, looked back at the crowd and said, “What evil has He done?”

Their response was louder and angrier, “Crucify Him!” So thoroughly had the people bought into the anger of the jealous priests, for no reason of their own, without an original rational thought in their own minds, nothing but raw passion. They demanded death to Jesus for their drunken sense of power over the Roman authority.

When Pilate saw that he was getting nowhere with the people, and in fact a tumult was rising, he took water and washed his hands in front of the crowd, glancing at sorrowful Jesus and said, “I am innocent of the blood of this just person. You see to it!”

The people answered, “His blood be on us, and on our children.” Centuries later, a German named Hitler and to be frank, others to this day complied. What other ethnic group in history has been the target of such vicious hatred? Why?

Pilate said again, why? What evil has He done? I find no reason for death, I will chastise Him and let Him go!”

This response provoked them to shout the simple two words, that became the eardrum shattering mantra of the mob, “Crucify Him!”

Pilate looked over at his soldiers and said, “Release Barabbas.”

Pilate turned and went inside his home and collapsed on the divan in the arms of his fretful wife.

Outside, the guards and soldiers did their violent duty and flogged Jesus in front of the angry mob. Pilate and his wife inside could hear the jeering crowd, and His scream of pain. After all, the Man was human too.

The soldiers wove a crown of thorns and put it on his head, and they dressed him in a purple robe.  Soldier and civilian alike joined in the satanic dance and took turns approaching Jesus saying, “Hail, King of the Jews!” and striking Him on the face.

Jesus absorbed the violence, as he often accepted evil, by recalling the prophets. Isaiah turned His pain and shame into reason when he said, “I gave my back to scourges and my cheeks to blows; and I turned not away my face from the shame of spitting.” The prophecies also described His ultimate victory. Who cannot endure the worst with faith that its passing will evolve onto victory?

When Pilate thought he could stand it no more, he tried again, walked outside and seeing the pathetic Jesus wearing the crown of thorns and the purple robe said, “Behold the man!”  As if to say, “Look what you are doing to this man! Have you no sympathy? You are worse than raging animals!”

When the chief priests and their police saw Pilate, they shouted again, “Crucify him! Crucify him!”

Pilate one last time tried to separate himself from the crime of crucifying an innocent man. He repeated, “Take Him yourselves and crucify him; I find no case against Him.”

The Jews answered Pilate, “We have a law, and according to that law he ought to die because he has claimed to be the Son of God.”

Now when Pilate heard this, he was more afraid than ever. Pilate looked at Jesus and asked, “Where are you from?”

Jesus did not answer.

Pilate barked in frustration, “Do you refuse to speak to me? Do you not know that I have power to release you and power to crucify you?”

Jesus replied, “You would have no power over Me unless it had been given you from above; therefore the one who handed Me over to you is guilty of a greater sin.”

Enough was enough! Jesus was right, Pilate had no power at all to release Jesus and he knew it. The Jews cried out, “If you release this man, you are no friend of Caesar. Everyone who claims to be a king sets himself against Caesar.”

Now they were getting personal. Pilate thought to himself, ‘What would Caesar do to me, if I released a Jewish man, a subject, who called himself a king?’ Following that thought, Pilate walked over and sat on the judge’s bench at a place called The Stone Pavement, or in Hebrew Gabbatha.  By now it was about noon.

He said to the Jews, “See, your King!”

They cried out, “Away with him! Away with him! Crucify him!”

Pilate pleaded with them, “Shall I crucify your King?”

The chief priests answered, “We have no king but Caesar.”

Pilate looking away from Jesus and to his soldiers gave up. He was a broken man. The Jews won. Hatred won that battle.  Pilate mumbled, “Take Him to be crucified.” And then with head bowed in disgust walked inside and collapsed on his bed. His wife’s face was drenched in tears.

ALIVE: Chapter 178, Peripheral Damage

As the entourage approached Caiaphas’s compound curious townsfolk latched on making it possible for Peter to join inconspicuously, and thus be near his Master. Once in the courtyard, he sat himself next to officers of the high priest in hopes that they would be told what was transpiring and he could overhear. As the hours passed, the night naturally became darker and colder, so several men built a fire in the courtyard for light and warmth. The drama of the arrest of Jesus, the miracle worker and blasphemer, was worth staying awake for, even all night long in the cold. The small crowd in the courtyard stayed for the dramatic value of the event. Only Peter was there as a friend of the accused. Never before had such a trial been held in the dead of night when most people were asleep and unaware of what was transpiring.

After a while of freezing, Peter stood up and went over to the fire to warm his numb fingers. A maid of Caiaphas, who had been staring at him finally mustered up the nerve to stand up and walk over to him, pointed and exclaimed loudly to the crowd, “You were with the Nazarene weren’t you?”

“No, not me!” replied Peter loudly, disappointed in his own cowardice. “You don’t know what you’re saying, lady.” Then he turned his back on her and walked over to the porch. The night sky gradually gave way to the light of a new day and a cock crowed in the distance. Peter returned to his seat near the officers.

The maid followed him. When she was near, she turned to the crowd again and announced, “This man is one of them! He’s a follower of the blasphemer!”

Peter retorted angrily, “Shut up lady! I told you that I am NOT one of them.”

A few curious people meandered over to stand beside Peter and get a better look and to hear him so they could tell from his accent where he was from.

One bold young man confirmed the suspicion. “Yes you are brother! It’s obvious that you are one of them; you are a Galilean, don’t lie!”

Peter grew furious, “Damn you! Shut-up! You don’t even know what you’re saying!”

On queue, the cock crowed again, leaving a trail of echoes through the cold air.

Peter listened to the holy rooster, which fulfilled Jesus’ prediction at supper the day before when Jesus washed his feet and gave him His body and blood as food and said, “Before the cock crows twice, you will deny me three times.”

Peter was so ashamed of himself that he walked over to the fire and came as close as he could stand, feeling his face burn. He wanted the heat to dry his tear-drenched cheeks before anyone noticed and accuse him of lying again, which was true.

“Am I so weak?” thought Peter, “How did Jesus know me more than I know myself? How could Jesus love me and reveal Himself to me as much as He did if He knew that I am a coward? I hope and pray that none of my brothers or anyone else ever finds out that I denied knowing my Master. How am I different than Judas? What Judas must be going through! I don’t think he knew it would come to this.

While staring at the flames, a flashback entered Peter’s troubled heart. He was back in the upper room, fewer than 40 hours earlier. Jesus had just washed his feet, their feet, and Judas’ feet. He told the brothers to wash one another’s feet to be blessed. Then, He said something very troubling. He said that He wasn’t referring to all of them. He said he knew that one of them would lift up his heel against Him. He knew Judas would betray him! King David knew it!.” It was something of a relief to force himself to remember…. David, who had so many enemies, even his own son, who wrote, ‘Against me they devise my hurt. An evil disease, they say clings to him. And now that he lies down, he will rise no more. Even my own familiar friend in whom I trusted (as Jesus trusted Judas with all our money). Who ate my bread, has lifted up his heel against me.’ “Could that be me too?! Poor Judas.” Peter was torn between the agonizing thoughts that erupted from his heart like a spring of water and his need to protect himself from the fury and violence of the unrighteous. “After all, what would they really do to me if they knew that I am a disciple? Why should I care?”

Just then, Peter’s angel whispered in his heart, “Remember David, all the terrible things he did! He killed thousands, and worse, he sent Bathsheba’s husband to the war front, knowing he would be killed. He commited those horrible sins to hide his adultery and their pregnancy and have Bathsheba for himself. Piling sin upon sin!”

The angel paused to let that sink in.

Then whispered as quiet as a thought, “Yet God called David, writer of psalms and warrior, a man after His own heart. David, the great sinner was sorry and humbled himself over and again. The sin is not the end Peter. David  begged God to forgive him. If only he could humble and forgive himself.”

Displacing his torturous thoughts indeed helped a bit, enough to stop Peter from crying more while he waited for Jesus to emerge from Caiaphas’s, house. He sat in a place where he could stare at the door and wait. “What is taking them so long? What is going on in there?” Suddenly he saw Judas emerge from the door and run away!

Judas

Judas had also been in the evil entourage that accompanied Jesus to Annas and Caiaphas’s houses. Inside, he watched with horror as Jesus was being interrogated and then beaten, and he couldn’t escape. The sight of it all, and knowing that he was the cause of His capture shocked Judas.

When he saw that Jesus was finally condemned to death for saying that he would tear down the temple and rebuild it, he was horrified. When he watched his Master being beaten, Judas cringed, and thought that it should have been him being beaten instead. He felt every punch that was lobbed onto Jesus, but he wasn’t the one who was bleeding; Jesus was. He was the sinner, not Jesus who washed his feet and fed him. As soon as he was able to leave that tragic scene, Judas slyly found his way to the door and fled to the temple, quickly passing Peter in the courtyard. He had to try to undo his sin. He didn’t want that money any more!

Judas’s face was red with passion and fury. The temple was just waking up for morning services and people were filing in. Judas looked around and decided to march through the curtain and right into the sanctuary where he noticed many of the priests and elders who had been at Annas’s house.

Inside the sanctuary he reached into his satchel, pulled out the pieces of silver and for the first time in his life he was desperate to give the money back, “Here! Take this. I have sinned; I betrayed innocent blood!” Judas eyes were flaming as they pierced their victims.

Satisfied that they had achieved their purpose, the priests and elders were not affected in the least by Judas’s emotional change of mind.

A hairy muscular priest replied, “What is that to us? It’s your money and your problem.”

Hearing that he threw the coins down on the floor. The metallic sound of them cut through the air quickly, and then Judas rushed out the door, passing the canter who was worshipping God with his chanting.

Outside, Judas was beside himself. He looked to the left and right at the city streets. Children playing, women hanging laundry, young and old men walking with intention and busy minds left and right. He spotted a rope lying on the steps of a house; stole it and stuffed it into his satchel. Then Judas headed for the place of the arrest. Every step was accompanied by mental torture. Of course he couldn’t even pray although he desperately wished he could have someone to go for solace. He hated himself, he deplored himself. “How could I have been so greedy? What did I expect they would do to Him?” Judas came to a tree with thick strong limbs. He looked up and around, sizing it up. He saw in it a natural ladder inviting him to climb. Instead of looking to the heavens for forgiveness and understanding he looked for a way to destroy himself. He didn’t deserve to live.

Judas had been obedient to Satan for too long. His allegiance was to the one who wanted to destroy him and not to save him.

Judas reached for the lowest horizontal limb and hoisted himself up; using his feet and arms like a monkey he proceeded to climb the tree. He slipped a couple of times, but pulled himself back up. The place was deserted. Being as close to Jesus as any human could be, Judas was as far from Him as any human could be. Tragic. His master, Satan, ordered Judas to keep climbing. The tree, the wood, hands and feet, climbing with sheer will because he wasn’t a monkey, Judas struggled to find footing; he was determined climb. The lower branches were stable and ushered him up to the next and the next as he circumnavigated the tree of death. Driven to destroy himself as punishment for betraying the son of God, Judas was heaping sin upon sin, as people will do.

Once he figured he was high enough, he sat on the limb and pulled the rope out of his satchel, then dropped the satchel to the ground. He couldn’t stand another minute with his thoughts. He was unable to imagine what his existence in hades would be like. He just needed to end this life here and hoped he would only find an empty sleep-like death. He didn’t deserve to live. He tied a noose and flung it over his head and then tied the other end to the branch he was siting on. His anguish grew and grew as he prepared to stop his thoughts with death. Then, Judas took a deep breath, followed by an earth shattering scream in attempt to expel his feelings and jumped. Silence.

Hours later two boys running through the woods spotted the dead man hanging. One boy couldn’t take his eyes off the gory scene, while the other tugged at him, “Let’s go tell someone! Come on!”

Meanwhile, back in the temple, a priest picked up the coins from the floor and place it on the table of sacrifice. He said, “What will we do with this?”

Another priest replied, “You know that it isn’t lawful to put blood money into the treasury.”

“I know, let’s use it to buy some land to bury strangers in.”

“Okay, good idea. We can call it the field of blood.” The two men chuckled. It wasn’t funny, but they chuckled at having found a perfect solution. First they paid for Judas’ sin, and now with the same money, they could pay for burial places for the ungodly. What a bargain. Two solutions for the price of one.

Little did these poor perverted priests know that centuries before, the prophet Jeremiah (Zechariah 11:12) had seen into the future to that very day and wrote, “And they took the thirty pieces of silver, the price of him that was priced, whom certain of the children of Israel did price and they gave them for the potter’s field, as the Lord appointed me.”

Poor Judas, if he had only appealed to the mercy of God, as did David, as did Peter, accept his weakness and fall on his face. But poor Judas could not go beyond his focus on himself, and so committed the ultimate sin, which was to take his life, not his own to take, but a gift from God who knitted him while in his mother’s womb.

Being made in the image and likeness of the living and life-giving God, no human can die as in forever asleep. After the hanging and at the second and final judgement, Judas was and will be judged by God, and let’s neither you nor I predict what his judgment is.

Jesus had orchestrated His own path to the cross. It was His goal to reach Hades, and to once and for all destroy death. Overturning the tables of the money changers, defying the Pharisees’, scribes’, and priests’ interpretation of the law. Woah to landless Levi. Woah to corruption, ignorance, and evil. Jesus used the greedy heart of Judas in His mission to release Adam and Eve and all of humankind from the curse of death. The most heinous betrayal for the most magnificent purpose.

While Judas’ body stiffened as it hung on the tree, back in the courtyard of Caiaphas bloody and bruised Jesus, with hands tied and closely guarded, emerged from the building to be sent to Pontias Pilate.

Peter immediately stood and stared. Seeing Jesus bloody and beaten, wearing a crown of thorns, Peter quickly turned away. He couldn’t see this. It was too tragic. “Where are they taking Him?”The guards were taking Jesus to the Roman occupier to carry out the wishes of His enemies.

King David knew more about enemies than anyone who lived, and with God’s help prevailed over them, but Jesus, the son of David, the son of Man, sought instead to let the world think it won.

ALIVE: Chapter 177, Injustice

From the throne room, a glistening seraphim glided gently down to earth on a mission, to whisper into the nous of Basil, who was sitting peacefully beside his sunny window in deep contemplation, alert for Wisdom from God to convey to his flock.   

Basil had woken up an hour earlier with the sensation that the world was brand new. It felt as if a heavy fog had lifted and he was eager to grab the the revelation before becoming anesthetized to it, as typically happens with revelations. The thrill of the contrast between old and new, and between ignorance and knowledge soon fades.

Basil quickly wrote out what he heard: “And when He had come and had FULFILLED all that was needed for us, in the same night in which was betrayed, or rather, in which He gave Himself up for the life of the world, He took bread in His holy, pure and blameless hands, and when He had given thanks and blessed, and hallowed, He broke it and gave it to his disciples and apostles saying: Take, eat this is My Body which for you is broken, unto the remission of sins. Likewise after the supper (He gave) the cup, saying, “Drink of it all of you, this is My Blood of the new covenant, which for you and for many is shed, for the remission of sins.”

“Wait!” he thought after writing that, “Did the Lord really fulfill all that was needed for us….. hours BEFORE before the crucifixion?!

Did our Lord and Savior give us His living body and blood voluntarily while He still could? Yes. I’m confused. Think Basil, think. NO. Listen Basil, listen! The Life is in the blood. He gave His flesh, His living heart beating blood. He couldn’t give it later. He gave Himself while He was a living human. YES! and no. But how did He do that before the crucifixion?”

Basil quieted his bewildered mind for a moment in order to listen.

“For God, time is not linear,” he patiently said to himself. “Time exists as in a prism to radiate out, past, present, future. Time is an amalgam. Isaac willingly become the sacrificial lamb in obedience to his father Abraham. In God’s eyes Abraham and Isaac actually completed the sacrifice outside of time; God read their hearts and their conviction to obey.

When the Lord Jesus Christ gave His Body and Blood to His disciples that evening, He had already been crucified in God’s Mind. He had already committed Himself to the crucifixion.”

“Yes!” thought Basil, “It is true! It was all over, the arrest, the crucifixion, the gates of Hades opening to release its captives, the resurrection. It was fulfilled on that night when He was also betrayed and was convicted! At the table when He gave His Body and Blood as food for remission of sins, His mission was fulfilled.”

At that thought Basil lowered his head on the desk, enveloped it in his arms, and wept. So many times that happened as he wrote his liturgy, but none as much as that moment. He didn’t see the seraphim dictating to him, but he knew that those words were beyond his imagination. They were true and powerful. No greater gift could a man receive. He had to stop writing. He couldn’t cover the revelation with another word. Not one more word. Those words, the concept they revealed, were sacred and needed to be set aside. Nothing could follow. But gratitude. But love.

“What can a human being do in response to the sacrifice of Jesus, except to emulate Christ as much as possible by service to humankind.” The seraphim smiled while ascending.

Basil stood up. Bent over and kissed the words he wrote. Then Basil turned around and went outside to enjoy the sunshine beaming warmth onto his lifted face.

……

Peter ran back to catch up with Jesus and soon heard the gang stomping their way to Jerusalem, like an army of demons on a mission. He ran towards the sound, being careful not to be seen. Peter spotted Jesus tied up like a lamb to slaughter flanked by men with swords marching beside Him. He stopped to look closely while catching his breath. He could hardly believe his eyes. How could His Lord who walked on water be tied up by hypocritical  hoodlums?

When they had all passed Peter who was hiding, he followed them far enough behind not to be noticed.

Meanwhile, the history of humankind, that for eons had been was moving in lockstep with the sun, took a major turn in its trajectory. Not since Noah’s flood, or the sacrifice of Isaac, or the parting of the Red Sea had human history pivoted so dramatically.

The judgement seat of man was about to be experienced by God whose condescension was about to hit rock bottom. Adding lies to their hypocrisy, hatred to their jealousy, violence to their mocking, left nothing more to for God to experience. With their freedom, these men as too many others, have thoroughly corrupted His image and likeness. Oh Adam, be in awe of His tolerance, emulate it and live.

From the site of His arrest, the police and soldiers accompanied by the priests, elders, and scribes who were lucky enough to be chosen for this important mission took Jesus hand-bound to Annas, who was the father-in-law of Caiaphas, the high priest that year.   

It was late at night and Annas was home wishing to be able to go to sleep, but His son-in-law had told him earlier that they were sending a group out to find and arrest Jesus, and as was sometimes the case, they might confuse Annas’s house with Caiaphas’s, so he should be alert for late night visitors. There was no guarantee, but their informant seemed somewhat reliable. Annas had almost given up waiting and was ready for sleep when he heard heavy footsteps approaching followed by the anticipated knock on his door.

Annas’s servant opened the door and at the nod of Annas admitted the elders, priests and scribes, and Jesus flanked by two guards.

“Come in, come in.” welcomed Annas as if the midnight visit was ordinary. “So this is the Jesus, I’ve heard so much about!” Anna’s’ eyes fell in arrogance onto Jesus’s tied up hands, and then looked up at his eyes. Tell me Jesus, what have you been teaching your disciples that has gotten You into this predicament?”

Jesus replied matter-of-factly, “I have spoken openly to the world; I teach in synagogues and in the temple, where all the Jews come together. I have said nothing in secret. Why do you ask Me? Ask those who heard what I said to them; they know what I said.”

Hearing the disrespect, the guard to His right took it upon himself to defend Annas and struck Jesus on the face, saying, “Is that how you answer the high priest’s father?”

Jesus recoiling at the smack that left a sore red handprint on His face answered, “If I have spoken wrongly, tell me exactly what I said that was wrong. But if I have spoken rightly, why did you hit me?” The policeman shrugged not knowing how to answer.

Annas walked over to his door, opened it himself and told a soldier to go next door to Caiaphas‘s house to alert him. The soldier nodded and ran off, while the rest stood guard. Then he turned to Jesus and said, “Son, I’m afraid you are in big trouble. You have been venturing into dangerous territory for too long, and you will have to pay. May God be with you.” And then to the others in the room, he said, “Take him to Caiaphas, I need my sleep.”

The room emptied quickly with the victorious priests and scribes in the lead followed by Jesus and His guards.

Annas went to bed, but before he fell asleep he thought about what was happening. That man Jesus was so unusual, even in the state He was in. Then Anna’s remembered the day his son-in-law told him about his prophesy that it was better that one man die for the people than that the whole nation perish. Caiaphas said Jesus would die for the Jewish nation, and not only for the nation but also for the scattered children of God, to bring them together and make them one (instead of twelve scattered tribes). So THAT was when Caiaphas and they all plotted to take His life! “But what would God do to them who kill Him? Would they be punished eternally, or forgiven?” thought Caiaphas falling into a deep sleep without an answer.

….

Caiaphas was ready. In fact, he was perturbed that they took Jesus to his father-in-law’s house to begin with. His congregation had gathered a handful of people who were prepared to be false witnesses against Jesus. Night court.

As the large room filled up, Jesus and his strongest guards were told to stand directly in front of the high priest’s elevated throne so he could sit while those addressing him stood.

Caiaphas looked around the room and asked, “Who wishes to present testimony against this man?”

One by one, three men came forward and gave their prepared testimonies, however, their testimonies conflicted. Noting this, Caiaphas raised his eyes in frustration and exclaimed, “Which is it!”

In an attempt to save the day, after all the trouble they had gone through to get Jesus to that point, they couldn’t fail to convict Him, two other men came forward after the three retreated in shame. The tallest one spoke up first saying, “That man said, I am able to destroy the temple of God, and to build it in three days.” The other man nodded strongly and said, “I heard it myself. He threatened the temple, and claimed to be able to rebuild it in three days!”

Caiaphas stood up, towering over Jesus and the rest; and looking down at Jesus said, “What do You have to say for Yourself. That was a strong accusation!”

Jesus said nothing.

“What do you have to say for yourself?” He repeated louder.

Jesus didn’t reply.

Caiaphas said, “I put you under oath by the living God. Tell us if you are the Messiah, the Son of God.”

Jesus continued to be non-responsive.

Wanting to get this over with, in frustration Caiaphas shouted, “By the living God, tell us now whether you are the Messiah! Are you the Son of God?!”

Finally, Jesus spoke up and simply said, “You said it.’ Then, quoting psalm 110, and Daniel 7:13, He added, “You will see the Son of man sitting at the right hand of Power, and coming on the clouds of heaven.”

Hearing that, Caiaphas grabbed his outer tunic and with a jerk of the arm, tore it off his shoulder while shouting “Blasphemy! What more do we need to hear?” Then, turning to the other priests for approval, he added. “What do you say?”

One chief priest shouted, “What more testimony do we need? We heard it ourselves from His own mouth.”

Several others chimed in unison, “He deserves death.” Everyone down to the last servant nodded, condemning Jesus to death.

The small nocturnal crowd, drunk with victory, became a violent mob. Man after man took out all his frustrations and pent up anger, more appropriately directed to their captors, the Romans, and spat in His face. Two particularly aggressive young men started pummeling Jesus with their fists as if He was a punching bag;  another struck Him with the palm of his hand and then roared, “Who struck you? Prophecy to us messiah!”

Before Jesus could shield his head with his tied together arms, a man held Him down while another blindfolded Him.

This gang violence went on for over an hour|. Ravenous with hatred and sense of victory, no one wanted to go home and sleep.

Eventually, the morning sun dawned in the east as if this was just another day.

ALIVE: Chapter 176, Behind the Book

When the disciples escaped, leaving Jesus to be arrested, without a thought in their minds, they ran down the mount back to Jerusalem.

Far enough away from the scene, and out of breath, one by one the man stopped to let his pounding heart settle down.

“Look at you!” chuckled Simon to naked John.

“Stop. Give me something to put on; what have you got?” Simon reached into his knapsack and pulled out a loincloth for his young friend.

“Thank you.”

Hearing them talk, the rest of the disciples went over to join them and plan their next steps.

“Did that just happen?” asked Phillip with overwhelming incredulity.

“I’m afraid it did.” replied James. “Let’s go to His mother’s house and tell her.”

“Good idea.” answered Thomas.

“Come on, let’s go.”

Too stressed to rest, the disciples slowly coalesced before moving on, each man looking around to make sure everyone was present and that they hadn’t been followed by those young men with weapons.

James said, “Wait a minute, aren’t we forgetting something?”

Andrew looked around for a second headcount while the others just looked at James to answer his own question.

James added, “We need to speak to the Father, to tell us what we should do now; what just happened?”

“We know what happened. Jesus was arrested. He told us this was going to happen. What more is there to know?” retorted Thomas.

The other Judas said, “Did you see the Iscariot? What a louse! How could he betray our Lord like that?”

Matthew replied, “The man is distorted. I think his love of money destroyed him. He must have been paid to do what he did.”

The men nodded and shrugged their shoulders.

John said, “It’s late, let’s go to Mary before it gets even later. I want to be with her when she finds out.”

“Okay, let’s go.” added Peter mimicking Jesus’ authoritative tone of voice.

James looked up into the starry heavens and said aloud for everyone to hear, “Father God, please give us wisdom and strength to do what You would have us do at this time.”

Peter shouted back, “I know what I’m going to do. I’m going back to find the Master and stay close.”

Thomas replied, “No sense doing that until morning. You know they just put Him in solitary confinement.”

Just the sound of those words made the disciples shiver. How could Jesus, with all His power be confined? Could the sun be lassoed and thrown in a room?

“I’m going back anyway. I can’t leave Him. You men go to Mary’s house without me.” said Peter , who turn around a ran quickly back to find and follow Jesus.

The rest of the men walked the rest of the way in silence, feeling deeply the absence of their Master who was always with them, except when He sent them out, and even then He was with them.

Missing Him and fretting, while walking Andrew wondered where they took Him.

About an hour later they arrived at Mary’s house. Andrew knocked gently on the door, enough for her to hear if she was awake, but not so hard as to alarm her.

Mary came to open the door for her Son’s brothers.

“Come in men, I’ve been expecting you.” she said in a very sad and somber tone.

John wormed his way through the men to hug her. They wept together.

Andrew said, “How did you know?”

Mary was reticent to tell them about Gabriel’s visitation and decided not to. “That doesn’t matter now Andrew, please let’s pray.”

The men gathered around sitting on the divan and on the floor wherever they could find room. Some eyes closed, others stayed open. Mary began to chant. Then the men joined in and chanted with her. Worship was all they could do. They had no words to express the deep grief, loss, and fear that they felt. But they sensed that they all felt the same.

Bartholomew broke through first and asked, “Lord God, please strengthen our Lord, and Your Son.”

James and John confessed out loud and with averted eyes, that they fell asleep while Jesus was in agony in the garden, and how much He was suffering in anticipation of what He knew would happen, but that somehow He came out with resolve. The Father must have strengthened Him.

Hearing that, Mary smiled knowingly.

Bartholomew and Matthew glared at James and John with scowls on their faces. But they soon remembered that they were sleeping then too.

Mary and her Son’s disciples chanted and prayed for a while. Then Mary announced that it was time to sleep. “We will all need our strength tomorrow. Okay boys?” The men obeyed like boys who loved and respected their mother.

Knapsacks were opened and bedrolls were strewn on the floor and over the divans until everyone comfortably and quickly fell into deep sleep.

Except young John who was so troubled, and felt the pain of Jesus’ mother Mary that he replayed the long day in his mind. Had it only been hours before, when they had been dining in the upper room, and Jesus washed his feet? It felt like weeks ago and that those moments were in a bubble floating up and away into heaven. And yet the scene was seared in his mind. Never ever to be forgotten.

John spent a long while thinking about when Jesus gave them bread and told them that it literally was His body! “How strange?” He had never heard of anyone saying such an outrageous thing before. And that the wine was actually His blood. “How could that be? Why would the Master do that?” John tried to calm his mind to see if the Lord would answer his confusion. He continued to think, “Jesus had said that it was for the remission of sins.” His thoughts then went to the sacrificial lamb which must be eaten for the remission of sins.

“But then, the blood? Didn’t the law say not to eat the blood with the flesh? Why would Jesus tell us to drink His blood with His flesh?!” Again John tried to clear his mind in hopes that an answer would come.

John thought about Jesus, who was the Son of God, the Father. He thought about how a human Father bestows his own body and his blood to his children. That’s what a father is. So it is therefore not unusual to receive the body with the blood together, when it is from one’s father. Could Jesus have been giving us His Body and Blood as a Father? THE Father? Could Jesus be the human extension of His Father on the earth, and so, by giving us His true body and blood, He was making us His true sons, and thus giving us true relationship to each other?  He sensed on this night, as on no other after these years of living together and following Jesus around Israel that they were made, through the body and blood of Jesus into a true family, a family related in human form, body and blood, not just a spiritual, friend-like family. “By giving us His Body and His Blood, we became HIS real flesh and blood family. By telling us that it is for the remission of sins…. It is so we can be sinless as He is. Jesus IS the Father!”

That realization really shook John. He didn’t expect to come to such a powerful conclusion. He didn’t expect it and he knew that he hadn’t conjured that thought up himself but rather it came from above. His body tingled inside. He felt new and different. Like he felt at his baptism in the Jordan. He was a different person. A son of God, through receiving God’s body and blood  (Jesus) means that he is immortal too (and for life everlasting.)

John realized that He no longer had anything to worry about, no matter how bad the next day would be. He knew that God was in control, and although he still couldn’t figure out why Jesus had to suffer so much undeserving humiliation and pain, John was sure that it was for a good reason.

Having received the message that calmed him down, sleep fell upon John very quickly.

Meanwhile, Judas Iscariot was tortured. He shrunk away from the mob and slithered into the woods where he was faced with himself. Greedy, corrupt. He was ashamed and frightened that he could care so much more about what the Pharisees thought than about Jesus. Didn’t Jesus wash his feet? Didn’t he just eat His body and drink His blood. He wasn’t worthy. Judas cried and cried, but no one heard him.

He vowed to give the coins back.

He grew silently hysterical. He couldn’t stand to live inside his own skin. “Why oh why did I betray Jesus? What did He do to deserve…. death? They may even kill Him! I must get to Him. I must ask for His forgiveness. I must try to help Him escape!

How?”

Judas ran farther away so he couldn’t be heard and threw himself on the cold ground and cried harder than he had since he was an infant. “Woe is me!” he worked himself into a stupor. He couldn’t move. For hours Judas lay face down on the earth, too ashamed to turn and look at the stars in the heavens and cried, “I wish that I had never been born.”

ALIVE: Chapter 175, ARRESTED

Back at the camp the rest of the disciples were all fast asleep.

John shook Thomas and told him, “Hey come on wake up, we think something is going to happen! Wake up!”

“What are you talking about?” replied groggy Thomas. “It’s night time, this is when people are supposed to sleep; let’s just stay here tonight. We’re too tired to go to the camp.”

“Seriously Thomas, this is the time to pray, not argue. Just get up and let’s all pray together. Just believe me. No. Don’t believe me, believe Jesus. I’ve never seen Him so upset before.”

Bartholomew and Matthew were awakened by the conversation. They laid there and listened with sleepy eyes closing and opening, wanting to ignore the danger and go back to sleep, until they both realized that was futile. They opened their eyes for good and looked around for Jesus and didn’t see Him.

Peter and James were also rousing the troupes.

“I hear people coming!” Simon shouted the warning. Everyone stood up.

Meanwhile, in the distance a large gang with swords, lanterns, and torches were approaching.

Pharisees and officers from the chief priests led by Judas Iscariot were making their way to them. Judas knew that Jesus and the others were going to head back to camp from their  supper in Jerusalem and this was the way they usually went, and that they often stopped at this garden to rest.

“Come on!” shouted Judas, I don’t know if they are going to stay and sleep here, or go on to the camp at the top. Let’s hurry and get this over with!”

Having gotten through His fear and agony with the help of His Father and angels, Jesus was calmly making His way down the trail to meet them. He too was ready to get this over with. The mob was near when Jesus spotted them. He called out to them, “Who are you gentlemen looking for?”

As the band of political and religious leaders and their servants kept hiking towards Jesus, a naive but ambitious young soldier shouted, “Jesus of Nazareth. Have you seen Him?”

Jesus shouted back, “I am He.”

Hearing his Master, Judas nervously tripped and fell down. By coincidence, several other young soldiers tripped and fell too as if an invisible power pushed them. The more determined Pharisees and officers stood strong and arrogant. Neither Judas nor the younger men expected to feel so discombobulated.

Judas, lifted himself from the dirty ground and wiped his hands on the back of his cloak. He boldly looked at Jesus approaching Him and sputtered, “Hail, Rabbi.” Then he leaned into Jesus and gave Him a kiss on the cheek. He did that because he promised the Pharisees that he would. Pathetic Judas was more afraid of them than he was of Jesus. They had agreed that a kiss would for certain tell them who to arrest since many of them had never seen Jesus before, and others only once or twice. But the deal was that after he identified Jesus, they would lead Him away safely and not harm Him. Judas didn’t expect them to be carrying so many weapons. However, he had already taken the money and couldn’t go back on his word.

Jesus looked at Judas curiously and responded to the kiss by saying sarcastically, “Did you betray the Son of Man with a kiss?” Judas jerked his head away and squinted his eyes to avoid seeing Jesus’ face. Then he turned his back on Jesus and walked away from the whole scene and back to Jerusalem. He couldn’t bear any more.

By then the disciples arrived. Peter had Thomas’ sword in his hand and said, “Lord should I strike them?” Without waiting for a reply Peter took a swipe at the head of Malchus, a servant of the high priest and cut off his right ear.

Jesus went over to the poor guy and picked up his ear from the ground and carefully placed it back on the screaming man’s head, which instantly calmed him. Then Jesus said, “Peter, let it go. Put your sword away. Whoever uses the sword, will perish by the sword. Don’t you realize that I could easily ask My Father, even now, and He would send me more than twelve legions of angels? Shall I not drink of the cup which My Father has given Me? How then would the scriptures be fulfilled?” Then Jesus turned to the mob and said, “Are you coming out to seize Me with swords and staves as if I was a robber? I sat in your temple every day teaching; you could have taken Me then, but you didn’t.” And then to regain the upper hand, He added, “I know that it has to happen this way so that the scriptures would be fulfilled.”

Hearing that and trusting Jesus to His Father, the disciples, to save themselves, ran from the scene. John who only had a linen cloth around him was grabbed by a soldier but he jerked himself away, and then the cloth fell off and John escaped naked.

Jesus yelled, “I told you that I am He! Let My disciples go their way.” Jesus knew He was fulfilling Scripture again. That memory strengthened Him. The one that says, “Of those whom Thou hast given me I lost not one.”

Having heard enough, the band and the chief captain and the officers of the Jews seized Jesus and bound him. He yielded to them because He knew that this was exactly what He had been provoking them to do.

Meanwhile, back in Jerusalem, Jesus’ mother was still chanting and praying when suddenly the archangel Gabriel appeared to her again! At first she was surprised, but the angel gave her a sense of calm. He visited with her for a long while and let her know about the difficult days to come. He told her that more than ever she will trust the Father. As dark and deep the suffering will be, her upcoming joy will be infinitely greater, overwhelming even the light of the sun.

He who put the earth and moon and stars into motion was arrested that night. Hands tied, He walked with them back into Jerusalem where they locked Him in a stone room. This may have been the most precious night of His life spent in holy solitude with His Father.

I wonder if plummeting from the throne room of God to become fully human, into a zygote, then a baby, a boy, a young man, and a mature man compares to the condescension of Jesus Christ emptying Himself of His divinity on this holy night in Jerusalem, forfeiting His divine power to the Jews and the Romans in all their hatred, fear, and arrogance.

It was His LOVE, a purely divine trait, that gave Jesus the strength to endure that dark cold night in the stone cell formerly inhabited by thieves and murderers to lock away from society  their evil behavior. It was the love of His Father, the Creator of heaven and earth and of everything visible and invisible who comforted His only begotten Son throughout the darkest night and prepared Him for the one thing the Father could not do, and that was to meet death.

ALIVE: Chapter 174, Agony

Mother Mary couldn’t fall sleep that night and she didn’t know why. She felt the tingling of nervousness, like blood boiling in the veins of her arms, and she could feel her stomach in her throat. She was alone in her house that night. Passover was in two days and she had plans to celebrate at her neighbor’s house. She didn’t know where her Son and His disciples were going to eat the first seder. Passover meal. She spent the sleepless time thinking about her mother and father and her beloved house-mother who raised her from childhood. They were all in Hades. What could that be like? How awful. She prayed for them. Holidays always caused her to miss them more. How she yearned for the affection and advice of her father and the deep love and sisterhood of her mother, and the guidance of her house-mother who had also passed decades before. Gradually, Mary lulled herself to sleep with this deep sense of loss and grief that time didn’t heal.

On their way from the upper room to the Mount of Olives, or so the disciples thought, as it was their familiar destination, Jesus stopped at a place across the brook Kidron where there was a garden called Gethsemane. This was a regular stop on their way up. It was very late, but the brightness of the star-filled sky fortunately illuminated their path enough. To the man, each disciple was very sleepy. The supper had been so intense, and they had so much to process of all that Jesus said and did there, all they wanted to do, was to get to camp and sleep. As if that wasn’t enough, the anxiety of a betrayal of Jesus almost finished them off so they could barely walk.

Jesus declared, “Men, sit here while I go to pray. My heart is heavy and I need to commune with My Father. Peter, James, John, come with Me.”

The three looked up and, being too sleepy to even speak they obediently just stepped out of the group to follow Jesus while the others gladly looked around for places to lie down and nap. No one questioned why they had to stop before arriving at their hideaway although the thought occurred to Matthew that he should be grateful not to have to hike farther upward.

When they reached a large sycamore tree surround by lush grass, Jesus stopped again and turned to Peter, James, and John and confided in them, “My soul is so exceeding sorrowful that I feel that I could die right here and now. I need to go a little ways to be alone and pray to My Father. Please stay right here, stay awake to watch for My enemy to appear. I know he is coming.”

The three favorite men nodded solemnly, too sleepy to verbalize their consent.

Jesus walked a stone’s throw away and fell to His knees, and then crouched until His face was on the ground smelling the rich earth and feeling the coolness of the grass. He prayed with all His heart and soul saying, “My Father, if it is possible, I beg of You to let this cup pass away from Me.”

As His passionate plea welled up from His heart, tears trickled from His eyes. He paused to listen for a reply which never came, so He added whispering, “Nevertheless My Father, not My will, but Yours be done.”

His angel couldn’t endure the anguish any more and gradually became visible. Jesus recognized this angel, one of His favorites, who said nothing, but simply pulsated light. The vision amused Jesus enough to strength Him. With his little light show, the angel seemed to say, “Remember us. We are with You. Be strong.”

The strength the angel brought Him helped Jesus pray more earnestly in His agony. His sweat became as great drops of blood that dripped onto the earth. He managed to whisper again, “Nevertheless My Father, not as I will, but may Your will be done.” Awake from His own fear and disappointment over His Father’s silence, Jesus went back to check on His men.

When He reached where He left them He looked around and saw them strewn on the ground snoring so He said, loud enough to wake them up, “Peter! Couldn’t you watch with Me for just  one hour?”

Peter, James, and John woke up fast and looked up squinting to see Jesus in the starlight.

After seeing that they had awakened, Jesus added, “PLEASE, watch and pray, that you don’t enter into temptation [as I am]! You have no idea how painful this is. May you never. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak. I’m going back now, I just came to see how well you were guarding Me.”

More exhausted than ever after being admonished on top of the other stresses of the night, the men sadly watched Jesus walk away again. John would never forget the shame he felt at that moment.

When Jesus arrived at the spot where He had been praying, He stopped, took a deep breath, looked up at the starry sky, His heart and throat trembling said, “My Father, if this cup cannot pass away, except I drink it, Your will be done.”

Silence.

Jesus was too emotional to say any more and decided that He would check to see if His men were still awake. As He was disappointed by the Father’s silence, He was again disappointed by seeing James, John, and Peter, His chosen most beloved, asleep again. He didn’t even bother to wake them up, but instead went back to His own spot and again, lifted His eyes to the starry cloudless heavens and assured His Father, confirming that above all, above the heavens and all the stars was His primary desire to do the will of His Father, as painful and sorrowful as it would be.

It is one thing to suffer from an illness, or from a situation that comes unexpectedly. It is another, to suffer from a mean enemy. But for any reason the suffering comes, to suffer willingly and nobly is holy, unworldly, Christ-like.

In situations when the suffering could be avoided, sidestepped, eliminated entirely and easily, but instead the person allows the suffering and raises it to a purposeful level, to be endured with grace, that kind of suffering becomes even more poignant.

God is watching.

Jesus suffered too, and fought with Himself to sidestep it. He had begged His Father not to go through what was coming. Every person alive who has begged God fervently to remove his or her suffering without relief of any kind, must keep this moment in mind. Silence from the Father.

Finally, to pursue suffering as Jesus Christ did, in order to give relief to an enemy is love. Love rises above the laws of nature into the heavens, where God Who is love, dwells. This is where Jesus was heading. He suffered on this night, fighting His own will to not have to go through the shame and pain of crucifixion. His human nature craved running away, and yet, His human nature also and more so craved to do His Father’s will.

To surrender to God’s will in every situation of suffering, no matter how painful, and to see the suffering as purposeful, is to force one’s self through the narrow gate to eternal life in the Kingdom of God.

Girded with such courage and love, Jesus took a deep breath of cool Jerusalem night air imbued with the fragrance of cedar and was ready to face His enemies and receive their arrogance. He lowered His face, turned around and walked back to His sleeping companions.

He woke them up by saying in a little louder than normal voice, “Sleep on now, and take your rest.” Then in a more serious tone, “The hour is at hand, and the Son of man is betrayed into the hands of sinners. Then He decided to wake them up. “Peter.  James.  John. Wake up, let’s go back to the others. He is near who betrayed Me.”

Peter, James, and John were shocked. They knew that this would happen, they were told by Jesus, but on THIS of all nights, just before the Passover, after that intense supper, and in the middle of the night! Groggy, the three disciples felt surreal, wondering if they were still sleeping. What were they going back to find?

Meanwhile mother Mary was having a fitful night. Tossing and turning. She had no idea of what was happening, but she sensed evil. Oh that her mother was here to comfort her, or her beloved Father Joachim who adored her so much! All alone on this sleepless night, all she could do was pray.

Giving up trying to sleep Mary sat up, and started to chant. This comforted her.

ALIVE:Chapter 173, The Last Supper of Words

Jesus had to tell His men to love one another because it seems to be human nature for people to compare themselves to each other. How absurd, since each human being is absolutely unique in every way, biology, experience, soul. We aren’t Labrador Retrievers which are all docile, or hyper poodles. Nevertheless, that evening during their very last supper together after Judas Iscariot rushed out, the disciples started arguing among themselves as to who was the greatest. If they had seen into the future at Peter’s Basilica in Rome, there may have been fist fights, that is until an angel was sent to remind them that the holy mansion is more about the victory of Christianity overcoming the tyranny of Rome than about Peter, as special as he is. Besides, it is not the outward appearance of basilicas or homes, or treasuries that account for one’s greatness, but of likeness to God who is love. Jesus had more to say about that. A lot more.

Rather than enter their brawl, Jesus chose instead to redefine greatness. He said, “The kings of the Gentiles have lordship over them. But you should not be like them. Whoever wants to be greater, must aim for the true way which is to become like the youngest.” He continued, “The leader should be like the servant. For who is really greater,  the person who is dining or the servant?”

Thomas said in a low voice, “Obviously the person who is being served.”

Jesus hearing Thomas, thought that Thomas still had a lot to learn, and knew that he would learn, but that it wouldn’t be fast and easy, and said, “Look at Me. I am here with you as a servant.

You have been with Me all this time through many trials and temptations. I will give you a kingdom some day, as My Father will give Me a kingdom. Someday you will eat and drink at My table in My kingdom; and sit on thrones judging the twelve tribes of Israel. But until then My brothers, follow Me as the servant of all.”

Jesus turned to Peter who was still fretting after having been told that he would deny his Master, “Simon, Simon, don’t fret, listen to Me, Satan asked to have you that he might sift you as wheat. Remember Job? But I made supplication for you, that your faith will not fail. When your faith has turned and strengthened again, you will establish the brothers, indeed you will establish the true faith for many others.” Jesus looked into Peter’s eyes for his response.

Peter looking straight back at Jesus’ replied, “Lord, I am ready to go to prison or to death for You!”

Jesus repeated, “Peter, today you will indeed deny me three times before the cock crows. You will say that you didn’t even know me!” Peter sunk his head into his hands. He couldn’t believe that.

Jesus changed the subject, “When I sent you out without a satchel or a wallet, and or even shoes, did you lack anything?”

Several of the disciples replied aloud, “Nothing”while others either shook or nodded their heads meaning the same thing by the gesture.

Jesus added, But now, if you have a satchel or a purse, take it; take a wallet. If you don’t have a sword, sell your cloak and buy a sword. The scripture was written about Me and will soon be fulfilled, that says ‘And he was reckoned with transgressors.’ They will call Me a criminal and therefore you too. They see us as a dangerous gang. You will have to defend yourselves.”

Thomas quickly chimed up, “Lord, I have two swords!”

Jesus who grew increasingly serious, knowing that His men were not trained to fight with swords said, “Good, that’s enough.” Then to give them the better perspective He added. “Don’t let your heart be troubled. Don’t worry; don’t fret. Believe in God, believe also in Me. Your concerns are short sighted. We have a bright future. In My Father’s house there are many mansions. I am going to prepare a place for you. If I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again to bring you to Me. I promise you that we will be together again. Where I go, you already know the way.”

Thomas asked, “Lord, we don’t know where you’re going, so how can we know the way?”

Jesus replied, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life: no one comes to the Father except by Me. If you had known Me, you would have known My Father also. From now on, realize this: you know Him and you have seen Him.”

Philip said, “Lord, show us the Father, and that will be good enough.”

Frustrated with the question, especially from Phillip, Jesus replied, “Have I been with you for such a long time, and you still don’t know Me Philip?  Whoever sees Me, has seen the Father, so how can you ask Me to show you the  Father?”

Hearing that jarred the disciples, every one of them. Was Jesus saying that He was the Father, God, the Creator of Heaven and Earth? But then how could He call Him the Father?

They were confused, so Jesus continued. “Let me explain. Do you believe that I am in the Father, and that the Father lives in Me?”

John said, “Yes, Lord.” The others nodded slightly.

“What I teach you does not come from Me. Even the healings and the miracles. The Father Who abides in Me does it all. Believe Me that I am in the Father, and the Father in Me, or else believe Me for the very works’ sake. That explains how I can do these things.”

A host of angels saw the fog lifting slowly from most of the disciples’ minds, and fluttered their wings with joy.

Feeling strength well up in Him, Jesus continued, “I tell you the truth, whoever believes in Me. The works that I do, he will be able to do too. Remember when you healed people? How do you think that happened? Not only healing, even greater works than what you have seen Me do, those who believe in Me will be able to do too because I am going to the Father. Whatever you ask of the Father in My name, I will do it, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.”

Jesus scanned the men to read how they were receiving the message and was gratified. They wanted to believe, and that was enough for this day. John looked mesmerized, like he was recording in his mind every word that Jesus was saying.

Jesus reiterated the promise, “If you ask anything in My name, I will do it.”

The men looked at Jesus and at each other, some with pride, some with wonder, some in contemplation over how life will be different.

“If you love Me, you will keep My commandments and I will pray to the Father, and He will give you another Counselor, that He may be with you for ever. The  Comforter is the Spirit of Truth whom the world cannot receive; for it can’t recognize Him or know Him.  You will know Him because He abides with you, and in you. My brothers, I promise that I will not leave you desolate.”

By this time, most heads were bowed. The words were so intense, consoling, and frightening at the same time.

“Yet a little while, and the world will see Me no more; but you will know that I am near you. Because I live, you will live also.”

James wondered as he heard this statement. He wondered what life is exactly. The way Jesus was talking, it couldn’t be mere biological life.

“In that day you will know without a doubt that I am in My Father, and that you are in Me, and I in you. Whoever knows My commandments and obeys them, shows the world and My Father that he loves Me. Whoever loves Me is loved by My Father and I will love him, and will show Myself to him.

James heard that and thought that perhaps the concept of love was a clue to the meaning of life that Jesus was explaining. But Jesus kept speaking and James needed to reserve that thought and listen for more explanation.

Judas (not Iscariot) said, “How is it that You will show yourself to us, and not to everyone?”

Jesus answered Him, “It’s very personal Judas, if a man loves me, he will obey My teaching. Whoever tries to be like Me, My Father will love, and We will come to him or her, and stay with them. I want you to understand this Judas, and the rest of you, the person who doesn’t really love Me, and doesn’t do as I teach, well, My teachings are not mine, but My Father’s who sent Me. Do I need to say more? Just this, I tell you all this while I am still with you. After I am gone, the Father will send you the Comforter, the Holy Spirit. He will send Him in My name. He will teach you everything and remind you of everything I have said to you.”

Listening carefully to every word, John wasn’t sure if he felt inflated by the assurance that Jesus would always be with him, in one form or another, or deflated because it would not be the same to not be able to touch Him and lean on Him at table. He loved His being, He loved the Person, and he needed to love His Spirit, the essence of Jesus even more, because that will last. It was hard for young John to see the difference. Mesmerized and soaking up every golden word. He felt chills running up his spine as he heard Jesus virtually say the He was God!

Jesus had had these last most important teachings for His disciples pent up for many weeks, waiting for the right place and time to let them spill out. In some ways, He was speaking to Himself as well, to prepare Himself for the climax of His earthly life. How He enjoyed living on earth, His friendships, His body, His Mother. He wanted to savor every last moment.

“Peace I leave with you; My peace I give you: not as the world gives. The world gives circumstances, fleeting circumstances that offer sensations of peace. No, not as the world gives. I give you true and lasting peace that is not circumstantial. This I give you. Never allow your heart to be troubled or fearful. You heard Me say to you that I will go away and then come back to you. If you truly loved Me, you would have rejoiced, because I go to My Father Who is greater than I.”

John nodded sheepishly.

And now I have told you before it happens, so that when it happens you will believe that it is meant to be. There is a reason; don’t be fearful, have faith and be at peace.

I will not be able to speak with you much more, for the prince of the world is coming for Me, and he has no control over Me. What I will endure, I do out of obedience to My Father. What you will witness is proof for you and for the world of My love for the Father.  The world will know that I love the Father who gave Me the commandment to endure, and so I will.”

Then Jesus stood up and said, “Get up; come on, it’s time. Let’s go.”

Admittedly John’s mind was wandering a bit. He was trying to think of why the Jews would go so far as to kill him, and what Jesus might have done to provoke them besides healing on the Sabbath and talking back to them. Then he remembered the day He turned the tables of the money changers in the temple. Boy, that was really something! He couldn’t remember when it happened, either recently or a while ago, but everyone, the vendors, the Pharisees, the rabbis, they were all furious! He made such a mess!

“Let’s not go yet Master. Please teach us more before we go.” begged Peter who didn’t want these precious moments to be over forever.

Jesus smiled, nodded in agreement, and sat back down to keep talking, He too didn’t want these moments alone in the upper room to end. Everyone also shifted to sit more comfortably. “Let me explain this to you in a way I hope will help you to understand better. I am the vine, and My Father is the gardener. Every branch in Me that doesn't bear fruit, He prunes away, and every branch that does bear fruit, He cleans, so that it may bear more fruit.”

Bartholomew piped in, “Jesus, what fruit are You talking about, figs?”

“Good question Bartholomew. There is kindness, meekness, patience, love, faith, endurance, joy and peace, and there is also the works, generosity, helping the sick, feeding the hungry, visiting the lonely. We are here to help and love each other. If we care only about ourselves and our health or comfort, then we shrivel up because we have left God who is Love. Love requires the Other. Let Me explain. Thank you Bartholomew.”

Then Jesus looked at each man from Peter at the end across the table, and down past Andrew, Matthew and on back to Thomas who had been sitting next to Judas on His left.

He said, “Already you are clean because you have been listening to My teachings all this time. Even when I’m gone, continue to abide in Me, so I can abide in you, and together we will bare fruit. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it is connected to the vine; so too, unless you are connected to Me, you cannot bear fruit. You see, I am the vine, you are the branches: He that is connected to Me, who follows Me, who believes in Me and receives Me, and therefore I in him, that person produces fruit. Those who are away from Me, who don’t believe. Or they say they believe, and think they do, but don’t make the effort to know Me, and learn from Me; or obey My commandments, they can’t do anything.

If a man does not abide in Me, he becomes as a withered branch. We all know that withered branches are cut off, gathered, and cast into the fire to be burned. Do you want to become ashes or do you want to live and grow forever?”

He paused to let His words sink in.

“If you devote yourself to abiding in Me, and My teachings reside in your mind and are refreshed daily, then you may ask whatever you will, and it shall be done for you. Because of this, by your faith My Father is glorified. He is glorified because He made men in His image and likeness, Who is love and power, and when you are a healthy branch that produces fruit, you demonstrate that His creation was successful. That glorifies Him as the Creator! And it makes you My good students. I am teaching you how to glorify God with your life, not just your words or because of tradition. Every generation, every person, must make the commitment, the effort to live the glorified life.

I love you, just as the Father loves Me. He loves Me because He sees that I keep His commandments, even to keep the Sabbath sacred.” Chuckling at that He added, “Let me expand on this; the first and greatest of the Commandments is to love the Lord our God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind. He wants us to love Him, so that we might have an abundant life.

Hearing the irony of keeping the Sabbath holy, the facial expressions of triumph took various forms. The disciples knew what a holy, mystical, sacred, and approved act it was for Jesus to have healed on the Sabbath. He did that also to provoke His enemies as the means to distinguish Himself from the hypocrites.

“I tell you these things men so that My joy may be in you, and that your joy may be made full. My greatest commandment is that you love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no man than that a man lay down his life for his friends.  You are My friends if you do the things which I command you.”

Then Jesus stood up from the table again to deliver His final words, and to stretch His legs. John looked up and stood too.  One by one each disciple also stood up.

No longer do I call you My servants, although I appreciate all the work and sacrifice you have done for Me these years: crowd control, setting up and tearing down camp, seeing that we were fed, even going out and healing people. You men have been My good servants. But you are no longer to be called My servants. The servant doesn’t know what his master is doing. I have called you friends; for all things that I heard from My Father I wanted you to know. You did not choose Me, but I chose you, and appointed you to go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should last so that whatever you will ask of the Father in My name, He may give it to you. What I command in return is that you simply love one another. No arguments, no criticisms, or rivalry. Just simple love, which will require that you be humble. Okay? Can you do that? For Me?”

A cacophony of “Yes Lord” and bobbling heads replied.

Jesus was offering His disciples a feast of teachings, of words that would guide them for the rest of their lives. But instead of ending with the sweetness of dessert, He closed with the bitterness of reality, to prepare Himself and them for the crucible that would strengthen rather than destroy them. Still standing, surrounded by His band of brothers Jesus said, “If they persecuted Me, they will also persecute you because they don’t know My Father. If I had not come and spoken to them, they would not have sin. Knowledge is a sharp two edged sword, it both destroys and protects. Now they have no excuse for their sin. He that hates Me hates My Father also. If I had not done among them the works which no one else has done, they would not have sinned, but they did see and hated both Me and My Father.

God foresaw this and described these days through the prophet who said, “They hated Me without a cause.” But when the Comforter comes, whom I will send you from the Father, the Spirit of truth, which will proceed from the Father, He will bear witness of Me, and so will you because you have been with Me from the beginning.

I am telling you all this, I’m warning you that you will have cause to stumble. They will evict you from the synagogues. Whosoever kills you will think that he offers service to  God. They will kill you because they have not known the Father, nor Me. Remember these words when your hour and My hour comes. Remember that I knew what will happen. These things I did from the beginning because I was with you. But now I go to the Father that sent Me. I know how sad you are and will be. To tell you the truth it is expedient for you that I go away; if I don’t go away, the Comforter will not come to you; if I go, I will send Him to you. When He comes He will convict the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment: of sin, because they didn’t believe in Me; of righteousness, because I go to the Father, and you will see Me no more; of judgment, because the prince of this world has ultimately been judged.

I still have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. When the Spirit of truth comes, He will guide you. He will not speak from Himself; but rather from whatever He hears from the Father. He will tell you the things that are to come. He will glorify Me.

Everything that the Father has is also Mine. That is how I say that He, the Spirit, will take of what is Mine and pass it on to you. In little while, you won’t see Me, but a little while after that, you will see Me again.”

Jesus stopped talking to glance over at Judas, Bartholomew, and Phillip who were chatting to each other. He heard Bartholomew say, “What is He talking about? We won’t see Him, then we will? And this thing about going to the Father?”

Judas agreed, “Yeah, what is He saying?”

Phillip added, “Yeah, I don’t understand that either.” and shrugged his shoulders.

Jesus said, “You don’t understand what I’m saying? Soon you will weep and the world will rejoice. You will be sad, but your sorrow will turn into joy. It will be like when a woman is in labor to deliver a child, and she is screaming and wailing from the pain,”

Peter remembered too well, when his wife was delivering their children how loud she screamed.

but as soon as the baby is born, she forgets all that anguish for the joy that her baby is born into the world.

I’m telling you this now, to assure you that as miserable as you will be when I’m gone, you will rejoice even more when I reappear. Then your hearts will rejoice, and no one can take that joy away from you.” He was gratified that His men could tap into this sense of hope and expectation in their suffering. “When that happens, you won’t need to ask Me any more questions. Instead, you will be able to ask the Father for anything in My name and He will give it to you. Until now you have not asked for anything in My name. But go ahead, ask and you will receive, that your joy will be fulfilled.”

Then Jesus looked up as if looking through the ceiling into heaven and said, “Father, I know, it’s time. I’m ready for you to glorify Me so that I may glorify You. Even as You gave Me authority over all flesh, to give eternal life to all whom You gave Me. This is eternal life, that they should know You, the only true God, and Me whom you sent to earth. I glorified You on the earth, having accomplished the work which You gave Me  to do. Now Father, glorify Me with the glory which I had with You before the world was made.”

Hearing that, the men, especially John, grew wide-eyed realizing that if He was God, surely He was present in the creation of the world!

Jesus continued speaking to His Father, “I manifested You to these men whom You gave Me out of the world. They were Yours and You gave them to Me; and they have kept Your word. Now they know that everything You gave Me is from You. I have told them what You said to Me, and they believed Me, and that I came from You. I pray for them,  not for the world, but for those whom You have given Me. I am coming back to You Holy Father. I pray that they may be one, even as We are.

I kept them and guarded them. Not one of them perished, except the son of perdition that the scripture might be fulfilled. But now I come to You; and these things I speak in the world, that they may be filled with My joy. The world hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. I don’t ask You to take them out of the world, but that You keep them from the evil one. They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world. Sanctify them in the word of Your truth. Father, I desire that those whom You have given Me may be with Me where I am, that they may behold My glory, which You gave Me, for You loved Me before the foundation of the world.”

Then Jesus looked around at His disciples and shook His head as if waking up and said, “Okay let’s tidy up and get out of here. It’s late.”

ALIVE : Chapter 172, The Pelican

With only hours left before the end of His human life on earth, Jesus still had so much to tell His brotherhood of disciples. As He walked around in the room, Jesus looked up and noticed the pelicans that adorned the tops of the columns and thought about how fitting they were for what He had in mind to do that evening. He felt very comfortable in that room and complimented Peter and John for setting it up so nicely. A deep feeling of love for His disciples welled up within Him, and nearly brought Him to the brink of tears. The juxtaposition of His immense feelings of love and awareness of the suffering He and His followers would have to bear grieved Him, but He held it in. This was not the time to emote. These hours were precious.

“Let’s eat, I’m hungry!” exclaimed Jesus to pop out of His nostalgia. Then He looked over at Judas Iscariot, Simon’s son, and of course knowing that Judas betrayed him, He watched him act jovial. Judas was jawboning with Thomas about what they had seen in the marketplace that morning, a beautiful young woman carefully selecting beans, only the unblemished ones. Judas was acting out that lady which made Thomas laugh. Actually, Jesus appreciated the levity.

Andrew called out, “Okay, everyone, wash your hands and sit down; we’re ready.” Jesus was the first to pray and wash His hands and then He sat down on the pillow at the low triclinium. Because He was the host He took the second seat from the right end and invited His beloved young disciple John to sit in the seat of honor to His right. Jesus called out Judas to be honored to sit on his left. Judas sheepishly took his place. Peter took the last place at the table opposite John (hoping to be called up, which never happened. Instead Peter  accepted the humility of being in the last place.) One by one, the other seats were filled. Everyone was quiet as they looked to Jesus for the prayer.

Jesus led His men in the prayer of thanksgiving and they ate the first course in silence; the men all perceived the solemnity of the occasion just by looking at how pensive Jesus was. James surmised that this would probably be the last supper, before the last Passover that they would ever celebrate together which gave cause to his own feelings of nostalgia.

After eating a few figs, Jesus said, “Before we continue, having washed our hands, it is time to wash your feet as well. Please remove your sandals.”

The men looked at each other in curiosity. This had never happened before. The sense that life and their routine was about to change radically was confirmed by gradual changes such as having this private room all to themselves, and now Jesus interrupting the meal to wash feet. If nothing else, the disciples had learned over the past few years to be open to surprises.

Jesus, looking at His loyal men and knowing that He came from God and would soon return to His Father, He was about to do something that His Father directed Him to do. He stood up and removed His garment and laid it aside, then He took a towel that He had brought that was lying on the nearby table and wrapped it around His waist as He walked over to the table with the large hand-washing basin. He poured more water in the basin, lifted it up and carried it first to John.

John looked up at Jesus with curiosity, then swung around followed by the others who swung around to face outward and offered their feet to be washed. Jesus lovingly took the water in His cupped hand and splashed it on John’s left foot and then his right. He rubbed off the dirt and dust and splashed some more to rinse them. When He finished that Jesus removed the towel from His waist and used it to wipe John’s feet.

Then Jesus went to the other end of the table to Simon Peter who had been watching attentively with dismay wondering how John could let Jesus do that. Simon Peter said, “Lord! How can You wash my feet? I should be washing Your feet!”

Jesus answered and said, “You don’t understand what I am doing now, but you will.”

Peter replied, “NO! You will never wash my feet!”

Jesus said, “If I don’t wash you, you have no part with Me.”

Simon Peter said, “Lord, in that case, don’t wash my feet only, but also my hands and my head.”

Jesus said, “He that is bathed needs only to wash his feet, and is thoroughly clean. You are clean,” then looking up and around at all His men added, “but not all. You are not all clean.”

The disciples looked to their left and right for a guilty-looking face and saw none. Meanwhile, Jesus went down the line, and washed every disciple’s feet as carefully as He washed John’s. The last person was Judas Iscariot. Judas was stiff and nearly holding his breath. No one noticed. Jesus, did not look up at his eyes, but rather focused on the rough heels and crooked toes to try to scrub them clean, but He was not able. So stained were Judas’s rough trodden feet. Another reason Jesus did not look up was because He didn’t want Judas to see the grief in His eyes. It was not the grief of the victim wronged that Jesus was trying to keep in, but because He knew that Judas would suffer more from his betrayal than Jesus ultimately would. If He had looked up, He would have seen with His mind’s eye the noose that Judas would place around his own neck to take his life because of his deep remorse. If only he had asked for forgiveness. Did his shame obliterate any sense of humility? Instead, Jesus rinsed and rinsed those scrubbed feet, that in their toughness revealed how accustomed to the ground they were. Jesus dried them with the towel and then put His garment back on, tossed the dirty water out, filled the basin with the rest of the clean water, washed His hands with prayer again,  and returned to His  seat between John and Judas.

Jesus said, “Men, do you know what I have done to you? You call Me Teacher and Lord: and that’s true, I am. If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, learn from Me, and wash one another’s feet. I have given you an example; do to others as I have done to you. You know that the servant is not greater than his lord. One who is sent, is not greater than the one that sent him. This is obvious, now do it and be blessed because you please Me as I send you out into the world. Humble yourself before all.”

As they listened to Jesus speak to them, with such passion and sincerity, Matthew, the former tax collector, thought he heard the gravity in His voice compelling His disciples to put aside their egos as if their life depended on it, because it does. Of all the disciples around that table, Matthew understood most the value of setting aside a false sense of self-worth. Then he heard Jesus say something very strange and unexpected, which he didn’t understand, and which he struggled to think through before succumbing to sleep that night.

He had said, “I am not speaking of all of you. I know whom I have chosen. Do you remember the scripture that says, “He that eats my bread lifts up his heel against me. I am telling you about what will happen, so that you know that when these things occur, rest assured that I knew, so you will believe that I am who I say I am. Welcome those who I will send you. By doing so, you will be receiving Me. He who eats My flesh and drinks My blood abides in Me, and I in him. He who receives me, receives Him that sent Me, Who is My Father and your God, Yahweh.”

Right after the prayer, Jesus took a loaf of bread from the several loaves strewn on the table. He blessed, and tore off one piece at a time and passed it down until each disciple had a piece of leavened bread. They all knew not to eat their bread yet. Jesus looked to make sure everyone had bread in hand and He raised His piece and said, “Take, eat; this is My body.” It was a powerful moment. Judas was quaking in his sandals. Thomas wanted to cry. Bartholomew and Andrew looked at each other wide eyed as they chewed the bread, their Lord’s body, and swallowed it.  Bartholomew looked up at the pelican while chewing,  remembering that she feeds her young from her own flesh to keep them alive when needed.

When everyone had finished their own piece of what was their Lord’s body, Jesus raised a large golden goblet of dark red wine. He lifted the goblet that He had brought with Him from His mother’s house and when He had given thanks, He said, “Drink from this goblet, this is my blood of the covenant, which is poured out for many unto remission of sins.” He first turned to John on His right, who took the first sip, then took the chalice back and handed it to Judas on His left. John noticed a warm feeling in his chest as the wine penetrated his body, suddenly he felt older, wiser, and stronger. He smiled at the sensations. James carefully received the chalice from Judas on his right lest even a drop would accidentally spill, and just as carefully handed it to Thomas.

While His blood was being passed from disciple to disciple, Jesus said, “I will not drink of this fruit of the vine, until that day when I drink it anew with you in My Father’s kingdom. I have desired to eat this year’s Passover with you before I suffer, but I am afraid that I will not eat the Passover meal until it is fulfilled in the kingdom of God.”  

John thought about how close they had all been all these months and through so many marvelous and dangerous events, and how much he truly loved his Lord. He thought about how loving and majestic it was for Jesus to leave them with such a lasting, even eternal continuation of their relationship with Him. No. More than a relationship, it was an offer of unity. John was overwhelmed by joy at this gift, at the sentiment of it and the materiality of it. How earthly, how heavenly!

All were stone silent while each of them sipped the blood-red wine. After watching disciple after disciple sip His blood, the deep grief that festered in His heart surfaced as He looked around the U-shaped table down to Peter at the end and said in a low voice, “One of you will betray me.”

Not everyone heard Jesus say that because they had started talking to each other. But John heard it, and Peter across the way who was looking directly at Jesus when He said that heard it. Peter, looking directly at John, gestured to him from across the table as if to say to him, "Who is it?” John straightened himself up from leaning on Jesus's breast and said to Him quietly, "Lord, who is it?"

Judas who was sitting in the second place of honor to Jesus’s left heard Jesus too and trembled as he said, “Is it me?” Jesus answered, "I will dip my bread into this bowl of sauce and give it to him.” He dipped the bread and gave it to Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot, who received it in fear and ate it. After he swallowed the bread, Satan entered into him. Those who are unworthy of the Eucharist suffer harm by it. As the prophet Isaiah said, “it becomes a burning coal.”

Jesus then said to Judas quietly,, "What you do, do quickly." Other than John, no one of those reclining at the table, who heard knew why Jesus said that to him. They thought it was because Judas had the bag, that that he should go out into the marketplace and purchase the Passover meal of lamb and bitter herbs, and that Judas should also give some of the money to the poor as a Passover mitzvah. Judas stood up immediately and rushed out the door. Jesus said to John as the others were eating their supper and chatting with each other, “The Son of Man indeed goes just as it is written of Him, but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed! It would have been better if he had not been born.”

Jesus, John, and Peter watched Judas leave. After Judas walked out the door, Jesus said, “Now is the Son of man glorified, and God is glorified in Him; and God will glorify Him in Himself.” Only a few of the disciples were paying attention to what Jesus was saying because they were involved in their own conversations. Those and a few more whose conversations paused looked up at Jesus in the gap of their chatter to hear Him add, “Little children, I am with you for a little while longer. After that you will look for Me, but not find Me because where I go, you cannot come.”

Hearing that, Bartholomew said quietly to Thomas, “Where is He going?

Simon Peter said out loud, “Lord, where are you going?”

Jesus answered, “Where I go, you cannot follow Me now; but you will later.”

Peter replied, “Lord, why can’t I follow You now? I will lay down my life for You!”

Jesus to Peter, “Will you lay down your life for Me? To tell you the truth, you will deny Me three times before the cock crows.”

Peter felt misjudged and offended, but didn’t allow those feelings to fester and cause a rift between him and Jesus.

By then, one disciple after another stopped chatting to listen. Jesus letting Peter process all that, then continued, “A new commandment I give you, that you love one another even as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this all men will know that you are My disciples, if you love one another.”

ALIVE: Chapter 171 The Precipice

His mother Mary woke up the next morning with a very heavy heart and she didn’t know why. Yes, her Son had enemies and He told her that they would prevail, temporarily, but a sense of the reality of it hadn’t reached the core of her until that morning. She wanted more than anything to shake off the grief, but that was impossible. It was real and ugly. The truth was like a demon with yellow eyes and warts, pointed nose and gray teeth,  fingernails long and sharp coated in spots with dried human blood. The grief was tormenting her and haunting her out of her natural optimism.  Her trust in the Lord and awe of all the beauty He created was overwhelmed by a spiritual storm cloud over her head. Mary Magdalene was sleeping on the divan. She opened her eyes to see Mary sitting in her chair with her head in her hands. Mary said, “Are you okay? Can I help you?” Mary looked up at her friend and answered, “I had a horrible sleep last night, I don’t feel well. Something is wrong. I am afraid.” Mary said, “Let’s pray together.” “Yes, that is all we can do. Let’s pray for strength to endure what is coming.” Mary said, “What is coming?” Mary replied, “I can’t even give it words. Let’s just pray.” The ladies fell to their knees beside each other, faced East and prayed and chanted for as long as it took for the Lord to calm their hearts enough to trust Him that evil will only appear to devastate, and even that, as long as it lasts, will still find its end. Evil is nothing more than a parasite that will ultimately destroy even itself.

Jesus’s men also woke up with heavy hearts that morning. All was quieter than usual as they set about with their morning routine while waiting for Jesus to return from His time with His Father.

“Ah, there you are Master. Do you want some bread and fish before we go?”

“Thank you Phillip, not now. We had better be going.”

The troupe walked in silence to the temple that morning. When they arrived, the place was already crowded with pilgrims from all over Judea and Galilee. The disciples could not even stay together but were consumed by the crowd looking for a place to stand. The situation gave Judas Iscariot an opportunity to wander into the back room where the chief priest was. He had been thinking about his conversation the day before with the thin gaunt elder who invited him to meet with Caiaphas. Fortunately for Judas, no disciple saw him wind his way through the Passover pilgrims to the back room.

Meanwhile, Satan was winding its way into Judas’s mind who was unaware, so insensitive was he. Judas eventually found the door to the room and without thought or hesitation knocked as loud as he could to be heard over the canter and chatter.

A midget adorned in a blue satin robe opened the door a crack and asked, “What do you want?”

“My name is Judas, I am a disciple of Jesus, the man whom you seek. Tell Ciaphas that Reuben sent me.”

The door closed in his face; Judas waited. Moments later a tall Pharisee opened the door wide. “Come in! Come in!”

Judas looked around at the splendor of the room and spotted the gaunt elder, Reuben who invited him, smiling broadly and approaching him. “Welcome, welcome. I think these men will make this visit worth your while. I want to introduce you to Ciaphas. Do you know him?”

Judas replied, “Of course I know him, but I doubt that he knows me.”

“He does know of you, I told him yesterday. Soon we will all know you in gratitude for helping us.”

“What can I do for you?”

“We simply ask you to let us know where He will be. We will go there, and to be sure it is he, we want you to point Him out to us. Simple enough.”

“And what will you do for me?” replied Judas without another thought in his mind.

Ciaphas replied, “I am willing to give you 30 pieces of silver. Is that satisfactory?”

Trying not to lick his chops like a wolf about to pounce on a fox in front of the elders and Pharisees Judas, feigning nonchalance replied,”That will do. Give it to me now.”

Ciaphas nodded to his treasurer who went to fetch the coins, and said, “When can you deliver? We must get this over with before the first day of Passover. There mustn’t be a crowd around. It must just be Jesus alone if at all possible, or with a few disciples.”

“That won’t be easy, but I’ll let you know.”

The treasurer walked over to Ciaphas with the money.”

Ciaphas said to him, “Just give it to him.” The treasurer went over to Judas and without any expression counted the thirty pieces of silver in front of him.

“Thank you.” said Judas. “I’ll be going now. I know that tomorrow Jesus plans to have supper with just us before the Passover. I don’t know where it will be, but perhaps after that supper. I’ll let you know as soon as possible when you can meet Him.

“And where!”

Judas nodded. “Of course.”

Listening to the exchange, the rest of the Pharisees and elders were thrilled. This was what they had been hoping for, for months. They were anxious to get this whole Jesus thing behind them, so they could get back to normal and celebrate the Passover in peace and victory. Many of them held out their hands to shake Judas’ hand and thank him for his service to God. They tried to make Judas feel elevated to their stature.

Judas went back into the temple where the crowds were listening to teachings. There was still a lot of private chatter going on at the same time. He looked around for his brothers and Jesus. Finally, he spotted John and saw Jesus nearby, so he headed in that direction with the coins jingling in the leather bag tied to his belt.

When the service ended, Jesus went out of the synagogue and one by one His men spotted Him and followed. Outside, when they were all together again He said to Peter and John, “Go and make ready for us to share the Passover meal.”

John said, “Where are we going to do that?”

Jesus replied, “When you go into the city you will see a man carrying a pitcher of water. Follow him into the house where he goes.” Then Jesus turned to Peter and continued, “Look for the master of the house; when you find him tell him that the Teacher asks where the guest chamber is where He should eat the Passover with His disciples.” Jesus pivoted back to Peter and said, “Follow him. He will lead you to a large furnished upper room. When you get there, start setting up for our supper.”

Peter and John agreed in unison, and then said, “But where will we find you to let you know it’s ready?”

Jesus replied, “We will go back to Olivet, come and tell us when you’re ready.”

Peter and John nodded and set off to go deeper into the city center.

“Um… Peter, how are we going to find this man? It’s a big city.” said John.

Peter replied, “Mostly women carry pitchers of water, so it will be fairly easy to spot a man carrying one. You look on your side and I’ll look on mine. Pay attention.”

The duo strolled through the city scanning merchants, children playing, old women hanging laundry, and street sweepers, left and right.

“Look! There he is!” exclaimed John.

Peter looked over to where John pointed just in time to see the man go through the door holding the pitcher with one strong arm, while pushing the door open with the other. Peter and John rushed over to that door, which was just as quickly shut.

When they reached the door, Peter gently opened it with John at his heels. Peter confidently called out, “Hello! Peace be upon this home.”

The man who had been carrying the pitcher appeared and said, “May I help you?”

Peter said, “We have been sent to speak to the master of the house. Please tell him that Jesus sent us.

The man bowed and without saying a word turned to fetch his master. Peter and John waited patiently.

Several minutes transpired in silence as they waited before the master appeared. Peter said, “The Teacher asks where the guest chamber is where He should eat the Passover with His disciples. I am Simon Peter, and this is John.

“Yes, I have been waiting for you. Follow me.” Peter and John stepped back to allow the master to lead them out the door and into the busy streets of Jerusalem. He walked so fast  that Peter and John double-timed their steps to keep up. They went up stone stairs, around corners and down long alleys to a garden surrounded by buildings. Finally they approach a large building and were lead through the door to another set of stairs. They walked up. It was a large room indeed with columns topped by reliefs of pelicans.

The pelican mother will pull her own flesh out to feed her hungry young. John learned that from his grandmother and gazed at the pelicans around the room.

“You may have the room for two days. Please clean up behind yourselves. Pesach, chag, sameach.” And without waiting for their reply, the busy man turned and left abruptly.

Peter called out as the master walked down the stairs, “Pesach, chag, sameach.”

Peter and John sat down to rest for a bit and looked around the room. “Now let’s start setting up. We should go to pick out the lamb and have it cooked with the herbs for tomorrow’s Passover Seder.  Then to the market. Dishes, wine, bread. We will have supper tonight, and then we can have the Passover Seder tomorrow night. It was very generous of the master to give us two nights in this beautiful and, best of all, private room. When have we had such luxury before? Okay, let’s go get ready for tonight’s supper and also Passover.” said Peter.

Time seemed to move more slowly that day. Both Peter and John noticed but didn’t mention anything to each other. They managed to accomplish so much. Before the sun set on the horizon behind the buildings of this ever growing city, Peter sent John to Mt.  Olivet.

“Okay. Do you need anything else?”

“No, we are fine, hurry before it gets too dark.”

“I’m down the road already!” said John as he rushed out the door, and realized that he needed to study the winding path to be able to find the room again. Not an easy task, he had to really concentrate and remember landmarks.

Meanwhile, Peter finished preparing, then rested and prayed. The logistics of the supper and the following Passover Seder taken care of, thoughts of the intensity of the situation fell heavy on Peter’s heart afresh. He realized that this would be their last Passover together. Tears welled up in his heart. He hoped Jesus was wrong about being crucified, how he prayed that Jesus was wrong. What would they do without Him? He figured he had no choice but to return to Capernaum, his wife, her mother, and the fishing boats.  He asked the Lord to give him strength and wisdom to get through what was coming. While praying, Peter fell into a light sleep and dreamt that an army of flying bats with human faces was about to descend upon them headlong. He was afraid and didn’t know what to do as he looked up at the red sunset sky. Then, before the bat-people could swoop down and grab them with their webbed feet and sharp nails, angels with swords lead by Archangel Michael, arrived just in time. A great battle ensued in the red sky. Peter woke up to the sound of the disciples and Jesus coming in. He didn’t even have time to think about his dream.

ALIVE: Chapter 170, Good News

Jesus knew that the destruction of the world was a harsh message to have to convey. He appreciated the intensity of human life as He never could before becoming human. To thrive as the Father intended, in spite of demonic adversity, human ego, and ignorance required guidance, warnings, and hand holding. He could see that He needed to raise up Saints among the people to shepherd them and teach, and heal them when He leaves the earth. He needed to multiply Himself in the world to fully achieve His mission which was to populate the new earth, the everlasting Kingdom of God, free from the pain and sorrows, struggles and suffering of this training ground of a world. Most of all, the people needed the Paraclete.

Jesus looked upon this world as both God and Man with pity. He saw babies as being born into a war zone. To fight the battles within and without, and for the human to advance to the next life, to the true life requires knowledge and skill and spiritual guidance.  Freedom was both a gift and a curse because the essence of being free means that each person, even a slave, could control his or her own mind, their own attitudes, and fight their own battles in a myriad of circumstances.

Jesus knew there wasn’t much more time left for Him to teach. Once His authority had been established by the healings and miracles, and He had the attention of the people, the teachings were key to raising Children of God to populate the new world.

It wasn’t enough, and He always knew it wouldn’t be enough to have selected just one  nation to be called His People. That nation, Jacob’s twelve tribes, taught by Moses and priests and prophets, usually remained stubborn and rebellious. Now it was time to make the message more clear. His last teachings had to be so powerful that they would transcend the ages of politics and cultures.

Humanity needed to know what was ahead for them, so He was quiet for a few moments to allow the fearful message to sink in.

Silence.

Then He cleared His throat to get their attention. Some eyes were closed, some heads bowed down in contemplation. At that sound, all eyes opened wide and faces looked up at Jesus with humble curiosity and a need to understand the scary message about the end of the world.

Jesus turned the warning into hope, “But then, the Son of man will come in His glory, and all the angels with Him, then He will sit on the throne of Glory. Before Him will be gathered all the ethnicities of the world. He will then separate them one from another, as the shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. Certain groups will be sent to His right, and others will be placed to His left.

Then the King (aka the Son of Man) will say to the groups on His right, “Come, blessed of My Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world: for I was hungry, and you gave me to eat; I was thirsty, and you gave me drink; I was a stranger, and you took me in; naked, and you clothed me; I was sick, and you visited me; I was in prison, and you came to me.”

Then the righteous of the righteous groups replied in unison saying, “Lord, when did we see You hungry and feed You, or thirsty and give you drink? And when did we see You a stranger, and took You in, or naked, and clothed You? And when did we see You sick, or in prison, and we came to You? The King will answer and say to them, “I tell you the truth, inasmuch as you did it to one of these my brethren, even the least, you did it to me, your King.”

Jesus paused again to give the meaning time to sink in.

Then He continued,Then the King will say to those groups on His left.  “Depart from me, you cursed, into the eternal fire which is prepared for the devil and his angels. I was hungry, and you did not give me anything to eat. I was thirsty, and you gave me nothing to drink. I was a stranger, and you didn’t bring me into your home for shelter. I was naked, and as repulsed as you were by the sight of it, you didn’t even offer me clothes. I was sick, I was in prison, and you didn’t visit me.”

The disciples had never heard Jesus sound so passionate before. Tears dripped from His words as He described the needy of this world.

“Then they will answer saying, “Lord, when did we see You hungry, or thirsty, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and we did not minister to you?” The King will answer them, saying, “I tell you the truth, inasmuch as you didn’t help one of the did least, you didn’t do it for me. These will be sent into eternal punishment: but the righteous into eternal life. Those who have done good, will come forth to the resurrection of life. Those who have done evil, to the resurrection of judgment.”

Jesus raised his voice, “Now listen to Me! Love one another. Care for each other.”

Most of the people in the crowd felt convicted of the crime of caring only for themselves and their families. And even then, of malice toward certain people in their families, and especially of strangers and foreigners. They looked around at each other, and then at Jesus. No one had ever spoken like this before, with such passion and such authority. Where did this Man get this wisdom? Mark came to be healed of dropsy and instead his heart of stone, softened, and he looked at the others beside him with wonder about what their ailments might be, and their needs, and he felt different. He felt new for the first time in his long and pain ridden life.

Jesus closed by saying, “It is getting dark, go to your homes, pray to our Father that His will be done on this earth as it is in heaven, then our Father who hears you will call down heaven to earth, then heaven will enter into your hearts. Good night my brothers and sisters. It’s time for you to go home and sleep.”

As they turned to disperse as requested, emotions welled up in the hearts of many in the crowd that night. They had experienced a soft miracle, the miracle of love. Humble and powerful enough to change their way of thinking. Some wondered how that was happening. Was it His charisma, or the reasonableness of the message?

Jesus and His disciples headed over to their semi permanent camp in a secluded place on Mount Olivet. No one from the crowd followed them, so moved by the lesson and engrossed in their own repentance were they. More importantly, no Pharisee was in the crowd ready to pounce on Him.

As they sat around the campfire that night talking Phillip said, “It’s so hard to imagine how those Pharisees and even so many people still don’t believe that You are the Messiah.”

Everyone of them nodded in agreement. Traveling around the country and throughout Jerusalem, they had seen thousands of people and healed hundreds, and fed thousands, and still so many people minimized the wonders in their hearts or after a short time completely dismissed them and went back to their routines with nothing but the care of their own bodies to focus on.

Jesus shrugged His shoulder and responded by adding, “The words of the prophet Isaiah are being fulfilled. Remember what he said about this very situation?”

Jesus quoted Isaiah by memory, which also surprised the disciples:

‘Lord, who hath believed our report?
And to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed.

For this cause they could not believe.’”

Jesus looked around at His disciples, reaching for their eyes and added, “Isaiah also said.

‘He blinded their eyes, and he hardened their hearts;
Lest they should see with their eyes, and perceive with their heart,
And should turn,
And I should heal them.’

These things Isaiah said because he saw My glory; and he spoke of Me.”

Matthew said, “Some of the rulers actually do believe You.”

Andrew inserted, “True, but they are afraid of disturbing the Pharisees so they don’t defend You for fear of being expelled from the synagogue.”

Jesus said, “They love the glory that is from men more than the glory that is from God. What can we do? Nothing. They will do what they want. Because they are free, and the Father wants freedom more.”

Thomas said, “And for how long will that last before they sink into their graves and are forgotten, them and their short-lived glory! How free will they be then? Pity them. Look at what their political power has done to them. Their souls are withering in the vine.”

Jesus nodded and pronounced solemnly, “True. He that believes in Me, doesn’t only believe in  Me, but in Him Who sent Me. And he that sees Me sees Him Who sent Me. I am come as light into a dark world, that whoever believes in Me may not dwell in the dark. And if any man hears My teachings, and doesn’t behave as the teachings tell them, I will not judge him because I didn’t come to judge the world, but to save the world.

Whoever rejects Me, and My teachings, is judged by the teachings themselves. The teachings will be their judge on the last day. I never spoke merely from Myself; but the Father Who sent Me gave me a commandment to teach you these lessons. I know that

His commandments lead to eternal life. You need to know, and believe that I am telling you what the Father asks Me to teach you.” A whispered chorus of “I believe’ ensued.

As He was speaking Jesus saw that this was the right time to tell His disciples about the crucifixion. He had been holding it in and intuited that this was it.

“You know that after two days it will be the Passover.”

Bartholomew said, “Yes, of course; that’s why we came to Jerusalem.”

Jesus said, “Yes, but this Passover, the Son of Man will be delivered up to be crucified.”

The disciples were too stunned to even gasp. Their hearts felt great pain as they wondered how it was possible that the Father God would deliver His Son to such a horrific murder.

Jesus stood up and said, “Brothers, there is nothing more to say. Let’s go to sleep.” And He turned and went to His bedroll.

The others sat still in dismay. One by one, a man trickled back to his bedroll, while others stayed and glared into the dying flames and wondered what life would be like without Jesus.

What is worse, the event or the anticipation of the event? We can’t even imagine what the disciples felt at that moment. The anticipation brims with sorrow, fear, it seems to have no end.

Each disciple, and Jesus, the target of their wrath, spent a sleepless night tossing and turning on the cold hard ground. Jesus was savoring His last days on earth, listening for guidance from His Father, but His resolve was as strong as ever. This is what He was born for.  He needed to go to Hades. The Son of God, the Giver of Life was assigned to become human for the purpose of entering the place of the dead. How could He know what to anticipate there?

Young John wept quietly, his head turned away from the men. He didn’t understand how or why Jesus had to suffer the most humiliating death. No one in the scriptures was ever crucified. He had no frame of reference, no consolation except knowing to trust the Father. For a moment, John wondered if God would make a switch at the last minute like he did with Abraham who was about to slay his son Isaac. John lulled himself to sleep wondering how that could happen.

Judas didn’t take Jesus seriously. Exhausted from the emotions of the day, he assumed that Jesus was exaggerating and fell asleep quickly.

Peter and Andrew spoke to each other, vowing to defend Jesus and protect Him from such a heinous victimization.

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Two hours after daybreak the following morning the chief priests and the elders of the people gathered as scheduled at the court of the high priest, Caiaphas. The din of cross chatter was high pitched. Caiaphas hollered, “Stop talking! Order! One person speak at a time PLEASE! This Galilean, Jesus, must be stopped. We have allowed it to go too far already. Who has a plan? Raise your hand. I want to hear ONLY one person at a time!”

A short bulbous elder with blue eyes and a messy salt and pepper beard raised his hand and receiving the nod, he spoke up, “I think we should abduct Him and carry Him away to a secluded place and kill Him.”

Caiaphas said sarcastically, “Great idea, now who wants to do that?”  All the others just looked at the fool with sour expressions on their faces.

One man looked directly at the fool and spoke up, “We can’t kill! It’s against the law, stupid!”

Another said, “Especially during the feast! Do you know how many people, when they find out will come after all of us? We want to kill Jesus; we don’t want to start a riot.”

Another deliberator said, “Don't you remember that we said that we are going to get the Romans to kill Him for us.

ALIVE: Chapter 169, War and Peace

More than a thousand years after the Pharisees targeted Jesus for destruction as described in the scriptures he was reading, the wise teacher had a good reason to weep. Not only because Jesus was being falsely accused, or because of the gross irony that the Healer would be murdered, and not only because of the political corruption that still haunts this world, but because a powerful sense of profound enmity squirreled its way into the core of him where the teacher by surprise became aware of Jesus abiding there. The teacher had received holy communion the day before. He knew that the body and blood of Christ saturated his own body and soul. Because of that revelation the wise teacher felt himself to actually be a branch of the vine, as Jesus had said he was. And so the epic tragedy of the end of Jesus’ human life melted the shield that separated the teacher’s own life story, from Jesus Christ’s life. And yet, at the same time, the wise teacher was feeling an intense sense of contrition. His awareness of unity with Christ was met with equally intense awareness of his own sinful humanity. It was like two massive trains colliding on the same track. All that was enough for his weeping to grow into wailing.

The wise teacher gradually composed himself and read on. While the teacher reads, weeps, and wails, you and I will return to those pivotal days in the life story of humanity.

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After confounding the arrogant Pharisees with His Wisdom the disciples followed Jesus out of the temple. Matthew who was walking beside Jesus and looking around him, casually mentioned, “Look at all these beautiful temple buildings. They are so majestic.”

Jesus looked around Him for a moment and then said to Matthew, “Take a good look because there will not be one stone of all these buildings that will not be thrown down.” They continued to walk in silence while Matthew was rendered speechless as he looked at the buildings and imagined their collapse.

From the temple the group walked over to the Mount of Olives to rest.

Matthew said, “I know about the destruction of Jerusalem when we lived in Babylon, but the Lord had mercy on us and we returned and built it up again. Are you saying that there will come another devastation of this great city?”

Thomas who was listening came closer and asked, “When will that happen, will there be a sign of the coming of the end of the world?”

Jesus answered, “Pay attention! Let no man lead you astray. Many will come in My name, saying, I am the Christ; and shall lead many astray. You will hear people talking about wars and rumors of wars; do not be troubled, these things must happen; but that will not be the end yet. Nation will war against nation, and kingdom against kingdom; and there will be famines and earthquakes in different places. All these things are only the beginning of the travail.”

As Jesus spoke the disciples stepped closer to hear better, and soon other people who were on the mountain attached themselves to the huddle.

“Then they will deliver you up to your own tribulation. It’s not just Me that they are after, it is your mind and your heart that they want to keep their clutches on. I am only pulling you away from their grasp and that’s why they want to kill me. And when you don’t honor them alone as you once did before I came, then they will kill you. You will be hated because you doubted them and instead honored Me and My Father. When they have done away with Me, they will become even more hostile because by killing Me, they did not achieve what they set out to. They will be furious and wage war on you because you believe in Me.

Expect many people to fall into their hands for fear. People who once believed in Me and My Father, in what I taught and showed, will stumble out of fear of them. To pacify the enemy some will even betray their neighbors and their own brothers and sisters.

Many false prophets will arise, and lead many astray. Because iniquity will grow, the love of many will become cold. But the person who endures to the end, whether enduring persecution, or even torture, will be saved from the ultimate destruction that is the fate of the faithless and of the cowards. Truth will prevail. Truth spreads in spite of the danger of knowing it.

In the kingdom to come there will be no more sickness, suffering or evil of any kind. This good news will be a beacon of light to those who believe in Me during the dark times ahead. But suddenly, when not expected, the end will come.”

The disciples and the crowd around Jesus did not expect to hear such an intense message. It was as if His timing mimicked the unexpected end of the world. No one spoke. His message was a serious warning. To the Jews and Samaritans, Jesus was an unprecedented healer, a teacher, a miracle worker, and now He presented Himself as a prophet.

Peter and the other disciples who had been nervously preparing for the arrest of Jesus, now had even more to fear for their own future. They had no where to go to escape misery, if that’s how they chose to see it. And yet, Jesus also told them about the victory that follows nobly getting through it.

The enemy is powerful, to a point, and more powerful for cowards than for the brave. More powerful for unbelievers than for the faithful.

Jesus continued His warning, “Read the prophet Daniel who had his vision of the abominable desolation while standing in a holy place. When it happens, those who are in Judea should flee to the mountains. If you are on the housetop do not go down to take things that are in the house. If you are in the field do not return to get your coat.  It will be worse for nursing mothers in those days! And pray that your flight is not in the winter, or on a sabbath. Because there will be great tribulation, such as has not been from the beginning of the world until now, or ever will be. Unless those days will be shortened, no human being will be saved. But for the sake of the elect who heed this warning, those days will end. I assure you.”

Jesus paused and continued, “But immediately after the tribulation of those days the sun shall be darkened, and the moon shall not give her light, and the stars shall fall from heaven, and the powers of the heavens will be shaken: And then there will appear the sign of the Son of Man in heaven: and then all the ethnicities of the earth will be horrified and mourn. Then no matter where they are on earth, every man, woman, and child will see the Son of Man coming on the clouds of heaven with power and great glory. And He will send forth His angels with a great sound of a trumpet, and they will gather together His elect, the humble and faithful, from the four winds, from one corner of the earth, and from one end of heaven to the other.”

Knowing that He was speaking to all of humanity far into the future, Jesus ended His message that day by saying to the swollen crowd, “Watch therefore, for you don’t know the day or the hour. But be careful for yourselves, unless your hearts be swindled by eating too much, or drunkenness, or too much pleasure, or anxiety. That day will shock you suddenly as if you are caught in a trap and you won’t be prepared to handle it. Because it will come upon all that on the face of all the earth. In every season, be alert, praying that you may prevail and escape all these things that shall come to pass, and that you are able to stand before the Son of Man.

ALIVE: Chapter 168, Growth

In the year 1432 Anno Domini , the thoughtful child said to the teacher in a whining voice, “Why don’t you just tell me the answer? You know it. Why do you make me figure it out myself?”

The teacher replied, “But I did tell you the answer. Didn’t you believe me?”

The child cried, “When? I didn’t hear it.”

The wise teacher answered patiently, “I think you didn’t want to hear it. Some other thoughts were blocking the way between your ears and your mind.”

The ancient child giggled at the image.

The wise teacher continued, “The answers are simple; sometimes you think they should be harder. Now listen to me again.

I tell you that death is not what most people think it is. There are phases of life. The first phase started when you were inside your mommy’s womb. You started like a little fish, and then grew fingers and toes and muscles and you became a baby with lungs and when you were ready for the outside world, to breath air, and your muscles were ready to grow, you popped out of your mommy, and grew and grew and grew until some day you will stop growing.

But it isn’t just your body growing all that time, it is all of you. Your body growth has its own natural limits, but your mind, and heart and your spirit grow too, and they have no restraints on them at all. You are the Master of you!”

The child listened closely and was amazed to learn this. The wise teacher’s words opened a big new space in which to explore life.

The wise teacher, sensing the child’s receptivity continued, “When you grow old and your body is finished with this air and this soil with all its food for you, then you will go to live in a another different world. Just like mommy’s womb was very different than this world, but it was always the same you and you grew there; in the same way you are growing in the womb of this earth, with its soil, sky, and sea, then you will live in a whole new world that you have been preparing for, even though you weren’t aware of it and could have no idea what that world will be like, even as in your mommy, you had no concept of nature.”

Wide eyed the child said, “I see! Then what will happen? Finally, you are speaking clearly! You are the best teacher!”

Now it was the teacher’s turn to laugh. “No, I’m not. The best teacher in the world is the only one who knows what our next world is like because He came from there. He came to teach us the traits of a citizen of God’s ultimate world. If people learn them here the person becomes  the kind of person suited for the new universe. The more you know, and the more you practice what the Best Teacher taught us, the happier you will be, forever! Do you want to live happily ever after?”

The child solemnly nodded. “Of course I do.”

The wise teacher added, “I only know what I experience and learn from reading of people who lived through the centuries, and especially what the best Teacher who ever lived taught me, and still teaches me.”

“Who is that Best Teacher? How did He come from the place that nobody ever went to?”

The wise teacher replied patiently, “He is called the Messiah, or the Anointed One, or the Christ. He the one and only God who created the universe. He came to earth as a person and He was murdered, but He is still alive, because there is only death of the body, but not the person’s mind and heart, their soul. People leave their body here in nature, and are born into the next world, like coming from the womb of the earth. And so, since He is still alive and since He is God, He knows all the secrets of the different phases of life. The Best Teacher still teaches me in lots of different ways. The easiest way is when I read the Scriptures. I have them right here. Let me read to you.”

“Okay, yes. I want to learn and live happily ever after!” said the wisening child.

The child sat comfortably cross legged on the floor ready to listen carefully, while the sage read,

“And there came unto him Sadducees, who say that there is no resurrection; and they asked Him, saying, Teacher, Moses wrote: If a man’s brother dies, and leave a wife behind him, and leaves no child, that his brother should take his wife, and raise up seed to his brother. There were seven brothers: and the first took a wife, and dying left no child, and the second took her, and died, leaving no child behind him; and the third likewise: and all seven left no child. Last of all the woman also died. In the resurrection whose wife shall she be, for all the seven brothers had her as wife?”

Jesus said to the Sadducees, ‘This is why you people are wrong, you don’t know the scriptures, or the power of God? Because when people rise from the dead they do not marry and are as angels in heaven.’

And the teacher added, “See how smart He is? They tried to trick Him because they didn’t  believe that there is a resurrection, the next phase. But He just told them a little about it.  And He told us too. Child, know this, that someday, everyone whose bodies died will come alive again, because the most important part of us can’t ever die.

I will teach you one more very very important thing, that you will think about as long as you need to breathe this air.”

The child sat up straighter wide eyed ready to be filled with knowledge.

“God, made this big amazing world filled with Life in thousands of forms, and then He made us to be small images of Himself! God is Life. God cannot die. He doesn’t have a body, and He doesn’t need air. He is a pure and Holy (that means different, unique) Spirit. We people have bodies like animals, but we are not animals because we have the Spirit, the mind, the Life of God in us. This is why we are so smart and we can speak and write, and invent! Though the body will stay on earth with nature, who you and I really are inside, all that we know, all that we feel, will be born into another place, and then another place.

There will be a 4th last place. God will give us new bodies that conform to the nature of that ultimate world. Our new incorruptible healthy bodies will live in a brand new Earth where even our bodies will never die, and we will be able to see God. Our life will be complete, just like it was always meant to be.”

“Can I see my grandfather there? He loved God.” asked the child with yearning.

“Yes! Imagine that, child! We will be like angels some day! Both of us! And then we will be given new bodies!”

The child’s face looked bright and sweet, “I can’t imagine that!”

The wise teacher replied, “Think about it later and let’s continue to read.  ‘But about the dead and that they are raised; haven’t you (remember He was speaking to the Sadducees who didn’t believe in the resurrection) read in the book of Moses, in the place concerning the Burning Bush, how God said to Moses, ‘I am the God of Abraham, and the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob?’ God is not the God of the dead, but of the living: you made a big mistake to think He is the God of the dead.” (The teacher changed a few words to help the child understand.)

“Wow” exclaimed the ancient child.

After a brief hesitation the teacher smiled and nodded in agreement with the child and continued. ‘And one of the scribes came, and heard them questioning together, and knowing that He had answered them well, he asked Him, What commandment is the first of all? Jesus answered, The first is, Hear, O Israel; The Lord our God, the Lord is one: and you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind, and with all your strength.

The second is this, you shall love your neighbor as you love yourself. There is none other commandment greater than these.

And the scribe said to Jesus,  ‘Of a truth, Teacher, You  have said it well that God is one; and there is none other but He: and to love Him with all the heart, and with all the understanding, and with all the strength, and to love your neighbor as yourself, is worth much more than all whole burnt-offerings and sacrifices.

When Jesus saw that the scribe answered discreetly, He said to him, ‘You are not far from the kingdom of God.’ After that no one dared to ask Jesus another question.’

“Why not?” asked the child.

“Well, because the foolish mean people wanted to trap Jesus and make Him say something wrong, but He never did. So those people gave up.”

The teacher continued reading, ‘But then Jesus saw some Pharisees standing around talking to each other and He went over to them and asked THEM a question.

He said, “What do you think of the Messiah? Whose son is He?”

One Pharisee quickly answered what he thought was a very easy question,  “The Messiah is the Son of David.”

Jesus replied, “How can that be if David, in the Spirit, called Him Lord, saying,

The Lord said to my Lord,
Sit Yourself on My right hand,
Till I put your enemies underneath your feet?

If David called Him Lord, how can the Messiah be his son?

And no one was able to answer Him, neither did anyone from that day on ask Jesus any more questions.’ They just walked away from Him.

Jesus watched them go and then turned to Phillip with a smile of satisfaction, then shrugged His shoulders in sympathy for their stupidity, and the disciples followed Jesus and Phillip out of the temple.”

The child giggled and the teacher chuckled. It was funny to imagine the men who made themselves to be so high and mighty but were actually so ignorant. Who were they fooling but themselves?

“I’m almost finished and then you had better go home. I’m sure your mother is wondering where you are.”

“Okay.” said the child obediently, wanting rather to stay with the teacher.

‘Jesus walked out of the temple. Looked around at the busy city of Jerusalem and sighed.’

The child cut in, “What’s a sigh?”

The teacher sighed long and loud.

“Oh yeah.” nodded the child.

‘Jesus said, “O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, that killed the prophets, and stoned them that are sent to her, how often would I have gathered your children together, even as a hen gatherers her own brood under her wings, and you would not let Me. Behold, your house is left to you desolate: and I say unto you, You will not see Me again, until you say, Blessed is He that comes in the name of the Lord.’

The teacher looked up at the child and closed his Bible, and said, “You had better go now.”

“Please, just one more.” begged the ancient child.

“Okay, but that’s all. I think I hear your mother calling.”

“No you don’t!”

The teacher picked up the Scroll and opened it, reading right where his eyes landed, ‘Jesus went back inside the temple, and sat down near the coin donation box. He watched as the  people dropped coins in the slot. Rich people came and dropped many coins in and went away feeling generous and good about themselves. Then a little old lady dress in ragged clothes dropped in two coins that were so small that they barely made a sound when they fell in.

Jesus called his disciples over and said to them “I’ll tell you that this poor widow gave more than all the rich people because they gave the extra money they had, and she gave what she needed for food’, “because she trusted God to take care of her. Okay, that’s all; you had better be going.”

“Thank you for reading to me! That was fun.” And the child got up, turned around and ran down the cobblestone road. If all the knowledge the child had just gained had weight, moving at all would have been impossible. But knowledge is like spirit, weightless and rich.

After the child was out of sight, the teacher read on silently to himself, ‘When it was time for the Jewish Passover, many went up from the country to Jerusalem for their ceremonial cleansing before the Passover. They kept looking for Jesus, and as they stood in the temple area they asked one another, “What do you think? Isn’t He coming to the Feast at all?” But the chief priests and Pharisees had given orders that if anyone found out where Jesus was, he should report it so that they could arrest him.’

The teacher stopped reading, lowered his head and wept.